A LETTER TO MY FIRST LOVE MY TONY TOUCH!
word's can't express the way i feel for you or about you, i thought about you all day yesterday, about the ups n downs but mostly all the great times we had together , sometimes i wish it was just a dream cause you were just at my house the third week of June and of course we had alot of fun ( especially in the shower), i always try to remember exactly what we talked about word for word and i remember you telling me how you felt like you was a boy maker and you was skeptical about that little girl and you told me how you wanted to take your boys to see the fireworks for the 4th of July, you was always a good friend to me despite that you had a girlfriend named j that you told me that was too clingy lol you still came around, one day i remember you and the bestie kept telling me to get a facebook and if i wanted to contact you, you'll always be on facebook lol , so about a month later i finally signed up to facebook and i sent you a friend request you and the bestie were already friends and i asked her why you didn't add me yet? Me being busy with my kids and working i really wasn't on facebook , now it's the ending of august and the bestie n I are missing you like crazy wondering where you are since i lived in the bronx we went to brooklyn to look for you or somebody you knew, so we planned to go out there that weekend but for some reason it was like you were trying to tell me something the whole time, i felt your spirit around us , we kept joking about things you used to do and say from south park, i was telling brist how i missed watching you do tricks on the bike , how you taught me how to pick locks n stuff lol, i remember you being drunk a few times coming to my best friend house yelling my name out the window looking for me, i remember the first time you cut your hair and you just came from Kissimmee florida and i was the first person you came to see, i felt so special , i remember being caught by your aunt in your grandma house , i remember spending the night at rhanette house on new years and her mother caught us in the bed and she told me to go in the living room lol , i remember meeting your beautiful mother and grandma and brother Ness for the first time, long story short we had a lot of history i loved the fact you trusted me with your son one summer day your baby mother dropped him off and travis came upstairs at trini house and was like here you go step mother cause he was crying and i put him to sleep, So the weekend is here and we get on the 4 train to the 3 to new lots and as soon as we're coming down the stairs we see deebo walking wit some girl so we stopped him like wassup where's everybody at? Where's my TOUCH? So all he did was pull up his sleeve and showed us his tattoo on his arm and we both looked at each other like stop playing you joking and he was like yea ya mad late this happened like 2 months ago , i tried to be as strong as i can but when we got on the 15 bus we both just broke down everyone was looking at us like we're crazy, i cried all the way home realizing that the whole time you was trying to tell us yourself us not knowing that we were really suppose to miss you for real , when i walked in the house the movie princess and the frog was just going off and the first song i heard on tv was by NEYO (Best thing i ever knew i needed) i will never forget that because i feel like you were trying to dedicate it to me so every time i hear it i become sad , i will never forget riding on the back of your bike and me saying slow down cause i was so scared lol I WILL NEVER FORGET WHAT WE HAD! I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FIRST LOVE!
