Here I am once again and another year has almost gone, and tomorrow will be your birthday and I wish you a Happy Heavenly Birthday as always my love.
I wonder about many things that have happened over the years that we shared together. We had a great love for each other and we knew each other so very well and we could always tell each others moods and often our thoughts. I wonder what it would have been like for us if you had not passed away almost 10 years ago, and now I feel very sad at the thought of it all. My love for you has never changed in all of these years even after your passing. You are and always will be the love of my life, I hope that we can be together in the hereafter to see you again and all of our families that have also passed. So many things that we shared so many memories we made and if our lives were granted all over again I would still do it all with you my love.
So now I go and see another year go bye in the blink of an eye. Happy New Year to you and those who have passed on each side of our family and extended family. I will be thinking of you when tomorrow comes and I will probably be withdrawn as it marks your birthday.
As always bless you for your love during our lives together as I will always finish this with what is in my head and heart.
"I will love you forever and always" As always I leave what is written on your casket " gra anois agus go deo" Your Alex xxxxxx

Here I am again thinking about you at this time of year and how much it meant to you in many ways. I can hardly believe that it has been almost 10 years since you passed away . I miss you always and would love to be able to see you hold you once again, you will be my forever love you gave me so very much in the life we shared and I am enternaly greatfull for that. I have just left another tribute to our son Neil as this is the day before he passed away, I know that you will be together again with him and your mum I miss you all greatly and you will know that anyway. How I wish I could turn back the clock on my life and I would not change anything about it perhaps only the things that left Neil with so many scars in his life. You are my sunshine and greatest love . I thank God for blessing me with you and for being my best friend, wife and love of my life. So Happy Heavenly Christmas my love my heart is full of love for you and one day we will meet again so for now I say this to you as I always do, I will Love till the end of the earth and my heart is forever yours. My Anne, love of my life, mother of our children, my best friend and lover and my loving wife. "I will always love you forever and always" As always " gra anois agus go deo" Your Alex xxxxxx

Another year has rolled around and still I miss you greatly and I always will. Today is our special day, it was the start of live together. It is hard to belief it is now 52 years that we would have been married and it all seems just like yesterday as we set of on our journey as man and wife. Many were the memories we made together, the love we shared, the ups and downs of life. If I could do it all again I would in the blink of an eye as they say, I would truly be happy if that was possible.
Then came the day I lost my true love and my heart, when you passed away in that year of 2013. I never thought you would be the one to go first and I lost the best and beautiful part of my life when God took you to be with him and the rest of our families. There are never words to express sorrow never words to express the emptiness in my heart and that will never change, I may have moved on in this life but I will never forget nor love someone as much as I did you. We shared a great love for each other and we both knew it without many words to say so, we were always together except when we were working but we made the times we were together the best we could. I thank you for being you and being my wife so my love "Happy Heavenly anniversary" on this day in 1970 we set out on our journey many tears come to me as I try to finnish this tribute, you are and always will be the greatest love of my love. So as I always finnish, Love you forever and always... "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

Hello my Love,
I am beside myself that I did not leave this on the day God came to take you away to be an angel among the angels. I am annoyed with myself and how I could forget this day, I am distraught at the thought of it and none to happy with myself over it. I never even left anything on the facebook page but there are only a very few that have access.

So my love, where do I start you know that my love of you has never left my heart even though I forgot this year it is the first time and the last that I will forget to put a little note on here. I think of all the years we spent together of the love shared by two people,you and me, there is no one that compares in a lot of ways even though I have moved on in many ways. I think of different days as we went through our married life together all the ups and downs that life pushed out in front of us, the special moments we shared and could look at each other knowing the great love and affection that flowed between us for all our years together,

