APRIL MY SWEET DAUGHTER IT HAS BEEN 6 YEARS WITHOUT YOU SEEMS LONGER
I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE KNOWN HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU WERE AND ARE I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE KNOWN HOW YOU LEAVING US WOULD IMPACT ALL OUR LIVES INCLUDING THE KIDS AND THE ROAD THEIR LIFE HAS TAKEN .
I KNOW I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN THAT IS ALL THAT KEEPS ME GOING WITHOUT THAT FEELING I DONT THINK I COULD CONTINUE IN THIS LIFE
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU CONSTANTLY AND I WILL UNTIL I SEE YOU AGAIN

I LOVE YOU FOREVER  MOM

My sweet daughter another Christmas coming up without you each year I think of you more not less
I hope you have the best Christmas with Jesus I love and miss you so much I know we will see each other again.
Till I see you again I will think of and miss you
Mom

My sweet daughter it's your birthday today I love you and miss you so much .
I wish everyday you were here to hug and see your smile and do goofy stuff.
I will see you again and it will be forever
I love you forever 
Mom

April my sweet daughter another Christmas without you and no easier now than the first year .
I love you so much and I know you are having the best Christmas with Jesus and I bet it is beautiful I will see you again I wish you were here with the kids
I love you so much
Mom

My sweet daughter I miss you so much the longer I have been without you the harder it's been
I hope you have the best birthday in heaven and one day I will be with you again you are loved and missed more than you know
I love you April

Mom

My sweet daughter this is Christmas week you are on my mind more than ever there is never a day I don't think of or miss you .
I love you more than words can say my heart breaks everyday without you here

Till we meet again sweet daughter

My sweet daughter you would be 35 today my life will never be the same without you I know one day we will be together again
I love and miss you more everyday
Mom

My sweet april another year has went by today 3 years now since our lives were changed forever my life will never be the same until I see you again
I love and miss you so much

My daughter happy birthday in heaven another year without you I love you more than I can express and my pain I can't describe .
I will see you again and next time it will be forever
I love you
Mom

My sweet daughter it's been 2 years without you it feels like forever I will never be ok until I am with you again
I love you so much
Mom

April
Happy birthday it's another year without you I would give anything to have you here nothing seems right nothing seems fair I will never understand why God took you I can only hope God holds you until I can .
I hope you are happy and enjoying heaven save me a place I love you very much I cant wait to see you aga.in.

April this is Nick I hope your reading from heaven. It's been a long year since I've last seen you . It's been a tough year for the family without you here . Every day has been a challenge. A challenge to keep myself together. Some days I'm great ,others I just want to crawl in a hole. Its hard adjusting to the thought of you gone. I go to bed every night hoping that when I wake up I'll see you and the kids there smiling .Reality sucks I know you know how I feel. I want you to know April your the best sister anyone could have. You've always been there for me and I'm sorry . I'm sorry for how selfish I was I should've been a better brother . I keep thinking that I could've helped you but I know it was beyond our help we tried our best. I should've never let that bastard treat you that way . Should've never let someone get away with disrespecting my big sister like that. I know you didnt leave us on purpose I know you didnt want to go that day.You had so much life left to live. It's hard to see you go it hurts but I feel peace at the same time I know you've got a great man up there and he will always make sure your taken care of and you have everything you will never feel pain again you never have to suffer again .You never have to feel alone again .
Alot has happened this year, so much I wish you could see with us. Alexis is pregnant ! In two days she will be 20 weeks ! We find out the gender on valentines day .I'm so honored to become a father I never thought I'd make it this far but here I am and I promise you I'm going to be the best dad I can be I will always be there for them and be someone they can count on and look up to .I will hug them extra hard every day just for you .
April you've left me so many beautiful memories that I will cherish til the day I die. We had a great childhood ,the best days of my life was just having everyone together as one big happy family. Those were the most important days of my life. I miss your smile and your warm heart April you were so beautiful inside and out and you deserved so much more. It's because of your ways that I'm trying to change mine.Changing my perspectives on life . It hurts me that your gone but with your death you've brought out a new meaning in my life. I won't take another day for granted I will not let this life I've been given waste away Im going to live my life to the fullest every day and do my best to sit back , relax and enjoy this time until my time here is up . I'm going to stop focusing on all the negative and be more positive about everything. As hard as it is I'm going to try to let go of my hate towards Eric and let it go like I know you would've done .You deserved so much more than a low life like him you were as good as it gets. It's because of you i'm trying to become a better me every day everything down to the way I walk and I won't stop until I become the best possible version of myself.. I want you to look down on me and be proud of the things I've done . Your so far but your always so close to my heart . I won't let you down and I swear to you I will take care of mom ,dad and michelle and Wayne. I love you big sis you mean the world to me I know your in a beautiful place and cant wait to see you on the other side ! Please look out for us I need you your my guardian angel .