My Mom was such a special Women that no one knew her like I did.  She did not let most people in to heart because most people disappointed her.  My Mom was funny, loving, deeply caring and giving woman.  I understood her like no one else.  No one try to get close to her because she had a hard outside.  But, I did not let that me stop from loving my Mom.  My Mom was such amazing woman, and that it was a shame no one understood her like I did, or try to get close.  I love've my Mom with all of my heart and soul and I miss her sooooo much it hurts every time I think of her.  When my Mom left my life she left a huge hole in heart that it will not ever be fill.  While she was dying the hospital would not let stay with her.  I just did not want her to die alone.  I was so lucky to have had her in my life as my Mom. She would be so proud of me that I have not ever giving up.  I keep going because of Her and my Dad.  I made a promise to her and my Dad that I will not ever break, that I will keep Moving Forward.