my beautiful Anthony,

Today i’ts been seven years since you left us. I still miss you very much. I miss everything about you, and I miss your calls every day more than you know. Last Sunday was your niece Keira’s  babtisum, and I missed you being there, but I know you were there in  Spirit. I always wonder what would you be doing now, and lots of other things. A lot has happened since, but I think you already know that. 

I love and miss you very much. 

Mom. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

We miss you so much Anthony.  Thank you for sending us the signs you do.  We got the one this past weekend loud and clear.  While visiting family, our host brought out a bib for Shea Antonia.  I immediately noticed it was a Keith Haring bib. I asked where the bib came from and no one knew!

 

Finally made it out to the West Coast. And it just happened to fall perfectly in place... I spent your last birthday with Steph.  It was bittersweet, 2 of your besties celebrating you. Love you!

In May of 2014 I was having a hard day, I had Facebooked that I really needed to feel you that day.  A few hours later, some guy is walking in my parking lot, he says hi, and I notice this tattoo on his arm! As you can imagine I bugged out for a second, but then I smiled, and teared up a little, but I knew you were there.  Thank you for watching over me! XOXO

Please watch over him.

Always great to be together..

Laughing at something that Anthony said...

Anthony always happy to be with his family..

Posing outside the church..

One of the last times together having the best time...

Derek's visit to San Fran...

He said my glasses look bigger than my face.

A good mentor..

Always having fun.

Like a sister..

Always happy to be around.

His second adopted child..

With his adopted child..

One of his best things to do, with one of his loves Sofie.

Good friends...

One of his bestie..

One of his bestie...

Good friends..

Good friends..

Good friends.

Always a very happy boy...

Part of his personality.

With wonderful friends, who where like family..

My little baby boy, what a joy he was.

One of the last picture of me with the loves of my life..

One of the happiest time of my life..

When Anthony was a little boy he was always a leader, never a follower as he grew into a young men he remained the same. I loved that about him. He was always a take charge person, when my mother passed Anthony was only 14yrs and he took charge, when his father passed in 2007, he took charge. He was always very organized I loved that about him. I feel that only good people get taken away. Anthony I will never get tired of saying how much I miss you, and always will.



Now I would like to share something that happened at the hospital one day, Anthony and I where the only ones in the room, Anthony sat up in his bed and looked at me with a look in his face that I had never seen before, and he said "mom did you see that"? and I said what? and he said did you see the hand on my shoulder? and I said "no Anthony there is no one here" I got the chills. It was on his left shoulder, so I think we have to believe that there must be some after life, so for the last past year I have been think about that incedent, and who it could have been.. If any of you visited him at the Hospital and he told you this story, please let me know..  About a month ago I had a Dream that I saw Anthony and he was texting, and I asked him " are you sad that you left"? and he said " No" I told him please come visit more often so we can hang away. Anthony I hope that at least you are Happy....  I wish it was me and not you gone, you still had a lot of life left....  Oh how I miss you every day. Please help me with this pain that I carry every day..

So many times I remember being in tears when in Anthony's company, tears from laughing so hard my belly felt like it would burst. I miss those times and cherish those memories. Many years ago, we once shared my small studio apartment in NY for a few months and slept on a futon together. In my sleep, I rolled over and put my arm around him - he abruplty woke me up, startling me, moved my arm, and said, "girl, please!" - LOL...  That's the Anthony I love so much. I miss you Ant. Here is one of my favorite picture of us, it sits in a frame in my office and I see it every day. 

I will always remember what a people person Anthony was. He was able to talk to anyone.  I remember when he helped me sell designer jeans back in the day at the Flea market. Anthony had such fashion sense even then, he was about 14. I probably sold more jeans with Anthony there than any other day. He helped the girls pick out the "best" pair for them. Of course he took his pay for the day in jeans also. Gotta love that boy!!!!

Anthony and his brothers David, Derek and Mark at a visit to see their father at the Nursing Home in AZ......

I miss Anthony calling me every day, I always looked forward to his calls because he always made me laugh. He would call me on his way to work and he would tell me to wait a minute, come back and say OMG, and I would say " what did you see" he would tell me he was taking a picture of someone with some kind of outfit and say don't these people look in the mirror before they leave home, ufffff. Only in San Francisco, Oh how I miss those times.



Anthony I love you, and will miss you forever and a day....