i have been thinking alot about you lately. Been thinking about how things should have been. We were best friends we did everything  together .  We should have never lost touch the way we did. Candy gave us a huge scare this past winter. I know you were watching out for her. I miss you. Today is your 34 th birthday. I know you are celebrating with everyone up there. Happy birthday my friend.

I miss your face, and boy I miss your laugh. I remember when we would walk to the movie store, get our favourite espresso ice-cream, and our girly movies. I loved how we would cuddle, talk, and laugh in bed until we fell asleep.. You were the best auntie and best friend a girl could ask for. I remember when girls at school were putting me down for what I wore and how I looked.. so you let me wear your clothes, and you did my hair and helped me feel like I was beautiful. I admired everything about you. I won't get your white clothes dirty, don't worry! :) haha! you always protected me and for that, I thank you from the bottom of my heart,. I will always hold our memories close to my heart. you were so special to me, and I hope your looking down, and your proud of me. I have done so many things since you left... I wish I could sit and tell you everything, but im sure youll have lots to share with me when I finally see you again.. manda, so many times I wanted to tell you how much I loved you, how much you inspired me to do the right thing, and become a woman strong and tough, just like you! You'll always be on my mind, young and beautiful. Little biggy makes me so happy, she loves and is sassy smart just like you!! Im glad she was left here, because she reminds us all of you!

 I dream of you often... I hear your laugh in mine and it makes me want to keep laughing.. I want so badly to go back and tell you all the things you should have been told. like how kick ass awesome you were. no one and nothing would get in your way! ill never forget our talks.. you will always be my number one hero.. love Nelly