Every day goes by and I still miss you greatly. Every day there are things I would love to share with you and just hear your voice have one of your hugs - I love you and miss you so much ….

Mom Today was definitely amazing as I got up and started my day like normal. I just wish you could’ve been here to see it Along with Tammy today me and Kim got to watch a really rare event Total solar eclipse, which was beautiful It was extraordinary. It was so much fun watching it from start to finish watching the moon cover the sun. There are no words I could possibly use to explain Totality was But I will be posting some pictures for you to see Bella to visit with Sharlott Connie Mel Neighbor named Lisa and I forgot the other lady and we all watched it as a group eclipse Also spent some time with peaches, which was great. I wanted to share this with you. Love you always.

Just miss you every day so much - spring time and this time of year I am really missing you bunches - wish you were here so we could take a drive through the country —- love you forever and a day … love you forever and today

Mom
today at Walmart this bear fell right off the shelf and landed right in my arms near my chest I first looked at it and thought it said “Love You From Mom” when I re looked I saw it actually said something you and I said all the time at each other “Love You More” It’s perfect and I believe a message from you to me today. I love and miss you very much every day. I feel that you hugged me from heaven today.

I can’t believe two years have passed. Even though I do not have you here in person I HEAR YOUR VOICE OFTEN in my heart and thoughts. I miss your laughter and I miss your stories so much ! I know you spent a lot of time in preparing me for the day you would no longer be here … I just didn’t think in reality that it would be so soon. You are so loved and missed by me and others in our family circle! You impacted us all and your name is mentioned often at our get togethers it’s as though you are right there with us. I LOVE AND MISS YOU LADY BUG… I love you forever and a day … and I love you forever and today…

Hey Barb. Can't believe it's been 2 years now. I have been doing well just not been the greatest. I'm sure would do good yourself though. We all love and miss you greatly. Thanks so much for being there when we needed you.

Hey mom I just wanted to say that I know that you’re happy in heaven with dad Tammy granny patsey but today iv been thinking about all the memories growing up there are so many I can’t even think of just one to right but I miss you so much since you went home to Jesus love you and I’ll right more tomorrow

Sis, another year has gone by, I miss you as much today, as I did the day you went home to be with God and you loved ones. I think of you every day, and the times we sit and talked for hours about our families and the olden days. We talked about going to church together but never made it, we did talk about the Bible often, we discussed so many things. Sis, your son gets wiser every day, You would be so proud of Brenda, she taught Dustin to drive on ice, she also taught him how to make salmon cakes and I like the way he made them better than mine. So many things has happened since you left. I don’t have flowers anymore because I can’t work the grown like I need to and I can’t bend over long enough to plant them, so I just decided not to have flowers at all, i think of you every season and how beautiful your flowers were, Dustin still has beautiful flower beds, he has rose bushes also, he said the white roses was you favorite so he planted white & red. I could Wright all night but the main thing is I want you to know how much you are loved and missed!! “Happy Heavenly 2nd Birthday”, Heaven got a beautiful soul inside and out when you stepped through those “Gates of Pearls”. I will always think of you and I will always love you !! See you soon !!!! ❤️❤️

Lady Bug- I know you have such an awesome heavenly home and get to see people who love you dearly while listening to angels sing and walking those streets of gold. I miss you every single day more than anyone could ever know - however just knowing that you are no longer living in the pains of this life makes me know that you are absolutely in a much better place. Just know we miss you and love you always - Merry Christmas and Happy New Years in Heaven and yeah I can hear you now kissing my forehead and holding my hand as you tell me : “Happy Birthday Baby Girl” - 

Hey mom I hope you had a wonderful heavenly Christmas I had one of the best Christmases ever even though it could’ve been slightly better if you were here but I will show my Christmas video to you soon when I make it I got to spend time with wonderful people I got to spend Christmas with my friends, Kymberly, Lelonnie And Christian And Laquita you should’ve seen Bella. She was all over everyone. We even had a wonderful Christmas dinner with Mike and his bunch. It was so sweet. Of course you know Bella she’s always an attention seeker. I am doing pretty good talking with Lyn like you asked me to do. my friend seem to like her quite a bit and I’m sorry I didn’t write you on Christmas Day like I should’ve But I cannot wait for me to be able to post a video. By the way I got Bella a new dress. I will show you very soon and today we got to spend time with Rayce a little bit today we went to go see some swans and Brenda spent a little bit of her birthday with us. I thought it was super sweet anyway I will write to you again soon. Love you mom please give Dad and Tammy a hug for me and give Granny Patsey a big hug for me and tell her I miss her so much. oh by the way we also watched quite a few new shows for Christmas. Love you mom and I’m glad you’re spending your Year’s Day with Dad

