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Her Life

My mom

December 4, 2011

There is absolutely nothing bad or inappropriate or anything negative that I can think of when it comes to my mom that I could say.  She was the most loving, sweet, caring mother in the world and would do anything within her power for her family.  She was always there and never complained of all the things she lost when coming from Cuba but was always grateful for the fact that we were a family in this country together.  

She was a teacher and from what I can tell from the thousands of students who have written to her, about her, mentioned her, run into her, visited her, called her, a pretty good one and she knew about relationships.  My mother, no matter how hurt she was, would keep it to herself than take the risk of offending someone else.  All she wanted ever was peace in the family and for everyone to be together as a family.

No matter what she had to do, her obligtations, her wants and needs, she would drop everything in a minute if my dad or one of us needed her for everything.

I am going to write more later about her because there is so much to say but I can tell you that not one minute of each hour of each day goes by without me thinking about her.  She was my best friend and I could talk to her about anything and everything.  She helped me every way she could.  She taught me, just like my dad, what unconditional love was and she taught by example also.

It hurts me literally in my heart to think of how she suffered and the pain she felt adn the desperartion she was feeling when she died very untimely.  She collected angels, don't know if it was because her name was Angela, but for whatever reason she loved them.  Perhaps because she was and is an angel and of that I am certain.

I am glad she is with my dad and I pray to God that they are resting in His kingdome and have eternal peace and can be together forever because the bond they had and the love they shared I have never seen duplicated.

Anyone that ever met her loved her and I know personally that my life will never be the same because of the fact that I had her in my life for the good attributes I possess and it will never be the same because I lost her.  I really thought she was going to be around longer but I told her I loved her every day several times and I thank God daily that I got to spend as much time with her as I did and that we were able to discuss a lot of delicate subjects and she shared so many anecdotes with me.  I trusted her with my life and she told me every night when I tucked her in when she was too weak to cover herself that she loved me.  The morning of the day she died around 10 a.m. I squeezed her hand and told her in her ear to squeeze back if she could hear me because she had that awfwul mask on to breathe because of her lung disease and it was not hard but she definitely squeezed back.  I told her I loved her and then asked her to squeeze again if she heard me and she did so I know she died knowing I loved her.

I don't think she was ready to go.  She had too much she still wanted to do and she wanted to see her grandchildren more and see her great grandchildren grow up because she loved children.  I hope their mothers and fathers keep her memory alive for them in a tribute to the person she was.

My mother was a true believer and had great faith in God.  She believed in the power of prayer and she believed that prayer accompllished things and those are two things that I will never forget.  There are so many times I want to pick up the phone to tell her something I just found out, or to talk to her because you talk to your best friend, etc.,  but I can't.  But I do go visit her a lot and sometimes time flies because I stand there just talking to her and Daddy about everything going on in my life and then I am silent and try to decipher their answers and what they would have been. That is how I am able to go on and make decisions.

My mother, my best friend.  I miss you and hold you in my heart and carry you with me everywhere I go.  I will never forget the things you told me and I will always try to live up to the standards you had which were tall, but worth striving for.  You are my guardian angel now and I miss you but I hope you are resting in peace and breathing because it killed us all to see you suffer.

I love you mami.