Wow, I can’t believe it’s been 5 years.
I miss you so much. You were selfless, kind, loving, a worrier, a fighter and a beautiful spirit. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you and wish you were here. Night time is the hardest as I lay alone with my thoughts. Tears often fill my eyes as I think of you and how much I miss you and need you.
I hug your picture and imagine you are hugging me back. I hope that I can be 1/2 the mom you were to me to Harper. I know you’d love her so much and she’d love you. I pray that Heaven is real so that I know I will see you again someday and you’ll meet Harper.
Love you Mom forever. XXOO

Where do I start? Grief isn’t a beginning and an ending. It’s always. But it’s also something everyone does and has to go through in life. It’s a reality which sucks.
I miss you mama and I think about you every single day!  I long to hear your voice. Whether it’s to tell me to feed the dogs, that DWTS is on or that you have a list and you want me to go to Walmart on a Saturday, I miss it! I feel so lonely in this life without you. It’s like no one understands me. I just go day to day, holding onto the memories and hoping I never forget them. Harper helps. When I show her pictures of you and say where’s grandma she points to you. She’s so smart! I know you would have loved her so much. 
We weren’t perfect but we knew that we had each other and that’s all that mattered. Another year gone ….
I love you Mom til the day past forever.
Love Me and Harper ❤️

Well I am a day late. It's not that I forgot or anything because that seems to be my normal now always a day late ... I did the 24 days of random acts of kindness in your honour mom and again sometimes I was a day late.
I can not fully describe how much I am missing you. Now that I have my own daughter the ache in my heart is intensified. Life is going on but it is not the same without you here. Mom you are one of the strongest, bravest, and kindest humans to grace this planet. Without you, I wouldn't be here today, I wouldn't be the person I am, and I wouldn't have the life I have. You are everything to me, and more, and there's no way I could ever quantify the importance you held in my life. You are the best mother a person could ask for! So I celebrate you and strive to be as good of a mother to my daughter as you were to me. Love Always LaLa and Baby Harper IB xxoo

It is mind blowing how another year has passed without you. While I may be strong on the outside and look like I’m holding it all together, inside I’m a hurricane of emotions.
I think about you every single day. I talk about you often and wish you were here all the time. The struggle is real.
Mom you are missed and loved more powerfully than I can put to paper.
Life goes on but in a different way.
I hold onto your love and the love I have for you.  I promise you that will never die.
I’ll always be your little girl xxoo

Beautiful Christmas flowers for you.

I miss you mom. Even though I don't put it on here, you are always on my mind everyday. One thing I am thankful for during all this craziness is that you are not here. I could not bear to not visit you. I feel terrible for all those in hospital are that alone. I love you Mom - you are forever in my heart.

I miss you
Night time is the hardest.
I feel some alone and lost without you.
I love you mom ❤️
I wish you didn’t have to go.
My heart is broken

Hello Mom... During these uncertain times I sure miss you. I find myself wondering what you would be saying about all that is going on. You would definitely be calling Trump an idiot! Hope that you are looking down on us and protecting us thru all this craziness! I love you and hug my dad for me.

Hard to believe that a year has passed since you left us. Hope you and Ed are doing well and don’t worry your cat is still here

Mom, you were my rock, my anchor, and my true North.

Be carefree now, Mom as you never could be in life. Breathe easy finally. Don’t worry Mom, I'm trying. I'm fine. It is not easy. I'm lonely but I keep on. Please say hello to my Daddy. I miss you both so much. Love Me

The final hour is here that I last saw you alive. I have been dreading this. I honestly had no idea that you would pass as quickly as you did. I held out hope even after your last breath. This year has been extremely difficult without you Mom. Words cannot even begin to describe the pain and loneliness that I feel on this earth without you. I love you so very much and I hope that heaven is real so that I will see you again. My heart then will be mended. I love you forever. Your little girl.

A year has come since you had to go. Hard to imagine. I hope heaven is as beautiful as I imagine. Always loved, never forgotten ❤️❤️

❤️I love you❤️

Ah Mamma Bear!! The reason Lor and I ever became friends! Calling every 2 minutes to see if she had arrived yet! Hahaha. You were the best Mamma Bear ever! You put up with our antics! Fed the dogs when they looked hungry, and loved unconditionally! A one of a kind! Keep watch on your cubs, until we meet again. Xoxox Ni

Everyday I think of you. What we would be doing today if you were still here,  what we would talk about, where we would go, what we would watch, how I would help you and how you would help me. I miss you beyond anything I could have ever imagined :( I love you mom.

Thinking of you today. Sure miss you! Wish I could hug you and talk to you about all that is going on. You would know what to do. I love you Mom. You truly were the best mom that I could have ever wished for!!

Miss you Mama

I miss you Mom. I wish so much that you didn't have to go. I miss your laugh, I miss you telling me what to do all the time, I miss your lists, I miss your loud TV on CNN, I miss going places with you, I miss you just sitting in your chair and knowing that each day you were there loving me and supporting me. 

Always the light that keeps me going.

I love you Mom. I miss you every single minute of every single day!