Mom I am having a very great Christmas so far I have got to spend the past week with my friends, Kim and Laquita, we have made chocolate you taught me new recipes as well Bella has been an absolute angel as well. Me and the girls went to Greenbrier on Thursday and got pictures with Santa. Will have watch Christmas movies which is awesome safari like I said before Christmas is going great I just wish you were here to meet some of my friends like Laquita and rayce but tomorrow we’re doing a Christmas dinner as well so I’ll get to spend Christmas with all my friends such as Lelonnie, Laquita, Kimberly, Rayce, Tree, Brenda, Bill, Mike, Johnny, Sherry and Lynn so that will be awesome one missing you and I’ll write more telling you how everything goes by the way, Bella is getting ornery, you know

YOU MAY BE GONE

You may be gone
but I feel you
when the cool breeze
brushes past

You may be gone
but I hear you
when the music plays
its last

You may be gone
but I know you
as a painter knows
their art

You may be gone
but I feel you
right here in
my heart

You may be gone
but your laughter
is still my
favorite sound

You may be gone
but my friend
you’re ever
all around.

Donna Ashworth: From ‘LOSS’
Art by Shawna Erback

I love you and miss you more than anyone can ever know —— I wish so much that you were here in person but I do talk to you often and know you are here with me saying “don’t cry baby girl I am with you always and we will meet again someday” I know you are laughing and singing with those angels and walking those streets of gold ! Tell Tammy I am the jealous one now ! She gets you all the time … give my ole sis a hug and tell her we love and miss her too ! You BOTH would be so so proud of Dustin - he has grown so much and I see things that you both taught him shine through daily in his life - He is doing a Big Christmas with “school friends” but we will also be doing the Family Circle Christmas at Johnny’s and Mikes like we did Thanksgiving ! Yep you guessed right - Dustin will be bringing “duck” that him and Kym cook and his “your” greenbean casserole ! I am so so happy that you got to teach him all these things that was on your list before you went to Heaven-

YOU DON’T JUST LOSE SOMEONE ONCE

You lose them over and over,
sometimes in the same day.
When the loss, momentarily forgotten,
creeps up,
and attacks you from behind.
Fresh waves of grief as the realisation hits home,
they are gone.
Again.
You don’t just lose someone once,
you lose them every time you open your eyes to a new dawn,
and as you awaken,
so does your memory,
so does the jolting bolt of lightning that rips into your heart,
they are gone.
Again.
Losing someone is a journey,
not a one-off.
There is no end to the loss,
there is only a learned skill on how to stay afloat,
when it washes over.
Be kind to those who are sailing this stormy sea,
they have a journey ahead of them,
and a daily shock to the system each time they realise,
they are gone,
Again.
You don’t just lose someone once,
you lose them every day,
for a lifetime.

©Donna Ashworth

You name was spoken quite a few times at the Thanksgiving we had at Mike’s and Johnny’s. Dustin was so excited to contribute the Duck and oh His Green bean Casserole that you so lovingly taught him and Kym to make your last Thanksgiving/ Christmas shared. You are forever missed and I love you always Forever and Today ….

As long as I can dream, as long as I can think, As long as I have a memory ...
I will love you.
As long as I have eyes to see and ears to hear And lips to speak ...
I will love you.
As long as I have a heart to feel, A soul stirring within me, An imagination to picture you ...
I will love you.

As long as there is time, as long as there is love,As long as there is you, and as long as I have a breath to speak your name ...
I will love you
-- Daniel Huaghian

Hey mom, just wanted to tell you I had a great summer first off back in June on your birthday. I had a little reunion with my friends, Lelonnie, Kim , Christian, Laquitia , and Rayce and Brenda and Bill. We went to Hot Springs and spent the day we looked around some shops. We ate at a pretty cool restaurant, even though I forgot the name of it lol and then we went to rocket fizz and got some weird sodas, and then we went to the old building of ACTI and took some pictures there. Then we went to the mall and looked around for a little bit and then went home in July I spent the day with my friends, Lelonnie and Kim and my friend Rayce at Lelonnie’s house, and she cooked a delicious southern dish which was dirty rice and mixed greens, which was delicious lelonnie met Bella and Bella love to Lelonnie. I wish you could’ve seen it. And three weeks ago me and Lelonnie, Race and Kim got to meet up with my old friend Sarah we met up at pickles gap village now I see why Tammy was so crazy about that place. Then we went to a Woolly Hollow and then we went hiking. It was so much fun. I had a blast spending the day with them. Anyway I came on here to tell you how much summer wise I wish I could tell it to you in person but for now I’m going to wish you a good night and I’ll write again soon.

