ForeverMissed
This memorial website was created in memory of our Mom, Grandma, Sister, Aunt and Friend; Barbara Goodman. We will remember her forever.

All are welcome and encouraged to share stories, memories, and photos. There will be a private family service on Wednesday, April 14th at 10:00AM to be held at Our Savior Evangelical Lutheran Church in Sun City, AZ. 
Posted by Cindy Warner on September 3, 2022
HI MOM... 
17 MONTHS of missing you and loving you long distance.  
THIS IS SOOOOO NOT RIGHT nor is it fair. 
Mom I pray you are safe, and happy. I pray Janza Is right beside you and that you all are together ever day and night. I miss you both and love yall so so much. Me and her kids are all struggling daily to carry on. Your absences in this physical world is soo profound. It had absolutely turned my head and my heart upside-down. We are still carrying on with our lives because that's what we must do here not much choices in that!!!!
On Monday Kyree had surgery again on her arm. The doctor took out the remaining plates and screws that were still in there. It's been 2 1/2 years since her original injury and this is her 4th surgery trying to get her bones healed. I'm hopeful that this will be the final surgery. So school fir her is here at home with me as the teacher fir at least a week.
Chris is working and taking care of his loved ones. Willie and his boys are doing pretty good as well. My sisters and brothers , I believe are all doing fairly well. They all have their lives and kids and grands that are busy with life. 
Mom I LOVE YOU and miss you you so very very much. 
I pray Heaven Is all that we believe it is. I pray you and Jesus are on a first name basis by now. Please tell HIM thank you for all he does and all that he is and that I believe in HIM and I LOVE HIM SOOO.
Please tell Janza that she is so so missed and loved beyond measure.
I LOVE YOU MOM , more than life. 
Until it's MY time, mom, PLEASE SAVE MY SEAT NEXT TO YOU AND JANZA.
Posted by Cindy Warner on August 2, 2022
16OF THE LONGEST MONTHS EVER!!!! MOM,
I still pray EVERY DAY that you are SAFE, HAPPY and that HEAVEN is all we were told it is. I LOVE and MISS you so so so very much. I wish you were here to continue to share in my daily life and watch the growth of the kids and grands. I miss EVERYTHING about you and our life we had here on this earth. I hope you are watching up in HEAVEN.
 Well summer is almost over and school has just begun. We had a good summer, a couple vacations and a couple
staycations too, and even found time for a 3 day girl scout camp. I'll say that was a success.
Kyree started on Monday into the 7th grade. Middle school here we go!!! We had meet the teacher in Friday afternoon, found all her new classes, and saw friends from last year too.
Christyon, Willie, and their kids are all doing well, new schools for the kids, new jobs for both the guys and good health for all. They are all doing their own thing as usual. 
Please tell Janza I'm STILL doing the best I can with the kids and that my HEART is still so so broken. I MISS her and LOVE her so much. I pray you both are together and are helping each other to maneuver thru Heaven. I'll bet it is as GLORIOUS and BEAUTIFUL and NOTHING compares to it. MOM, PLEASE share our LOVE with all the other family members and friends that have passed before us. MOM, 
ALWAYS, ALWAYS, remember that YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED BEYOND ANYTHING IMAGINABLE.
I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS MISS YOU , YOUR LOVE, YOUR HUGS, AND EVERYBODY ABOUT YOU.... UNTIL NEXT MONTH... PLEASE SAVE MY SEAT BESIDE YOU AND JANZA...
Posted by Cindy Warner on July 2, 2022
Forever 82 , 
15 months has come and gone and to say it gets easier is a BIG FAT LIE...
IT DOES NOT!!! .
I sure do miss you so very very much. I wish you were here to see me in person, to hug me in person, to talk to me in person to laugh with me in person, and even to cry with me in person.
I just came back from a lengthy vacation back to Kentucky with Kyree. I was on a journey and a mission to try my best to make sure Kyree got to know as many of her mamas Kentucky family and friends so that
she would know exactly what cloth she comes from and to see them face to face. I feel the trip was a success. Please share this news with Janza so she knows I'm doing the best I can for Kyree. Most of the people Christyon already knows and he couldn't go, he had to work. She even got to meet Janza's other brother and his family. That's was a Special treat. 
