January 18, 2016
January 18, 2016
Mom,
I can't explain how much I miss you or how large the hole in my life is now that you've gone. I have to try really hard these days to make my life colorful and not grey. I'm hoping as more time goes by, I won't have to try so hard. I still wake up every day thinking I should call you and I miss you when Scarlett and I go grocery shopping or to get a snack at Sonic. It's weird to say that every time I pull into Sonic that I have to take a deep breath and steady myself to keep from losing it, but I do, because you loved to go to Sonic. I feel like a part of my soul left with you. I feel empty and so so alone. I hope you have found peace wherever you are right now. I know the moment you left your body that all your pain left, too. That must have been such a relief. Like being let out of a prison. The selfish and grieving part of me would have you here in your body and daily dealing with all of that pain. However, I am happy that you aren't in pain and, again, I hope with all my heart that you've found peace in your soul. I miss you. I love you.
I can't explain how much I miss you or how large the hole in my life is now that you've gone. I have to try really hard these days to make my life colorful and not grey. I'm hoping as more time goes by, I won't have to try so hard. I still wake up every day thinking I should call you and I miss you when Scarlett and I go grocery shopping or to get a snack at Sonic. It's weird to say that every time I pull into Sonic that I have to take a deep breath and steady myself to keep from losing it, but I do, because you loved to go to Sonic. I feel like a part of my soul left with you. I feel empty and so so alone. I hope you have found peace wherever you are right now. I know the moment you left your body that all your pain left, too. That must have been such a relief. Like being let out of a prison. The selfish and grieving part of me would have you here in your body and daily dealing with all of that pain. However, I am happy that you aren't in pain and, again, I hope with all my heart that you've found peace in your soul. I miss you. I love you.