Hey barb, I just wanted to tell you that got a couple of new kittens a couple of weeks ago. Catalina and Amity. They adorable and I love them so much. They've really become really sweet kitten since they've been here. They didn't start out friendly to the other cat but they got use to them I've pretty much tamed them. They were kind wild cats. But they are pretty tamed now. I would have loved for you meet them.

Hey mom, I know it’s been a while so I was on here to say hello. I still miss you every day. I know Bella does too but I wanted to say this year has been pretty great so far I’ve got to go back to Hot Springs and see some friends again soon I will get to visit some old friends. I’m excited to see them especially my friend Sarah I haven’t seen her since high school. I’ve been thinking about you the past few days I can always say me and bella always miss you and I really miss your hugs Sometimes I miss getting your advice from time to time. I wish I could ask you for advice on certain things, but I always think to myself. What would Mom say? And I go based on what I think you would say anyway I want to say good night. I love you tell dad, granny Patsy, and Tammy I love them and miss them to

I love and miss you Barbara Teague
Forever and A Day & Forever and Today ❤️

“REMEMBRANCE”
Although you have left this world, I will always remember you as a faithful companion. Someone to talk to, someone to lean on, someone to touch. A loving friend to greet the days with, to feel the breeze with, to hear the many bird songs with. I know there is a place where we'll be united again, holding hands, clapping hands and singing our song in a heavenly realm, a place of oneness with the One who made us, One who loves us, so much so that He holds us together in eternity. Until we meet again, my love, I will hold you in my heart and never let go as each season passes. ~JB

well … lady bug I sure have missed you an extra much today … HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU IN HEAVEN !- Bill and I took Dustin, Kym, Leloni, Tree, Laquita and Rayce on a ACTI REUNION of sorts and also a Celebration of Your Birthday — We drove Mike Mike’s van so we could
All fit in a vehicle together ! We had a great time and the “kids” enjoyed talking over the memories of college life and lots of laughs and good times were shared today! I know without a doubt you were smiling BIG - Happy Birthday My Friend I love and Miss you BIG ! Love you forever and a day… Love you forever and Today…

I sure wish you were here in person - I miss you so much —- I know you are always with me in my heart forever —- know always I love you lady big forever and a day …

Mom I finally found a picture of your mom Lyn helped look as well I hope you also got to see the northern lights the other night I know it was your dream me Bella sharlott and Brenda and Lyn all love and miss you tell dad Tammy and granny patsey I said hi

Hey mom today I saw lots of yellow butterflies and thought of you I sure do miss you and miss our talks today I got to visit with Johnny bill and Brenda me and Johnny today me and Johnny walked a nature trail today and saw the beautiful lake in Heber

Biggest shout out from the rooftop.. I love you mom.. I miss you so much. I'm going to see Brenda and Dustin for a visit, can't wait. It will be March 30,31, 1 and 2.. I know how happy that would make you.. love you mom

Sis, I guess you thought I had forgot you, I had a hard time getting on this site and was about to start crying when Dustin came to my rescue, Dustin is the best ! I thank God for my new found family…Dustin, Brenda, Bill, Kym and of course you as my sister!! Sis, it’s been a hard year without you but I know Jesus holds you in his hands like a mother holds her baby! I wouldn’t bring you back to go through all the pain and sickness that you had, it would be so selfish of me, but I sure do miss you and I love you so much! Today is just as bad as the day God called you to heaven ! One thing I do know is you don’t have to put up with the evil things that’s going on in this world! We all know you’re watching over us, and I look up every now and then just to say, ‘hi sis I love you’!

Sis, Dustin has become such a great man, you and Brenda did a great job on helping him become a man and a great man he is !! Dustin helps all of us old people around here, not just me but any time any of us needs anything Dustin is always ready to step up ! I love him so much ! Him and Kym cooked duck for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I know the last Christmas you were with us Kym & Dustin cooked dinner and they did a great job! I’m so glad we got to spend your last Christmas on earth together! My daughter moved into your place, I went and had Thanksgiving with them and I thought about you! I love you bunches Sis and I’ll be seeing you soon, I’ll come looking for you ! I miss you so much!

Sis, when I see the picture that’s on your Obit, it makes me happy because …I spent all day with you that day…we went outside and set and we had the best time! The Sweater Brendas mother made for you was beautiful and for sure pink is your color! Your such a beautiful person inside and outside, once again Sis, I miss and love you so much!!