So not much other has changed here in hot Arizona. It's summer and swimming and girl scout camp keeps us busy like usual.
Kyree has another arm surgery coming up next week to once again remove the plates in her arm. Hopefully I pray this will be the last one, and school will start again on August 1st. 
Willie is holding his own for now, I pray he stays healthy.
The grands and great grands are all growing up so cute and very smart.
Please keep a watch on us as I continue to look for you and Janza in all I do. I miss you both, my soul aches for you both.
I know I will see you again so until then, please save my seat next to you both. I love you MOM.
Posted by Cindy Warner on June 2, 2022
14 OF THE LONGEST MONTHS OF MY LIFE.
HI MOM, 
I SURE MISS YOU, I MISS OUR LOVE, I MISS OUR TALKS, I MISS OUR EARLY MORNING VISITS, I MISS OUR FAMILY TIME, I MISS OUR TRIPS, I MISS OUR LAUGHS, I MISS OUR CRYS, I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU AND I.
I pray you are happy, I pray you are safe, I pray you and Jesus Are the very best friends. I pray you are helping Janza along her way in Heaven. I love you so so so much mom. We are still trying to learn to cope with this life that we have here to endure. We are all trying to understand and live the best we can until we join you in Heaven. 
I'm getting ready to go in vacating to Kentucky with Kyree for 3 weeks. I just need to get away from the rat race of life here in AZ for awhile. Going to see old friends and family and relax. My brain ana heart are in over drive. I need the break. I plan on having a good time while there and then next year Kyree and I are going to Montego Bay Jamaica for a week of all inclusive holiday, our reward from selling cookies these past 2 years. I wish you were here to go with us I kno we witless have a blast. 
Until next month when I come back here to visit your memorial page
ALWAYS REMEMBER. I LOVE YOU FOREVER!!! PLEASE SAVE MY SEAT NEXT TO YOU MOM.
Posted by Cindy Warner on May 3, 2022
Hi MOM, 
13 MONTHS OF MISSING YOU!!!
IT SEEMS LIKE just last week that JESUS took you home to HEAVEN.
LIke usual so much is happening that I just wish I could talk to you about. I know you can see what's happening here on earth from your HAPPY place. These past 2 weekend Kyrees scouts have had their annual community service projects. This was a huge success. She also had her end of season ceremony. As always she was TOP cookie seller.(3225) boxes. That's HUGE. Her portion of this sales will pay for her trip next year to Montego Bay. Jamaica. She is sooo excited to go and see another part of the world,
new people, new foods, new everything. Going to be exciting to say the least. By the way , I think I'm more EXCITED more than Kyree.Ha ha.. You could have joined us if you were still here by I'll watch for you in the clouds, on the cliffs, and everywhere we go. I want to share these experiences even if it isn't in person. My newest great grandson Elias, is AHHHHHMAZINGGG. He will soon be a month old and goodness is he growing so fast. He's a cutie and Xavyer and Breza are wonderful parents. 
Willie and Kingsly is doing pretty good. Kingsly is now playing soccer with
a NEW group of kids, and loving it. Christyon and his family are great as well. All the kids are looking forward to end of school so they can celebrate summer. Me, I'm a complete mess. My mind and heart ❤ are still broken beyond repair. I still struggle on a daily basis with emptiness, tears, and just thinking about how I'm suppose to carry on without you and JANZA. Yeah, I know I got Kyree to finish raising, and the others in my life , and I'm not the only one that has lost a loved one, i get it,, BUT, more than not it seems like there must be a way around this heartache. I still can't even say yours or Janzas name without crying, or remembering, hoping, wishing,things were different, even sitting here right now, writing this note to you there are tears running down my face. My coping skills suck mom. I may even be depressed. (maybe). I'm trying to figure it all out mom. I put my BIG GIRL PANTIES on, BUT they DON'T FIT, THE STRUGGLE IS SOOO REAL. and I HATE IT.... DON'T WORRY I won't be doing anything stupid, just trying to understand it all and trying to maneuver around all the obstacles in my way. I'm on such shaky ground hoping I don't trip over my own two feet. 
