New Year's Eve 1999 my heart was ripped out of my chest! Getting a call from my uncle in Michigan informing us that my big brother had taken his own life was both shocking, unbelievable and one of the worst days of our lives. Being 10 years old  I couldn't comprehend why he would do such a thing and yet till this day we still have so many questions that are unanswered and the not knowing why is the worst part. As we made it up to the funeral we realized what kind of life he led, he had a girlfriend who he proposed to and he tutored mentally challenged kids. We then found out that his father abused him & did many horrible things to him and also kept him away from me and my mother and for us we've always been so very close. We never went a couple days without talking to each other. We flew to Detroit for his funeral and it's all still a blur. Even though it was hard in a way it was a beautiful service. I've always known what a beautiful soul he was, how big of a heart that he had & The man that he became as well as the things in his life that he accomplished. He was such a beautiful person and feel blessed that God put them in our lives.