Hey mom today I did exams in school they were easy to me I did one in food prep and in reading there was a lot of reading but oh well I have more exams this week I'm doing good in school wish you were here to see that I miss you I can't believe It almost 5year you been gone don't even feel like you been gone that long But I know your in a better place not your not sick or anything anymore But man mom if you were still here you would love the guy I'm with he really sweet he's amazing he's very helpful the boy and grandma and Mary and kara really likes him I think you would to been with him going on 4months on the 26 of this month I'm happy with this dork and I'm planing on staying with him for a long time wish you were here mom sometimes I just need you her to help me out and it hard for me to say how I feel To him because Im so use to tell you what wrong And how I feel you were the one I cried to when something wrong but now I'm trying to change that man he makes me so happy mom he always there for me when I need someone by my side when I cry he crys when I smile and laugh he smiles and laughs with me we silly but serious with each other and I love that bout us mom I wish you could see how happy I am with him he always has you baby girl Smiling from ear to ear iknow we have are hard times but we always get through it by talking it out hes the one I wanna spend my life with I with you were here to meet him mom but iknow you can't so that's ok well today I was looking at pictures of you and us kids and grandma an everyone else and made me miss and think about you more I miss seeing your beautiful face everyday I miss having a happy family I miss you ughh I remember how u use to call me your angle and said I was sent down from heaven because I was the blessing of your life remember seeing you cry because you would tell me the story when I almost didn't make it into this world and you telle how much I mean to you and you show it to me all the time no lie mama sometimes I ask my self why did I even come in to this world I'm a mistake I'm not useful even my dad told me that just hurt when you left all i asked was why couldn't he take me I don't have nothing to lose anymore I feel like iv already lost everything anyways my boyfriend changed that I don't think that as much anymore he filled up a lot of empty ness mom that I lost and it feels wonderful to nlhave someone here and knowing they love you don't worry mom I think I found the one you would think so to if u were here :( well I love you so much I'll write on here tomorrow
Wish me luck on my exams tomorrow love ya