I miss you so very very much mom. I love you FOREVER. Please tell Janza WE ALL love her and miss her so so so much.  Until next time MOM, HOLD MY SEAT NEXT TO YOU AND JANZA.
Posted by Cindy Warner on April 11, 2022
Happy happy happy happy birthday Mom I hope Evan isn't all it's supposed to be and that's your partying and having a grand old time I sure miss you down here on this Earth and it's absolutely completely lonely without you I miss all of our conversations are labs are card games or picnics and just just you and general I just miss you so badly I pray to God you had a wonderful wonderful wonderful birthday I love you happy happy Heavenly birthday until next time I love you
Posted by Cindy Warner on April 2, 2022
1YEAR. 1 WHILE YEAR. 
MOM I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I PRAY YOU ARE HAPPY, I PRAY YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY THE LOVE OF ALL OUR FAMILY. I PRAY JANZA IS RIGHT BESIDE YOU . PLEASE LET HER KNOW SHE IS LOVED AND MISSED TOO.
AS THE OLD SAYING GOES LIFE THIS ON UNTIL IT'S OUR TIME. WELL, SO IT DOES BUT,, NOT WITHOUT THE SUFFERING AND EMPTINESS OF LOSS. THE WHAT IFS AND THE WHAT IF IT WERE ANOTHER WAY. I AM TRYING DAILY TO CONTINUE TO FIND MY PURPOSE HERE NOW BESIDES RAISING KYREE. I NEED TO FIND ""MY""PURPOSE , NOT JUST FOR OTHERS. I CAN'T SEEM TO GET THERE JUST YET AND MIND GOES A MILE A MINUTE AND MY HEART IS CRUSHED WITH MISSING YOU AND LEARNING TO LOVE ""LONG DISTANCE"". THIS CRAP IS NO FUN MOM...
AS FAR AS ME AND MINE WE ARE DOING OK CHRIS AND HIS WIFE AND KIDS ARE ALL HEALTHY AND THEY ARE WORKING TO KEEP THEIR MARRIAGE TOGETHER,  KYREE IS STILL GOING TO SCHOOL, AND GIRL SCOUTS, SHE STRUGGLES FROM TIME TO TIME AND MISSES HER MOMMIE AND YOU VERY VERY MUCH. WILLIE IS WORKING WITH DOUG ON HIS GUTTER BUSINESS, JANZA IS BESIDE YOU SINGING WITH THE ANGELS  AND I AM A COMPLETE MESS . I STILL STRUGGLE TRYING TO FIND MY PLACE. I DO ASK THE REGULAR STUFF ON A DAILY BASIS BUT IT'S MY""HEART" THAT TRULY HURTS. AND I MISS OUR PHINE CALLS AND I MISS OUR VISITS AND I MISS OUR BEEAKFASTS TOGETHER IN THE MORNING, I MISS OUR FAMILY CARD GAMES AND GATHERINGS. I MISS""EVERYTHING ""THAT NO LONGER HAPPENS BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT HERE. YOU WERE THE": GLUE"" THAT HELD IT FAMILY TOGETHER AND WE NO LONGER DO ANY OF THESE THINGS TOGETHER. I MISS ALL OF THAT. I MISS""YOU"MOM.  PLEASE KNOW I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN WHEN IT'S MY TIME. I PRAY YOU WILL BE AT HEAVENS FOR WHEN I ARRIVE. I WISH THAT I KNEW WHAT TO EXPECT UPON ARRIVAL BUT I GUESS THAT'S ALLOWED. I CAN ONLYIMAGINE THAT IS AHHHHHMAZINGGG. I KNOW THAT'S WHAT GOD PROMICED  I LOVE YOU MOM BEING ANY WORDS. PLEASE BE SAFE, PLEASE REMEMBER I ADORE YOU AND I MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH.  PLEASE SEND MY LOVE TO JANZA AND TELL HER I LOVE HER AND MISS HER ALWAYS. 
