3 years ago today...... Your next journey began..... That's what I tell myself so its not just that you were taken away from us and that our world ended..... I miss you and our boys soooo much!!!! I spend every moment of every day missing you and the boys or trying to make sure the boys remember....... Our visits are full of you and all the things that were important to you!!!! This summer we went to boys first concerts!!!! Went to Vegas!!! Stopped in Frisco Colorado, to do the things you did there over 20 years ago.....rodeos, county fairs, fishing, all the things you would be doin if you were here..... I'm doing my best to honor what I feel you would want!!! I pray I'm making you proud!!!! I love you with all my heart and miss you so much it hurts...... Every day!!!!!

It is so hard to celebrate mothers day without you! But my heart is breaking for those 3 boys....... To celebrate mothers day without mom here!!! We love and miss you so much! Happy mothers day baby.....

Today I pray for all the families that are receiving the news we got 20 years ago.... The new that our baby was sick..... It terrified me to think my baby had a disease...... But I never imagined 20 years later she would be gone!!! I pray for a cure so no other families have to know the pain and emptiness we suffer each day......our baby, our mom, our sister, aunt, cousin, best friend, she was very special to us all, I love you and miss you every second of every day!!!! My baby girl.......

It's been 2 years today...... Since our world was torn apart. There are no words to express the feelings..... The loss, the hurt, the helplessness, the desperation...... We all struggle every day to make sense of it all..... But there is none! I think of you hundreds of times every day..... I still reach for my phone to cry to you when I'm upset, to laugh with you about something someone did, to ask you advice when I know I'm not thinking rationally..... I feel so lost and alone without you baby! There wasn't any area of my life you weren't involved in..... Now i struggle from visit to visit with our boys... It's just as hard today as it was 2 years ago.... I still cry everyday.... But I smile everyday now too.... We have so many amazing memories!!!! I try to tell the boys everything I remember!!! I dont want them to forget a single thing!!!! I see you in them, all 3 have a big piece of you!!! They miss you so much! I know you watch over them.... And they need you! Almost as much as me!!! Lol I miss your strength, your confidence, your heart, the way you always said "we'll be fine as long as we're together" you are such an amazing old soul! I am blessed to have had the 26 years I got.....I Love you more..... I Love you to the sky and how big it is..... Miss you baby!!!! So so much.........