I’ll Love You Always,
Your sister, Sharlot

Love you mom

It's been one heck of a year.. many times I've wanted to talk to you, but Dustin talks to me pretty much everyday. What an amazing job you did with him. I know your proud, I sure am. I love and miss you dearly

Well … Lady bug I would say that I am sad today EXCEPT I have the knowledge that YOU ARE IN A MUCH BETTER PLACE which gives me much comfort and I can smile because I know that to be truth- a place of no struggles / no water weight/ no medication / no tests or doctors or hospitals/ no worries of drama

YOU However, are still missed sooo much! You always will be missed! Every day I think of you and it is still very hard not to speak to you daily by phone. I do know you hear me daily though … Your struggles were hard here but you were an overcomer and handled them like a champ. You raised a great Kid and were able to Accomplish EVERYTHING you had on your list regarding Dustin ,before you left- HE IS A GREAT MAN ! YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD !!!! I also know you already know … But Bill and I are doing great as well. He is PERFECT for me, So happy you prayed him here for me and you were here to share in those times.

You will never leave my heart and memories even though your body is not here on Earth Your Spirit is always close ! I will Always LOVE YOU FOREVER AND A DAY & I will Always LOVE YOU FOREVER AND TODAY !!!

I can’t believe believe it’s been one year ago today that you left this world for your journey, home to heaven we all miss you so much if I  could give you one more hug I would, but I know you’re in heaven happy with dad, Tammy, granny, Patsy, and many others. I know you’re happy and you’re walking the streets of Gold. Me and Bella love you so very much.

I miss you very much !!!
Forever and A Day…
Forever and Today…

Hey mom I miss you so much I wish I could talk to you if I could I would give you one more big hug

Mom, I sure wish I could talk to you.. I love and miss you so much.

Another year come and gone
Mom I had a great Christmas I got to spend some time with Brenda and bill Johnny, Sherry Charlotte, and Lyn and Kim and a very special friend of mine from high school came to visit me the only thing that would be better would be if you dad Tammy and granny patsey was here with me I will say yesterday and last night was hard I miss our talks and spending time with you I love listening to your stories about dad you would always tell me a new one on New Year’s Eve about what he was like and I wish so much that I could always give you a hug and spend time with you but I can’t although I can’t believe it’s been almost a year since you passed it’s so hard but I’m strong and I know your with me sometimes I wish I could ask you for your advice on stuff especially on hard times like this anyways me and Bella. Love you and I hope you have a wonderful night in heaven I will

Well a New Year has begun. I turned another year older yesterday. I stood in church this morning remembering many memories of you through the years - I also with sadness remembered that on January 1 last year that you would only be with us a few days before having to go to hospital/ and you would go to your heavenly home January 26- I can not believe it’s been nearly a year- but we have gone through a lot of the firsts (birthdays/ holidays ) without you here! WE MISS YOU BUNCHES But know that you are without pain and dancing streets of gold singing with angels- that is comfort to me. Love you forever and today

Merry heavenly Christmas mom me and Bella love you I wish I could give you a hug

Merry Heavenly Christmas ! Barbara if only I had known last Christmas would be our last Physical Christmas together I would have hugged you a little longer and laughed with you a little louder and ate a bit more chocolate !!!! YOU are so missed. I love you very much FOREVER AND TODAY

Mom we made candy cause every Christmas you made Candy for everyone too. Kym and I love and miss you. tell everyone hi in Heaven : Dad, Tammy, Kyms dad, Cindy, Granny Patsy. I know you will be singing Christmas songs with the Angels and our family in heaven

I just wanted to talk to you

Mom this year has been so tough I sometimes cry but I never say I do but I do from time to time this year has had its ups and downs and there has been times I want to ask you for your advice on different subjects but I know your not here I’m not shour how I’m gonna feel when Christmas gets here I’m so happy to be spending it with Lyn and Kym I’m thankful for that that and I appreciate that

If I could rewind for a visit just for a little while … I surely would ! I love and miss you daily !!!! However, I would let you go again because I know you are in a better place walking streets of gold and singing with the angels and talking with Tammy and your beloved Calvin —— you are no longer in pain … I love and miss you lady bug !!!!