The joy of children and of them growing up warts and all as they say, but we loved them and did our very best to provide a happy home and love to them. To those darkest of days when our family was falling apart, to the worry of what would become of them and the many things in the world that came along and made us worry if we would ever see them all safe and sound. To the reconsiliation with Neil and the many things that affected our lives and his. We came through so much over the years to a calmer time and to the hopes of when we were both retired and the things we wanted to do and achieve with whatever life we had left with each other. To those darkest of days that we faced when the cancer struck, I will never forget your courage your love that flowed endlessly from you regardless of how you were feeling. To the day that I lost you and with that went my heart it was hard to bare and is still so, even now I fight back the tears within me as I write this on here. I will never stop loving you till the end of my own days and thats a fact, you were as the song goes" My sunshine my only sunshine you made me happy when skies were grey", how very true, and one day we will meet again in the sweet bye and bye as they say, and there we will be able to share the after life with each other. Who knows perhaps we will both be reborn again and find each other as soul mates in some distant and far off future, until those days come about, remeber this
" I LOVE YOU" with all my heart. As always I leave with the message and with what is on your plaque and in my heart "My Anne, my heart, my soul, my life, my love, and my wife". "I will Love you forever and always:.... and as always the words in Galeic "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

Well my love another year has come around and tomorrow will be your birthday Happy Heavenly Birthday my love.
How I wish as often to be able to see you hear you and to sit and talk with you or to visit friends or just to share time together. Where the years have gone, I often wonder and what if we had the chance to see these passing years together. I would love for that to be, but there would be a great sadness also to bare.
I do not need to say just what that is, he is with you and the rest of our families that have been called to heaven. I wish that I could roll back the years to when we first started out on life and I would cherish every moment of the time we spent together and our lives together. I would like to change many things and to take away the sorrow and sadness from your heart and mine.
We shared so much together and loved each other dearly, there is never a waking moment that I don't think about you and our lives together. I send you my love to heaven above and so much more. I long for the sound of your voice, to see your smile and to hear the laughter in your voice. We will always be you and I we will always have a great love that binds us together and that will always be till I cross over to be with you and all of our families that have gone before. So as I say to you with all of my heart
to you my love, so as it is written so shall it be. "Love you forever and always"
        "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

Well my love, here we are again another year has drifted bye and I wonder were it has gone.The world has changed so very much since your passing and not always for the good.
Nothing has changed between me and the two remaining adult children of ours, still no exchange of words or reconciliation between us and I never expect that to change. When I lost Neil 2 years ago on the 21st it was the beginging of the end of my relationship with the other two but you will know that anyway.
I miss you so very, very much my love I wish that I could hear your voice see your face touch you hug you. My first true love and my world taken to soon from me and our family, so many times I wish I could turn back time but no one can. I wonder what you make of this estranged family and this crazy world these days. To say all the things that are in my heart to you who was my rock and anchor in life, I still feel so very often I am alone even though I have moved on and you will know that in her own way another good lady. I suppose that I am lucky to have found love twice in life, even so you will be my one and forever love and that will never change. You will now have your big brother Davy who passed and for me another sorrow, because I could not get back to pay my respects to his family.
I hope you have all met up with each other up there, as we near your favourite time of the year with Christmas which is never the same for me since our Neil passed away my only consilation is that he will be with you and his gran. I wish all the family who have passed a very Happy Heavenly Christmas, to you as always I send my love and the message thaty I always leave to you here along with my heart.
        So once more to you my love. "Love you forever and always"
               "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

We placed gold on each other's fingers
You brought me, love like I have never known
you were my anchor in life's stormy oceans
But most of all you were my best friend.

When I need hope and inspiration
You were always strong when I was tired and weak
I could search This whole world over
You'll still be everything that I could ever need.

You were my bread when I was hungry
You were my shelter from troubled winds
You were my anchor in life's troubled oceans
But most of all you were my best friend.


You were always my everything and forever in life
You were my heart my soul my love of a lifetime
You were my anchor in life's troubled oceans my fair wind on troubled days
My life was complete with you in many ways
But most of all you were my best friend, the love of my life. I miss you greatly and I always will no words can express my love for you and our lives together I was only one half of the whole and you were always the other half. We always had each other's love and needed no words to express that we knew each other inside out and back again. I wish you a Happy heavenly Anniversary today my love.

