I am so missing you Honey....You spoiled me sooooo much, and now it is so hard to keep it together without you.  You made it possible for everything, anything, whatever I needed and wanted you were there, right on time, and now I AM SOOO LOST WITHOUT YOU. 

You were my angel then and you are my angel now.  I am awaiting another sign from you guiding me through these wordly tasks that I am faced without you.   

Grief never ends

But it changes

It's a passage.....not a place to stay

Grief is not a sign of weakness

Nor an lack of FAITH

It however is the  price of Love ......           

Well Honey today is May 17th 2015, 1 year has passed since the Memorial Service was held in your Honor.  Your viewing went well and sooo many of your relatives and friends were there to express their love for you.  Of course it was a very hard day for all.  
 
You would have been proud of the turnout.  It was like a family reunion that you had spoken about, just not that way, but we have to take what was given.  Still miss and loving u so much The little one asks for you and talks to your picture on the dresser.He puts your Bronco hat on top of your Urn or your Army Hat on your Urn.

Another hard day is coming for just me May 30th 2014 is when I was alone for your cremation as your wish was done.  I kissed ur shell for the last time and spoke up to you towards the Heavens. It was hard, but it was your wish as we had spoken many times,just not knowing you would go before me.  When you told me you did not want to live as you were and to get things in order, I did, not knowing it would be soooo hard in the end,

This is a sight where I come to express my feeling at any given moment.  I have reach out to othersto come to this sight, but they have not come, only Tonya and Ruben, but as you would say O'WELL....
Utill next time my Love...Rest In Heavenly Peace.........

When we rekindled our friendship after five years, I rec'd a phone call before leaving for work.  I said " hello" the voice on the other end said "hello, how are you" I said " hello Mr. Dickson, he said "you never forgot my voice", I said "I could never, ever forget your voice. I said hold your thought and get back with me after I get off work, and he did. So a true love began, and he said he was "coming across the mountain, and he did, with the help of his brother Sonny, that had along talk with me and said his brother needed to be with me, and please consider our conversation, and i told him I would see where our relationship would go.  Sonny continued to call me as did my sweetheart, and he came across the mountain and stayed about a week and went back home to Cali, stating he would b back, ( yea sure).  Sonny once again calls and says "Why did you left my brother come back?" i said your brother is full grown and makes his own decisions.  Sonny was not happy, but then I get a call from him saying, my brother is on his way back.  We had already planned on our future together, just not telling Sonny. Strangest thing, I only met Sonny over the phone, and we talked as if we had known each other forever.  But we both made Brother Sonny happy and at peace that his brother had taken on a new life and he felt he was safe with me. The moral....Let it go, If were ment to be, it will come back, and my friend, love, husband.did.

Sitting quitely going through some of your treasures, I picked up, one of your 3 Bibles and begin to look through at some of the scriptures you had written down.  I feel I was led to these special  moments in your life. I could feel your spirit in reading them.  Thank you for leading me and sharing with me.  I know you are a Child of God and was led to my life with you through God and the many many years we shared together.