Barbara my sweet friend I am missing you greatly this Thanksgiving…first at Johnny’s Thanksgiving and again today. YOU would be soooo proud of “thekids” Dustin and Kym have done Thanksgiving Duck and the fixins’ just exactly how you showed them last year!!! I know YOU knew you most likely would not be here this year and that is why you pressed so hard last year to get all the rest of what you needed taught completed. YOU KNEW and YOU TOLD ME … I just really didn’t want to listen. I wanted you here until 102 Haha. I know I know—- the standard joke of 102 was unrealistic. BUT YOU FOUGHT HARD TO DO EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANTED TO ACCOMPLISH before you left for your journey to heaven and life ever after !! For Dustin to be ok on his own and for me to make my one year anniversary with Bill! Dustin and Kym have done well !!!! Bill and I are doing good - BUT WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU BUNCHES !
I will always love you forever and TODAY-

Hey mom i wanted to tell you about my day I had so much fun spending the day with Brenda today even though you already knew that I watched one of our favorite tv shows today with Bella and I enjoyed talking to Lyn today as well I’m excited for thanksgiving even tho I wish you was still here with me I am mixed emotions about it but I know you would want me to be happy and keep going and enjoy it so I will I wish I could give you a hug but it’s ok I love you please give dad and Tammy a hug for me

Gratitude Challenge 2022- November 6
Day 6 * Who from my past am I grateful for

My Friend : Barbara Teague. This lady was so wise and had such a hard life. Her trust in God was so strong. She over came sooo much ! This special Butterfly, in my life, meant so very much to me. She and I became friends when her son Dustin Sprouse (who is actually a grandson that she adopted when he was just a baby) Dustin and My son Kristopher Browning were in school together (both special needs<~and overcomes themselves but that is another story) Anyways, Dustin always prayed for His Mom and Me to be friends like Him and Kris. We became friends 2009. Dustin growing up became “like another one of my add-on-sons”. She and I talked multiple times daily from that time forward. I became her POA( Power of attorney) as she started to age and having major medical issues 2017- She fought medical issues a lot in those last 4-5 years. I am grateful I was able to be there standing beside her through it all! She stated often she would not be ready to leave this Earth until she knew Dustin would be ok and she “prayed my husband” to be here. She wanted Bill and I to make it through the first anniversary. Dustin- she was so proud of all he has done and accomplished and Bill and I celebrated our 1st anniversary December 2021
She passed away January 2022. Fly High Butterfly You are very much Loved and Missed ——-

I'm sorry i haven't posted. I miss you really bad. I'd love to talk to you, my heart is so broken and I don't know what to do. I wish you could tell me. You would have the perfect words for me.  Mom, Brenda came to support me, at Kevin's funeral. I have never been so happy to see someone. She held my hand when I needed someone the most.. thank you for sending her. God knows that ment so much to me. She is everything you said. . I love you mom. Hug Kevin for me. Tell him I'm lost without him. And I'll forever live him..

Well, My Friend we miss you so so much. As you probably already know Lyn lost Kevin. His battle is complete. His funeral is today. I am here and Dustin is here in thoughts. ( He had to work today) I have placed purple flowers on his grave as I know you would have asked me to do. Purple being your favorite color. A Lot Of Good ones have now passed from this Earth to be in Heaven. You are there with them all! Love and Miss you Bunches

Hi mom I can’t believe I’m almost 26 I am sure going to miss celebrating my birthdays with you but I know you are smiling down from heaven watching me and seeing the man I am I’m doing good with my Diet even though it’s a lot harder than I thought you would be so proud of me I know you and dad and Tammy and granny patsy are good I love you all I’m glad I got to celebrate my birthday with our family circle

Barbara I know how beautiful you believed Butterflies to be… These butterflies Dustin added to your page are soooo Beautiful - Dustin always called you a “Beautiful Butterfly” and oh the many times I have heard him say “Mom you are so pretty like a pretty butterfly- he would say this to you nearly every day and many times in a day when you were having tough days” Anytime I see a butterfly or even a moth (like the one which landed on my car this morning) I will always think of you. You ARE Beautiful Like a Butterfly!

Barbara Teague : today I was thinking how I wish I could send you a picture of my beautiful nails, as I have done so many times in the past - your (ashes) necklace hangs on my rear view mirror in my car since I work and spend a ton of time on travel and mobile office- any ways today while I am thinking of you this dragonfly spends about 5 minutes hovering my car - Love you forever and a day and Miss you bunches

Anyone who wants to answer these questions about mom.. feel free.. ill add one for dad on moms page later.
What was moms favorite drink? Pepsi
What was moms favorite food? Pizza
What was moms favorite color. Purple
What was moms special days? Seeing her kids
What was moms favorite book. The Bible
Please add on if you would like. These answers are from when I was in my 20s