It has been a long haul and 8 years since God came to claim my angel and not a day passes bye that I don't miss you in some way or another. Life moves on and I have also but there will never be another one that can truly take your place.
How I wish that I could turn back time and that we could have found out sooner about cancer and you had been cured. Alas, it never can be done, but you will and forever live in my heart and head until we meet again. God bless you always I will forever love you greatly.
"gra anois agus go deo" Alex ❤️❤️ xx xxxxxxxx

Here we are again my love, my heart, 8 years have passed since God called you to Heaven above. Gone was the greatest love of my life and my heart went with you, tears a plenty have followed since then and still do. With today no different since them. How I miss you, your words, your touch, your smile and laughter all these things and more I miss but most of all I miss you my darling wife, friend, lover, mother of our children and a gran and great gran.

Life moves on and I have moved on but nothing takes away the heartache of missing you in Oh so many ways that only someone who has suffered a loss of a loved one can feel. I have lost 2 people they are you and our son Neil an other great heartache that I have to live with, my only good thing was that he and I made up for things of the past and I will be ever grateful
for having that time with him as short as it was. 

Words never come easy even with the passing of time, I just miss you so much and everything about you the mould was broken when you went and you took a big piece of me with you. I hope that you and him are together with all of our families there in heaven above and one day I will join you all to be reunited with each other again.

The family of ours that is left are still not healed by the things that came about from Neil`s death and I do not expect them to be ever healed and I have come to have no desire for them to be you know me well on things and will no doubt have your own thoughts. Many tears I am fighting back as I write this and hoping you somehow can read the words that I write and you will know what is in my heart. I just miss you so very very much and I will never forget the years of love and the ups and downs we faced over the years. Our love for each other saw us through so many things that only you and I know of and you were my rock and anchor in life from that first day we met and the years we had together. God has one of the best hearts that I know of my Anne may you be for ever blessed and know that I still love you, miss you and it will be so until we met again. So my darling I leave you as always with these words ''gra anois agus go deo'' love now and always. Alex xxx

Well my love another year is almost gone, and tomorrow will be your birthday. Happy birthday in heaven my dear, I remember how you did not really care for this day as your birthday. Used to be everyone rushing around last minute shopping and cleaning the house and not much time for the birthday girl.
In my mind I remember that time we met again in the Kinema ballroom in Dunfermline in 1969. You were there with your friends on the eve of your 18th birthday, how very much that just seems like yesterday. We met again, with that phrase have I no met you before lol. Then I celebrated your birthday and new year at your mum and dad`s house. That was our starter for ten as they say, in the March of 1970 on your mum`s birthday we got engaged, come that August we were married. Just starting our life together which was to last almost 43 years of marriage, and those who said it would not last 5 minutes, saying also we were too young.
We sure proved them wrong in that way of thinking did we not, how I miss you my love, such is the ache in my heart, to be able to see you smile or tell me off for something lol. I miss everything that was and went to make you who you were and how much you have cherished our love over the years. You are forever my one true love, my sweetheart, my best pal, my wife and so much more. One day we will met again and I will be glad to see you and our son. A year gone since he passed and I miss him also a part of us both, I hope that he is with you and your mum. This family still remains as ever broken but I know that you will have seen it and know what is what as they say. I have no words to tell you how it makes me feel and you above all will also know that. So my darling I will go for now and I will leave you my Love as always here on these pages, god has an angel who once was mine. Thank you for your never ending love,  although these tears of mine may never go and my heart will always ache till that day I to walk through Heavens gate. So once more to you my love. I say these words, I will Love you forever and always... "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

