Although I feel like I was such a disappointment to her I know she loved me dearly. I remember being a little girl and I always wanted to be at my Nanas house. Would have rather been there than at home. And no matter how tired she was she would cone get me when she got off work. I miss her so much and hate that I was not around like I should have been in her last days. I regret it everyday . But I know she still loved me all the same and believed I could get my life right one day.  I love you Nana and I miss you so much. I'll see you again one day...