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September 6, 2022
September 6, 2022
Gorda I miss you so much, fatfat is you all over again. Even the way he walks. We miss you so much mija I leave these messages here for you so that you know you are always missed and that not a day goes by that I don't think about you.
February 18, 2021
February 18, 2021
5 years since you left us and this pain isn't getting any better! I MISS YOU! PLEASE COME BACK TO US!!
February 17, 2020
February 17, 2020
Today marks 4 years that you left me! My heart is broken and will never be the same. When you left a piece of me left with you! PLEASE COME BACK GORDA!!
September 18, 2019
September 18, 2019
Not a day goes by that we don't miss u. My heart is broken and will never be the same.
June 7, 2017
June 7, 2017
Well gorda just a few days away from my birthday and all I wish for is to be able to see u one more time to hear ur voice say (Tia we gangsters) I miss u so much it's the worst pain ever... U left us a piece of u and he is the spitting image of his mommy, that's my fatfat mija, I love u so much one day we will be together again
April 18, 2017
April 18, 2017
Gorda, Tia loves you so much... Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Luciano is the spitting image of you. Thank u for such a blessing mija. Til we are reunited again❤
September 7, 2016
September 7, 2016
For some reason the last 2 nights I've been singing that song by lizzy and dani I think that's who sings it anyways lol... u know tia
We'll I sing it to myself as I go to sleep and as I wake up in keep singing it is don't know why. Each day it gets harder knowing ur really not with vanessa when I'm with mom and when I see Vanessa and ur not with her I just say she's out with someone... but in reality ur not ur gone and it hurts me so much gorda. Please just come home
August 23, 2016
August 23, 2016
Tia loves you and misses u so much gorda, i wish i could just see u one more time....
June 22, 2016
June 22, 2016
i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
                  i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

I love you xoxo
RIP Gorda, My Panda Bear
June 10, 2016
June 10, 2016
Man, do we miss you. I remember so much about us in kindergarten like it was yesterday, I remember I would always go to school crying because I didn't wanna stay in class and you would hold my hand and tell me to stop crying. We would take naps right next to each other and get in trouble for talking and giggling. Omg lol and then when I cut my hair and you snitched on me and I couldn't use scissors anymore...
I still can't accept it. I miss you. I remember I got to your baby shower all late but I was able to see you and I asked you, are you reaas and you said girl I want him out already lol. I went to your house the day you had gotten out of the hospital. .. I think and I was able to hold Luciano I was telling you and Liz that I was going to take him because he was the most cutest calm baby ever.... until you changed his diaper boy did he get mad.You were so happy with him you love him so much and now hes surounded by great amazing strong and lovable people who will always be by his side no matter what... I hope this was something I didnt remembered,because I wish it never happened. I was so excited because my birthday was the next day. Then my mom called me and she asked "where are you , I said in class, and then she told me to step out so I did, she said I want you to be strong I know how much she meant to you and I know that today is your day.. I was like mom what's going on ... Amanda has passed away ... my phone fell and I couldnt hold my tears I went running to my car and drove to tios... Mandy I miss you but I know you're up there guiding your son you can be with him and guide him to the right direction. Just never thought it would be you who I would be writing R.I.P. for. God has gained another beautiful and strong angel.
June 8, 2016
June 8, 2016
I was still in disbelief about the news when my sister texted me I mean it's still shocking like you were just fine and ready to pop out the baby you looked happy at your baby shower and when I asked you are you ready you said more than ready and when we went to your room and seen all the clothes hanging I said daanng you are ready lol I just remember all the weekends we use to get left at home while our mommas were out enjoying them self as we sat at my house bored as hell lol there's so many memories that you left behind good ones may I say but as we grew older we went our separate ways but still had love for on another . I have your picture in my car next to abbis and she always asking who's that do I know her and I say yeah thAts Amanda she flips her hair and says oh yeah that's my cousin right mom remember I was at her house I be like yeah Abbi lol just know you'll always be remembered as I still rock your shirt cousin love still remains love you Amanda gone but NEVER forgotten till we meet again cousin take care of all of us
June 7, 2016
June 7, 2016
Well mija today mijo turns 4 months and it is bitter sweet because I wish you were here. I give you my word mija that he will know that you loved him so much and that he was your everything. I promise you as his tia and his god mother that I will always be here for him no matter what good or bad right or wrong, the same way I was for you. I'll always remember how when someone would make you mad or pick on you your first responce would be DON'T MAKE ME CALL MY TIA!!! And you know what you were right you know Tia always had your back I would never let nobody hurt you I didn't care how old or how young, male or female They were going to go through me first. I just wish I could of done something so you wouldn't have left us. I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO TRADE PLACES WITH YOU MOMMY AND LUCIANO NEED YOU SO MUCH!!! WHY GORDA????
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016
So it's been hard to even grasp that your not here anymore. I talk to you all the time like if you were still here. Me calling you annoying or texting you through out the day. I decided to start here just to write down what I think about or talk to you about. Past or present. As I work I seriously think this lady next to me thinks I'm crazy. I'm here working and I hear a song that reminds me of you and I cry. I have my moments on a daily basis. I sit here in silence in tears no one really knows how much you mean to me. Today I'm telling you it's summer and what are we going to do, it's swimming time and tabiltas and ribs. yumm.. Chris is going to 2nd grade and has been good like you always would tell him to be. He wants me to bake cupcakes with him so tonight I'm gonna do that with him. He said since you used to do it with him and he wants (food coloring) lol you had. Emme is potty training and I think she gots it but still no luck with the bottle :( I know. You helped me take Chris off the bottle. She's a feisty one. She likes to argue with Dad like you did. He likes to make her mad. She tells him (your mama). And well I can't forget your sweet beautiful baby boy, every day he is getting bigger and learning so much. The other day I just laid next to him and we must have talked for like 20 minutes he was just kicking those chucky legs and arms. We are showing him how to grab and he's not quite sitting up alone but he will soon. He is such a happy though. I don't know how much he's gonna like the summer. He doesn't like to be hot but loves the water. :) he's gonna be a fishy like all the kids. We all love swimming. The doctor says he's not teething but boy does he slobber maybe he is. Omg and he sucks his thumb like it's soo good. lol. We have to break that habit but just when he gets alittle older because right now he's too cute. Oh, he knows Dads when he hears him he wants all of dad's attention it's funny. Mommy is sad but mijo reminds us soo much of you. He has your smile. I gotta get back to work. ttyl love you.
May 12, 2016
May 12, 2016
To the Family and Friends of Amanda,

Please except my deepest condolences. It is unnatural to lose one so young in death. Although I didn't have the pleasure of knowing Amanda, I wanted to share some peaceful thoughts that helped me when I lost my mom to the enemy, death. I've found comfort in knowing that "there is going to be a resurrection" (Acts 24:15) I hope that you'll find comfort in knowing that you can see your loved one again during a time when "death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away." (Revelation 21:4)

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