WELL WHER DO I START FIRST,SINCE NONI LIVED WITH US SINCE HIS YOUNGER YRS, HAVE QUITE A FEW,  I'LL JUST SAY A COUPLE THOUGH, NONI, MY LIL BROTHER DAVID  WOULD HANG OUT N DRINK, OF COURSE I WOULD JOIN THEM, TILL ONE DAY NONI SAID I NEED TO INTRODUCE U TO MY SISTER JAMIE, U ALL R BOTH ALCHOLICS N WOULD GET ALONG VERY WELL,I WOULD TELL HIM SHUT UP NON IM NOT AN ALCHY I JUST LIKE TO HAVE FUN LIKE U ALL,N ALSO TOLD HIM SHE DOESN'T EVEN LIKE ME..HE LAUGHED WITH HIS WAY OF LAUGHING AND WOULD SAY WATEVER SHES GONNA LIKE U IF I SAY SO.THAT WAS NONI FOR U, SO HE FINALLY INVITED HER OVER BK IN 1994,WE REALLY CLICKED N WERE ALIKE IN EVERT WAY, WE STILL R BY THE WAY..LOL.I THANKU DEARLY FOR THAT WITH ALL MY HEART BY THE WAY NONI:)ANYWAYS WE STARTED TO GO TO CLUBS TOGETHER WE BECAME UNSEPERABLE, NONI WOULD SEE ALL DRESSED IN SHORT SKIRTS N SHORTS, BOY WOULD HE GET PISSED, HIS WORDS, U ALL BETTER CHANGE THAT SHIT, U'LL ARENT GOING ANYWHERE DRESSED LIKE THAT!! WE WOULD TELL HIM SHUT UP, WERE OLDER THAN U..CANT TELL US WAT TO WEAR..ALSO WOULD TELL HIM, "UR NOT THE BOSS OF US".LOL.WE WOULD HEAR THE SAME THING FROM HIM EVERYTIME, TILL HE GAVE UP, N JUST SAID NOONE BETTER B MESSING WITH U ALL, I'LL F..THEM UP. THEN FROM HAPPY MEMORIES CAME TO SCRAY ONES, ONE TIME HIM N MY LIL BRO WERE PASSING THRU MY HOUSE SINCE I LIVED DOWN THE STREET FROM THEM..WELL THEY WERE STICKING ME THE FINGER N LAUGHING N LAUGHING LIKE USUAL, WELL 30 MINUTES LATER WE COME TO FIND THEY WERE IN A VERY UGLY ACCIDENT, AT THAT TIME WE WERE ALL HYSTERICAL, MY LIL BRO WAS N ICU FOR ABOUT A MONTH N NONI GOT WHIPLASHED N BRUISED BUT WAS OK, HE CAME BK TO MY MOMS HOUSE, WAITING FOR MY LIL BRO TO GET OUT, ALL MY BRO WOULD ASK FOR WAS HIS BEST FRIEND NONI, HE HAD TO VISIT HIM BEFORE LEAVING THE HOSPITAL.SO MY BRO COULD KNOW HE WAS OK:) WE DECORATED THE HOUSE WITH BALLOONS A MONTH LATER WHEN MY BRO GOT RELEASED ARNOLD OF COURSE DID THE CLIMBING ON THE COUCHES N ALL, FOR THE BALLOONS..WOWW REMEMBER LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY U WERE HERE WITH US, N EVEN THOUGH AS WE BOTH GREW OLDER N HARDLY SAW EACHOTHER U WERE ALWAYS N MY HEART N THOUGHTS AFTERALL U WERE LIKE MY LIL BROTHER.:( I HAVE BEEN THERE FOR UR FAMILY SINCE VERY YOUNG N MORE NOW SINCE THE DAY WE GOT THE NEWS, I NEVER LEFT UR FAMILYS SITE,BONNE EVEN WANTED TO THROW ME OUT CAUSE I WAS NEVER HOME, BUT THAT'S WAT REAL FAMILY AND FRINDS DO, THEY STICK BY U IN TIMES OF NEED. WE EVEN CELEBRATED UR BDAY N I READ A POEM I HAD MADE FOR PAT, IT WAS VERY HARD BUT I DID IT FOR U N UR FAMILY, WE WILL BE CELEBRATING EASTER SINCE THAT WAS UR FAVORITE HOLIDAY, EATING ALL THE CUPCAKES LIKE ALWAYS,N BREAKING THE EGGS ON ALL THE KIDS:)EVERYONE WILL MISS ALL THOSE DAYS, U R GONE BUT NEVER EVER WILL BE FORGOTTHEN, UR MOMMY MISSES U SOO MUCH, I JUST PRAY TO GOD ALL THE TIME THAT HER PAIN WIL EASE, WHICH IM SURE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR A LOVING MOTHER. I DRAM OF U ALL NITE, U WERE HERE BUT IN REALITY U WERE REALLY GONE, ALL U WANTED IN MY DREAM WAS TO FEEL LOVE U KEPT SAYING  U FELT AS IF ONLY UR BODY WAS HERE AND NOT UR SOUL, IT WAS REALLY REALLY WEIRD N WENT ON THRU MOST OF THE NITE..THEN FOR ME TO WAKEUP N KNOW THAT TODAY HAS BEEN 9MONTHS THAT TO EVERYONE FEELS LIKE JUST YESTERDAY, N U KNOW NANCYSINCE IM HOPING UR READING MY STORY, :) WHEN I READ UR STORY IT WAS SO WEIRD I EVEN SAID MA OUT LOUD, CAUSE I SOOO REMEMBER THAT'S HOW HE WOULD CALL U..I LUV ALL OF U ALL SOOOO MUCH N WILL B HERE FOR U ALL TILL GOD CALLS ME HOME:) I HOPE UR PAIN EASES N TIME, I HATE TO KNOW THAT U R SOO DOWN. LUV U NONI..WITH ALL MY HEART LIL BRO!