well my love here we are again another Christmas is soon to be upon us, I am not looking forward to any of it. Tomorrow marks the death of our son Neil and it is hard to belive that a year has passed already. So much has gone on and you will be aware of it all and of that you will be aware, I hope that our son has found peace and that you and him and your mum have met each other again. My heart is heavy as this family of ours is still not healed, but there is not much I can do nor do I intend to I have said my peace regards it all to them. As you well know I am stubborn to the last as always. My greatest sorrow is that I could not lay you to rest together with our son, I feel that you would have liked that to be so. As you are his mum and he your son that your bore and gave birth too all those years ago. Sadly that was not to be and I still hurt because of it.
How I wish that I could roll back the clock to happier times for all of us, but with the best will in the world I can not. So as we end this year I hope that the world can heal from this virus that has been around for over a year. So many have lost their lives and so many have lost their loved ones. I miss you as always and forever, I miss your smile your laughter, I miss the togetherness that was us. So much and so many things about our lives together, one of these days we will met again along with all of our families that have gone before us. Life goes on as they say and I have moved on in many ways, but my heart will always belong to you my love that will never change. So I will go for now till your birthday and be back to leave you a message I wish that there was a way for all the things I say in here for you to read and to know, I suppose perhaps there is someway that you can. So till the next time my Love I say as always. I send my love to you in heaven above and that God has my angel. "Love you now and for Always" as is written so shall it always be "gra anois agus go deo". Alex xxxx

A very special day is upon us once again, this day being our wedding anniversary. Today would have been 50 years of marriage to my wonderful lady, The love of my life forever and always.
I wonder where the years went and how life slips through your fingers, one moment you are young and perhaps carefree and you enjoy life. First as just a couple of young people who are falling in love with each other. Then on to being married and the start of life together, then as your love grows along come children and we were blessed with 3 children 2 boys and a girl. The years roll on and they grow and grow finally no longer babes in arms or toddlers,but grown ups of a fashion. Along the way you encounter many things good and bad, but as they say that is life. Deaths illness and heartbreaking moments that tear you apart. In between is the bond of love you share with and for each other that grows forever stronger and stronger as the years flow bye. Also comes grandchildren 4 boys 4 girls all a great blessing at times but you love them warts and all.
Work and life go on, the ups the downs also, but still shinning is our love for each other. The years of marriage have gone from one to 40 in no time and you wonder where they all went and again the heartaches of family life have also been there. Through it all you have overcome many things and the love you share is endless, Then the biggest of things at almost 43 years together you are taken away by cancer. Lost is the man you married all those years ago your death will forever be the worst memory of all to bare.

I moved on and managed to find love once more not the same as our love but still good love and I am blessed in that sense to have found it again.

I remember today the day that would have been our 50th Anniversary, I remember it like it was only a few days ago that we set out on our life tog ether's journey. I thank you and God for the years, the months, the weeks, the days, the hours, the minutes, the seconds we shared in those years. Bless you always my darling and from me to you

    Happy Heavenly 50th Wedding Anniversary in Heaven My Love
   I will Love you Forever and Always as this is written so shall it be;

  Love you forever and always... "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

Another year has come again, and although it is not until tomorrow that is the date that you were called to be an angel. Seven years ago you were called and it was as if it was yesterday, my heart goes on as does the love that I have for you my darling.
We shared so much you and I, and it all ended so suddenly,I miss you greatly,I miss your smile, your laughter, your voice and most of all your love. Time goes bye and the like the years I miss you and what we might have been able to do had you still been with me. You know the sad part of last year and how our son Neil passed away and I hope that he is with you and your mum and the rest of of both our families. I hope that he has found the peace and love he was always searching for,I will miss him also in many ways. Yet our family is broken and you know me and I will not be the one that mends this. I might have moved on in life and found love again but you will still be my forever love. My first true love and I will be eternally grateful for that, seven years have passed away and we have two beautiful great grandchildren. You will no doubt be shinning your love down on them as you watch over them as they grow up. So my darling as always I send my love to you in heaven above God has my angel."Love you now and for Always" as is written so shall it always be "gra anois agus go deo". Alex xxxx