Posted by Cindy Warner on March 4, 2022
11 MONTHS OF MISSING YOU. THE FIRST WOMAN IN MY LIFE AND I LOVE YOU MOM.
I'm sorry I missed the 2nd day. But you were in my thoughts all day. I wasnt around the computer to send you a message. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so so much. I'm sure you know by now that I finally had Janzas HOMEGOING CELEBRATION on Saturday. While is was wonderful I'm still so so sad and my heart us beyond repairable as it was when you went home to Jesus as well. Mom, I pray Heaven is all that we are promiced and that you and Janza are happy, together, and joyful. This place is just NOT the same without you here. I'm sending huge hugs and kisses to you and Janza. Please know I'm doing my best to take care of myself and Janzas kids, while I wait to be called to Heaven. Until next month, please continue to send signs that I wait to find that let me kno you are all ok. I LOVE YOU MOM. 
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Posted by Cindy Warner on February 3, 2022
MOM. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BEYOND ALL THAT I AM... These past 9 months without you have been the loneliest and I often catch myself wanting to call and share news of things going on and a JOLT of reality shocks me back to the realization that I just can't call. Please ask Jesus to get long distance service in HEAVEN!!!. I have so much i want to share with you.
I pray you are safe. I pray you are happy I pray you have no pain and I pray you are watching our for Janza. 
This has been one in the hardest last years I've ever had to live thru. I've never felt so left behind in all my life. I miss you and Janza soo very very much. The pain of emptiness and brokenness to those of us left behind is the worst ever. I wish we could sit and talk together again just like old times. I miss our visits, going to Dr appts, going gargling, Laughlin trips and card games, holidays, family gatherings and all the times we just did nothing. Mom i miss and love you very much. 
Trying to stay busy to keep my mind occupied with raising Kyree ito Girl Scout cookie  season , so we are selling 6 days a week. In also getting stuff together for Janzas celebration of life services at the end of this month. Please tell her to watch out for us and see all the people that love her who will be here to celebrate her life. I hope I do her proud.  Please kiss her and give hugs from all of us. 
Mom, I pray you are safe and happy.. I love you forever.
Posted by Cindy Warner on January 3, 2022
Hi MOM. 
9 MONTHS, I can hardly believe I haven't talked to or seen you in 9 months. This is absolutely SOUL CRUSHING. .
I missed yesterday to write to you but certainly not because you weren't on my mind because YOU NEVER leave my thoughts, not even for a second. I love you and miss you above all else going on in my life. 
I hope your very first Christmas in HEAVEN was INCREDIBLE. I can only imagine how MAGNIFICENT it must have been to celebrate the birth of JESUS in person. I'm certain it was GLORIOUS. I hope Janza was right bedside you celebrating too. We celebrated here at my house this year as we usually do, HOWEVER, this year was especially SAD, LONELY,AND EMPTY for me. I truly struggled with ALL my thoughts and my heart is completely broken. I miss you and Janza sooo very very much. I find true guilt in even laughing or trying to enjoy life without you and Janza. Sometimes I wish I was there with yall so I wouldn't feel this intense, incredible, emptiness and this fear of being lost in everyting I do. I love you very very much. I just haven't figured out how to maneuver this world without yall by my side here on this earth.
I'm sure you know by now that Uncle Jerry Slusser has joined you and the rest of the family in Heaven. I'm Sure there was a huge party of people there to welcome him as he arrived.
Mom, I love and miss you sooo sooo very much. I pray you are safe and that Heaven is as ahhmazing as we have all been told it is. Please watch out for Janza for me until I get there. 
Be safe, and please tell Jesus. THANK YOU FOR ALL HE IS AND ALL HE DOES. IN HIS HOLY NAME I PRAY.  AMEN.