I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS YOUNGER NONI ALWAYS TOLD ME IF I EVER HAD A BOYFRIEND AND HE FOUND OUT. HE WAS GOING TO BEAT HIS AND THEN MINE LOL. I ALWAYS SAID WHATEVER... WHEN HE LIVED WITH OUR DAD, STEPMOM AND ME I WOULD ALWAYS HEAR THE STEREO REAL LOUD EVERY MORNING LISTENING TO WANNA BE A BOLLA LOL AND SOME SPM. I REMEMBER HE ASKED ME TO BRAID HIS HAIR THATS WHEN HE HAD LONG HAIR I STARTED IT BUT DIDNT FINISH IT LOL. AS WE GOT OLDER I DIDNT SEE HIM ANYMORE AS MUCH. IF IT WERENT FOR MY DAD TAKING ME TO  SEE HIM I WOULDNT SEE HIM CAUSE I DIDNT HAVE A CAR AT THE TIME. THERE WAS THIS ONE TIME I WAS AT THE GOLDEN Q (DOUBLE A) I WAS WITH ONE OF MY FRIENDS AND HE SAW ME I AND ME TO GET MY ASS HOME HE WAS REALLY MAD HE TOLD ME HE DIDNT WANT TO SEE ME AT ANY CLUBS CAUSE I WAS TO YOUNG, BUT I GUESS THATS WHAT BIG BROTHERS DO ALWAYS ON YOUR ASS LOL. OMG.. WHEN I LIL HE TOLD ME HE WOULD PAY ME IF I WALKED AROUND THE HOUSE WITH MY EYES CLOST AND I DID AND RAN INTO A BRICK WALL AND MY NOSE STARTED TO BLEED AND HE JUST LAUGHED HIS ASS OFF  AND GUESS WHAT NO MONEY LOL. EVERY TIME HE SAW ME I WAS PG HE CALLED ME A BABY MAKING MICHINE I TOLD HIM JUST TRYING TO CATCH UP WITH U. HE WOULD ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY AND MAKE JOKES. I WAS REALLY EXCITED TO HEAR THAT HE WAS MOVING DOWN THE STREET FROM ME I TOLD HIM ALRIGHT BROTHER I CAN COME BOTHER U WHEN EVER I WANT LOL , HE LAUGHED!! EVERY ONE THAT KNEW THAT NONI WAS MY OLDER BROTHER SAID THAT I HAVE A HOTT BROTHER LOL THAT NEVER FAILED LOL.  I REALLY DONT HAVE AS MANY MEMORIES OF HIM AS I WOULD HAD LIKED, BUT I CHARISH THE ONES I DO HAVE. I LOVE MY BROTHER AND I WILL MISS HIM AS I ALWAYS HAVE.

                                                                                                  -LOVE- YOUR  LIL SISTER

ALTHOUGH WE NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE , MAYBE IT WAS MEANT TO BE THIS WAY.  I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS , LIKE WHY DID GOD TAKE YOU SO SOON ? WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN ME INSTEAD, IF GIVEN A CHOICE I WOULD HAVE GLADLY TAKEN YOUR PLACE . NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THE PAIN & SORROW THAT I HAVE TO ENDURE , NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK OF YOU , I WISH I COULD HOLD YOU AND SEE YOUR BEAUTIFUL SMILE, MORE THAN THAT I WISH I COULD HERE YOUR VOICE CALLING ME MA !!  THANK GOD FOR THE MEMORIES YOU LEFT US & THE KIDS THAT WILL FOREVER KEEP YOUR SPIRIT ALIVE . SOMEDAY WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER AGAIN, SO FOR NOW ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT FOR MY DAY TO COME !  HEAVENLY HUGS & KISSES

                                                                             LOVE , MOM