Athena was born April 3rd 2007,healthy beautiful baby girl. At the age of 3 Athena was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma stage 4 cancer in October 2010,we were shocked and sad,same time I found out I was pregnant with our 5 child.Athena and her siblings were happy and even before going for my scan to find the gender Athena knew we were having a girl so she had told my husband and I that she cant wait to hold her baby sister and after having her sister she wants a baby brother so that her brother wont be the only boy but I told her will see because mummy is tired but she wouldn't take that for an ans and said I can rest after I have her baby brother... Doctors told us that Athena has 3 months to live..wanting to prove them wrong and didn't want to believe it we chose for Athena to enjoy her life and look for alternative treatment... Because we had lost a nephew in 2007 from leukemia at the age of 4 who went through chemo we didn't want the same for Athena and and so we looked else where for alternative treatment...doing everything we could even tho it cost a lot,we are not a high income family but with God on our side we got through $$ wise with help of family and friends.. In Jan 2011 we had a family reunion in Samoa which was planned way before we knew Athena had cancer and fares already been paid for we had the YES from docs that Athena could travel..was so HAPPY that we could all go as a family and Athena and her siblings have been waiting a long time for this trip.. The trip was amazing and Athena was doing soooo well in Samoa enjoyed everyday seeing her smile and laugh so loud with family... We came back to NZ in Feb and she was still doing well.. April 3rd 2011 we celebrated Athena's 4th birthday..the feeling of seeing Athena on her 4th birthday was the best felling i felt because she had past the months the docs said she will live for.. After her 4th birthday Athena was getting thinner but I didn't really realise how thin she was getting I kept saying to myself my baby is gonna fight this I know it..I never had negative thoughts about Athena I tried my best to stay positive... June 3rd 2011 this morning woke up and seeing Athena I knew somethings wrong shes not looking too well and has gone thinner over night,docs have come to see her and given us options with pain relief,(CCF) children's cancer foundation came over and asked us if we wanted to have a professional photographer over to take family photos that morning...so he came and took beautiful photos of my family and no matter how much pain Athena was in she still wanted to put on a dress with her sisters to take their photos and still put on her beautiful SMILE.. that afternoon Athena wasn't the same, she wouldn't eat and wasn't breathing normal so I called her dad to come hold her as I was fully pregnant at 9 months.. As she was in her fathers arms we cried as we knew she couldn't take it anymore (sorry writing this is making me so emotional,so if I'm not making any sense please excuse me) still in her fathers arms seeing a tear roll down left check she looked up in the corner of the ceiling behind me like there was someone(an angel) there..we kept telling her we love her sooo much and to be strong. She then looked at her dad for a few seconds then looked at me for a few seconds with a little smile and closed her eyes and went peacefully.. worst day of my life to see my baby girl go..till this day my husband and I still find it hard to not see and hold Athena no more.. During her funeral preps I started to get mild contractions on the 8th of June..10th June we planned to bury our baby girl so as we lay our princess to rest and her casket was getting lowered into the ground,family members helping putting dirt back in I turned to walk to the car and contractions had started one after another just like that...Taken straight to the hospital and hour and a half later we welcomed our new baby girl Nevaeh, Athena didn't make it to hold her baby sister but I know shes watching over her and all of us.. As for the little baby brother Athena also wanted he came into this world 19 Oct 2012.. Athena will always be in our hearts and mind,we feel that shes with us every where we go.