Today Sunday, it is exactly 7years since you left us. I try not to dwell on how much you are missing here on earth, but that can be easier said than done. I am often told how you are happier in Heaven but honestly that never makes me feel better. Actually if I am completely honest, that thought makes me a bit angry. I want you to be here with us. I want to talk to you, I want to see you, and I want you to be there for all the events and life milestones that has been happening in our lives.

I hate that you left us so soon, and even more so when I know that I never got the chance to repay you for all the sacrifices you made for us. Maybe I am being selfish, but I don’t care, I think in this situation I am allowed to be unreasonable and selfish. I just want to have you back in my day-to-day life. You used to be the first person I called when I was upset, scared, confused, or happy. I miss your advice, your jokes, and even your bad days. I know you were pained you were going to leave us with the way you looked at me at the emergency room as you were about to be wheeled into the theatre, the fear of leaving us in this cold world without your guidance was so obvious on your face with the tears I saw rolling down as you spoke to me. 

I miss you every day, Mom, and I pray you are able to see my accomplishments and even my sorrows. To feel that you are still present in my life and supporting me from Heaven helps. You were always my biggest cheerleader and fan. The sound of your voice when you call me BARRISTER is still very loud, you sometime shorten it and jokingly say “BARRY” . You were the first to teach me the concept of unconditional love which is the best gift you gave me in life. You are an exceptional giver and your legacy remains intact. 

I love you and hope I will continue to make you proud as I celebrate your life and honor you by being the very best me that I can be.

Forever your girl . . .