Posted by Cindy Warner on December 2, 2021
8 MONTHS. 8 WHOLE MONTHS WITHOUT YOU!!!
My mind goes into overdrive when I think about all the missed days without you and without being able to share my family news with you. I love you MOM!!! Beyond all else I love you!!! These past months so much has happened and I know you know what's going on. Mom I miss you so very much. Your number is still programmed in my phone with your voice in it and it will stat there always since that's as close as I can get to hearing your voice. It may sound silly to many but I love to hear you even if it's at a distance away as far as Heaven. I'll take it. My Comfort pill. 
Thanksgiving has now come and gone and I had 2EMPTY seats at my table that I wish had been filled by YOU and JANZA. The TWO MOST IMPORTANT WOMEN IN MY LIFE ARE GONE. This pain of EMPTINESS is beyond any I've ever felt in my life. I HATE IT!!!!! I struggle every day just to get outa bed. Some days if it weren't for having to get Kyree to school I wouldn't get up at all. I somehow keep putting one foot in front of the other trying to find my purpose for being here. 
AS Christmas is coming , I'm sure it will be another day of sadness for me. I just can't find things to be happy about much anymore. I'm really STRUGGLING MOM!!! I know there are no rules on grief and there are no time limits either. I just wish some of the pain and tears would subside just a little bit but I'm NOT there yet... maybe someday just NOT TODAY!!!
Please tell JANZA we love her and miss her more than I can tell you. I CRY every day about her and my heart can't stand that she isn't here with us all. Please hug her and give her our love and let her know we miss her soooooo much.  Even the thought of her name puts my mind into a flurry of emotions and tears..I'm still waiting on signs from you both that you are all ok. I watch daily for any little notion that it's you or her. In 10 days she will have been gone from this physical world 2 months and I can hardly believe it either.
I love you MOM sooo much and I miss you daily. Janza this mom your kids and brother adores you and misses you soo very much.
Until next time MOM, PLEASE TAKE CARE, WATCH OVER US ALL AND PLEASE HELP ME GET THRU THIS MADNESS IN MY SOUL!! IPRAY YOU ARE BOTH SAFE IN HEAVEN. I love you all the way to HEAVEN..
Posted by Cindy Warner on October 2, 2021
Hi Mom, 
I miss you soo very much. I love you beyond word's. Today is 6 months since you left this physical world. I still pray every day that you are safe, happy and at peace.
There is soo much going on here in my life, and I wish you were here to talk to. I need the comfort of your word's and your hugs. My heart is soo very heavy as my daughter Janza will soon be joining you in Heaven. The doctors say she will only be here on earth for about another 6 months. She is very sick and at the end stages of liver disease. Mom, please be there at the Gates of Heaven to welcome her so she isn't scared. I'm sure your loving face and warm hugs will put her at ease. Although I'm not sure what's on the other side of the clouds in the sky I have to believe it's magical and peaceful. I'm sooo sad that I'm losing my only daughter to a very ugly disease. I love her beyond anything. I will miss her like no other. My heart hurts and my eyes can't stop crying. My thoughts are all over the place and my mind is racing. I can't imagine my life without Janza. Mom, please send me your signs that I know you are still listening to my prayers. I love you sooo much mom. Until later, please watch out for Janza. She will need you once she arrives. Thank you Mom
Posted by Cindy Warner on August 28, 2021
Hi Mom, I love you sooo very much. I miss you even more. I pray Heavens is all what we have learned it is. I pray you are safe and happy and in no pain.
Today, I hope you and Walter are together celebrating his 93rd birthday. I know there's a party going on up there. With all the family on both sides it will certainly be the biggest ever.My family and I here on earth are sending the BEST HAPPY BIRTHDAY wishes to Walt. Please let Dad (Walt) know he is the best.
Most days are still going on as normal, Janza and Willie are finally recovering from their illnesses and I just hope and pray that they continue to do well. Kyree and I talk about you so much, we still watch for the signs from you knowing when I do see them I'll know exactly that it is you watching over us. I love you beyond all else and my heart is sooo heavy with missing you. I still cant have a conversation about you with anyone without crying. It's so bitter sweet and still so raw and painful. I never could have imagined the suffering and feeling of emptiness of losing you.
