Dad,                                                                     The days are going by and I still haven't figured out how I'm suppose to live my life without you in it. I know you wouldn't want me to be upset but I am. I just can't get myself to do anything and that's not me to be depressed and lay around. I'm trying my hardest to get back to myself because I know you would want me to. So I'm trying really hard for you but I just can't seem to do it. I promise you I will though it's gonna take me time a lot of time but I will do it for you. We are Smith's nothing brings us down. I hope your up there with Pap and I pray that he is proud of who I am. You 2 were my 2 most favorite men in this world now I have my 2 little boys and I hope they act like you and pap 2 great men. Who would do anything for anybody without even thinking about it. I Love you and I wish you were here :(