Mom, I miss you so much. I wish I could've seen u tht day... idk y it had to be tht day of all days, my visit day with u. I held ur memories n my head n dreams, as I always will. I love you n I just wish I would've taken u out on the lake more n spent more time with you at night. I was so lost when Rayann told me, I couldn't breath, think, eat, sleep... I tried to drown myself in drugs n cutting, but nothing worked, and nothing will, because no matter how high I ever got or how bad I cut, it would never be able to take away them regrets n memories n pain. Everytime I look at ur pictures I remember u n the best light. Mom, I miss you. I hope u r at peace now. Im going to be everything n more that u knew I could be, I promise. Love, your daughter, Bella Marie Summers.