Well my love another Mother`s Day, but perhaps you do not need reminding of the fact . I am sorry this family of ours remains estranged from each other. You will have no doubt see and heard the words that have been said by me and our daughter and her family. Yet our oldest is yet to personally respond to any of it all. I hope that our son Neil is with you and his gran. That is because I hope he can find peace with you and her, I have been accused of many things about his death and afterwards. I am so fed up with all of it and the venom that comes from our daughter. Your mother was so right in her words that Lisa would be the stick to break our backs. How very true this has turned out to be, I have now turned my back on the other two as I have had enough grief in my life these past 6 or 7 years since you passed. How I wish you were still here how I wish I could find an answer to all that troubles me currently in my life.It is sad to think that it has all come to this a family estranged from each other in many ways. Anyway my love it does not really fit in here on mothers day does it. You were a good mother to them all in every way you possibly could and no one can say otherwise. So my love I bid you farewell for now and send my love to the 3 of you in heaven, just so sorry for all the things that have gone on recently and I do not want yours or his memory tarnished by our so called daughter. You above all would have realized why I wanted you and Neil to be together till it comes to my turn but alas it was not to be. So my darling I leave you as always with these words ''gra anois agus go deo'' love now and always. Alex xxx

My love and my darling forever wife, now in the last few minutes of the 1st day of the New Year 2020. Another decade has passed , I wonder how the day would have been had you still been here?
Rushing around perhaps fixing the new year dinner for the family probably , I wonder if we would still be facing the loss of our son Neil? So many questions of this day run in and out of my mind . The truth is you and him are no longer with me in this life . I hope that he has found peace at last for the trials and tribulation he faced in life. I would like to think that he has and is sharing your company and his gran.
Life is never easy for any one you a born and you grow up in life and each of us touches on many people who in turn are friends and family . For some it is very difficult and others easy . They say life is a learning curve in preparation for the next life . In every life there is heartache and sorrow , love and happiness . His was limited while ours was good and very loving which makes it all the harder when one passes on to the next life . I hope that one day I will see all those that I loved in this life once more . To see you to look upon your face to see you smile once more .
I don't know how much longer I may live and until that day you come to lead me to the next life. I will return to this page which makes me feel that you are close by me . To leave you the words of my thoughts and my heart no one can take away the love in both from me that you and I shared . So I go again till the next time I leave my heart here in these messages to you I as always say "I loved you then and I love you still".
"Love You Now and Always as it is written so shall it always be " "gra anois agus go deo". 
            Alex xxxx

Here I am sending you this wee birthday message, because tomorrow will be your birthday. As well as being so it will be a hard day for me, you will know because our boy will be with you. Never thought that I would be facing something like that. You and him are together now and I miss you both love you both always.
So my darling lady this message comes as always to wish you a happy birthday on your birthday the 31st. My heart is heavy and sad wishing things were so very different in life. I am at a loss for words to write a bit like my life without you and now our son Neil life is so very often cruel and this is how I see it. You and him have gone from my life and I wish that I could turn back the clock again and start anew. Go back to when we started out on life's journey with the knowledge of what was laying before us in life and change so much for us as a couple and parents. That is all it can be a wish, and we will never be able to change what life has and had in store for us. So my darling I have no more words to say only I miss you and my heart misses you and that will never ever change.
So Happy Birthday my love and as always I love you. I Loved you way back then and I Love You still. So I say as always as it is written in my heart "Love you now and for Always" as it is written so shall it always be "gra anois agus go deo". Alex xxxx

Here is another Christmas approaching us, seems only like yesterday that you would be putting little touches to the Christmas decoration and batteries in the many things that you loved your globes and other things. You loved this time of year but not some much your birthday on the last day of the year.
Hard to think of you not being around, you would have been so taken up by the two little ones of Reece`s, they bring such joy to me these two great grandchildren full of life love and laughter, I have not seen them in a long time because this family of ours is pretty much broken these days. I am sure you will know this anyway looking down on us all at this time of year. Neil is missing at the moment and I have not heard from him for over a week nor has anyone, I hope he is safe. For all his faults he is still our son, and we know that is another tale. This family goes on growing up so fast and our grandchildren are getting older and fast becoming teenagers and adults.
I am thankful that we have them for all their little faults, I love them all greatly as did you. How I continue to wish you were still here with me, we shared so very much throughout our life together you and I. The ups and downs the joys and the sorrows and a little heartache in between. You are and always will be the best thing in my life then and still for all I have moved on and found love again. I know that was a wish of yours that I could . A different kind of love between me and this lady to you and I and from a place far away from where we were. She gives me strength and love but so different to what we had together. I love and respect her greatly and she is a good, loving , kind hearted person. In my heart you are always and will be there forever that is fact and can not be taken away. I grow older as these years go by and next year I will be 70 never thought that I would still be here. I miss you my darling wife greatly, I miss your voice, your laughter, your words of wisdom when things are bad all the things that made you, these things are forever in my heart till the day I meet with you again, too see your smile, hear your voice all the little things that I have missed so very much. So my darling I will go now and return before or on your birthday. I Loved you way back then and I Love You still. So I say as always as it is written in my heart "Love you now and for Always" as it is written so shall it always be "gra anois agus go deo". Alex xxxx

I write this a couple of days before our date in life. We would have been 49 years married on the 24th of this month. How time seems to pass bye all to quickly, but the memories are always as sharp as ever. I miss you still and love you still my heart will always be yours, even though I have moved on. We shared so very much in life you and I the good the bad and the ugly as the saying goes, no one but you and I know the stories of our time together. Nobody knows the true love we shared for each other and always will till the that time we meet again. Life is never easy and in a few days my heart will be heavy again whilst I remember you on that day we were married. So I leave my fondest wishes and my heart here on this page. I hope that you will remember as I do our love,and our life together, so much we should have still been able to share in life. The birth of our two great grandchildren I know you will be watching them from afar and will be shining your love on them. As another tear rolls down my cheek I will remember our day with love and fond memories as always. So I say as always as is written in my heart "Love you now and for Always" as is written so shall it always be "gra anois agus go deo". Alex xxxx

My best friend & loving wife. A Much loved mother to Steven , Neil , an Lisa. Also a Much loved gran to Reece, Jade, Cheyanne, Liam, Paige,Mark, Elizabeth, Aeron.

Posted by Alex McFadyean on 11th May 2016
We meet when I was 19 years old and she was 18 years old.We married less than a year later. She was my life partner, my soulmate, the love of my life. Never thinking that after 43 years we would come to the end of her life and the star of mine would be no longer shining in my life. Not a day passes that I do not think of her,miss her, and wish she was still here with me.
She was the most loving caring person I ever had the pleasure of sharing my life with. I miss her smile the cheek, the laughter we shared the silly things that go to make a couple. She had a huge heart for anyone and any animal that she came into contact with, would fight for injustice wherever she saw it be it towards a person or an animal. Such was the love in this lady of mine, so proud of her family and as a gran there were none like her grandchildren all 8 of them and would be over the moon at the thought of a little boy who is not here yet, her soon to be Great Grandson how much she would have loved that.....
I miss everything that went to make up "MY ANNE" such was and still is the love I have for her so very hard to go on without her.The songs on here mean a lot to me and to her when she was alive. It is hard to carry on when you love someone like her. I will be forever grateful to have meet her,loved her and shared my life with the Lady who became my wife. If nothing else God has a real Angel in Heaven and one day we shall be together again to hold each others hand to walk to talk and catch up and watch over our family with pride and happiness.as always "gra anois agus go deo" xxxx Alex ........ GOD BLESS YOU MY LOVE.....

Posted by Alex McFadyean on 31st December 2016
I leave you some flowers as I used to do when you were here, I now have them in a vase on this special day and others too. They bare my love for you as they always will, they come with the love for the lady I love, you may not be here but you know how much I loved you and what we shared. The good times the bad times and those sad sad events that took others away so on this day I remember them too those who were dear to you and me those that we can not see, we will all meet again and I belive that to be true but the one i really want to meet will always be you....... Love from my heart to you as always.... as always "gra anois agus go deo" xxxx Alex

Posted by Alex McFadyean on 31st December 2016
Here we are again another year has gone bye and I am still heartbroken and missing you so very ,very much. You were the light in my life, my sweet and darling wife. My pal my friend forever till the end. The mother of our children and grandmother too, the whole great bunch of them those 8 grandchildren all growing up to. We had one special delivery and I wish you had been here, that little boy full of sunshine and light our first great grandchild our Rio I mean. He is a beautiful little man with a smile so cute would melt the heart of the biggest of brutes. I know you will be looking at him from above and leaving your gift of a great grandmothers love.How I wish you were still here with me but that was not meant to be, I think of you always and speak to you a lot and would give my right arm to have you back here with us. we will meet again someday and renew what we had our undying love for each other that many never had. I loved you then and I love you still and we both know that we shared such a lot. There are no words that can express how I feel but you know me so well and that is enough. So my darling I send you my love all the way up to the heavens above, your in my heart and in my soul and forever I will love you till I see you once more.May the good lord keep you safe for me till that day he calls me to you together again we will be and happy and glad to be once again the couple we were..... Love you forever and always....as always "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

Here we are again that day of 4 years ago gone bye and there is never a day that you are never in my thoughts. How I wish that I could roll back the years to a time when you were still here and we were young again. Sadly that can not be, God came and called you away to ease your pain and suffering to take you into heaven where only the good belong. You were a remarkable lady and forever in this old heart of mine. There is nothing that could take it away, even if I wanted it to be. You will forever be My Anne, my heart, my soul, my life, my love. and my wife.Love you forever and always.... and as always "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

Here is another Christmas come to be and since you have been gone,nothing has been the same as it was. You will know what I will mean without the words.So done is the deed and there's no going back on what has passed.
I will always miss you no matter what.There is forever that part of me I shared with you for so long, I thought would go on and on. I will always love you and miss you the only one who ever understood me. Oh, how I wish you were here each and every year and yes I have moved on. It is not the same without you and that is the shame of it. You always loved this time of year,and possibly my bah humbug. I will forever cherish your memory and your love nothing and no one can take that away. So Merry Christmas my darling...and as always "gra anois agus go deo" xxxx Alex

on 31st December 2018
I am back with you on this page. Anyway, my love, today marks your birthday. You are not here with me and my heart still remains with you. I miss you so often and so much, I recall the birthday you had when we met. There was you in a white dress with your friends out for a birthday drink. I remember looking at you and saying to myself I am sure I know that lassie.
Sure enough, I did, I even asked you if I knew you. Your reply you should do we used to go out with each other haha. We have laughed at that many a time you and I. We then became inseparable, and a few months later we got engaged and then in August of 1970, you became my wife. We had 43 years almost of love and affection for each other. I guess that I am trying to say even though I have moved on and remarried. I will never ever forget you as long as the sun shines and day turns to night. On this your birthday my head is full of memories you and shared for so many years to you in Heaven I send you a kiss and wish you " A Happy Birthday My Darling" love you now and for always. Love you forever and now as always "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx

Posted by Alex McFadyean on 7th April 2019
Dear Wife in Heaven,
I sit here and ponder how very much I'd like to talk to you today so many things that we did not get to say I know you care for me very much and how much I care for you. Each time I think of you I know you will miss me too.
An angel came and took you by the hand and said your place in Heaven was ready for you far above..
You had to leave behind all those you dearly loved you had much to live for, you still had much more to do, It still seems impossible God called out for you.
Though your life on earth has passed, in heaven it starts anew. You have gone to life anew to heal the pain and the suffering too. I missed you then and I miss you now. Although life moves on, I can never forget the love of my life who was you, my darling wife. Though you have walked through Heaven's gate we will never be far apart, for every time I think of you, you are forever in my heart. My tears may never go and my heart will always ache till that day I to walk through Heavens gate. So once more to you my love. Love you forever and always... "gra anois agus go deo" Alex xxxxxxxxx