I still find myself reaching for my phone and starting to call you and share things that are going on and I'm rudely reawakened to the reality of you not being here. I sure wish Heaven had long distance calling, I'm certain your phone would NEVER stop ringing.
I LOVE YOU MOM , I HOPE YOU ARE SAFE, HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE. I MISS YOU EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY.
Until it's my time.... I LOVE YOU!!
Posted by Cindy Warner on July 28, 2021
Hi Mom...
Well my darlin you finally made it to Hawaii. We took you with us, Kyree and I. The Pacific Ocean was the perfect place for me to finally find peace and put you to rest in my heart. Three special places have a part of you, Pearl Harbor, our dinner cruise and on our parasailing journey. The ocean welcomed you and enveloped you with the biggest hug it could muster. We talked to you, prayed about you and kissed you goodbye. Ohhh my, you are sooo very missed and loved. I finally truly am at peace and I know you must be the happiest in Heaven. My heart will never heal, I miss you with every passing moment. BUT, I know I'll see you again on the other side someday. So until then, mom, I know that you know , you can see us, you can hear us, and I know you know how much grief we are all suffering from wishing you were still here with us. The emptiness and loss is sooo great and is soooo OVERWHELMING.
I LOVE YOU MOM!!!! 
LOVE CINDY and KYREE
Posted by Cindy Warner on July 2, 2021
Hi MOM.
I sure miss you very much. Today is 3 months since you went to glory, ohhh gosh it is still soo fresh and raw. I'm not sure how long this pain will last but it sure hurts missing you.. I just wanted to say THANK YOU so much for reminding all of us how much we all meant to you and how much you loved each and every one of us. Your final blessings were beyond anything I could have ever asked for or deserved. I'm very thankful. I love you sooo very much. I sure wish Heaven had a telephone because there is soo much I want to tell you. So much has happened and is still happening, I'd just love to share with you and get your advise and opinion. I would have a hotline directly to you.
  We are all still trying to process this thing called grief and man is it ever a mess. This is by far the toughest thing I've ever had to deal with in my life and no fun at all. 
Ipray you are safe and happy . Until I see you on the other side, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU BEYOND WORDS.
Posted by Kyree Turner on June 9, 2021
Hi mini I love u and I can't wait to see u love u see u soon
Posted by Cindy Warner on May 30, 2021
Hi MOM.
I love you and I miss you terribly. It's Memorial weekend and I sure wish you were here for our regular holiday get together Pool, cookout and cards. Its not happening this year. Everybody has they're own families and things to do I guess.  
Everything is sooo different since youve been gone..  Kyree and her fellow girl scouts went out to a Veterans cemetery and placed flags on every single Veterans grace. While it was very sad it was also an Honor to be invited to participate and a reminder that these folks died for our continued FREEDOMS. You would have been very proud of her as you always were. She misses you very much too. We always talk about you and share our AHHHHHMAZINGGG memories that we will cherish forever. 

Im still waiting on your visit. Im watching and listening waiting patiently. I just hope I dont miss your signs, or your visits. Some of my siblings have shared their encounters of your visits to them and I'm so jealous, I'm waiting Mom... You promised you would come see me. 
I miss you sooo much, I love you always. 
I pray you are happy and safe in Heaven surrounded by the ANGELS and JESUS, and all those loved ones.
So until next time MOM, stay safe. Stay well and please STAY IN TOUCH. I miss and love you.
Posted by Cathy Erwin on May 9, 2021
Happy Mother's Day Mom, your first one spent in heaven and with your mom in over 50 years. How special this day must be for you both! I wish I were a fly on a cloud to witness that. Happy Mothers Day to you both. 

My family came out yesterday for a BBQ and to celebrate Mother's Day with me, it was wonderful as are all our get togethers. My family is just the best!

Today, I really wanted to just forget this would be my first Mother's Day without you, mom. I planned a day away from home where I could turn the world off for awhile and just focus on anything but celebrating Mother's Day without my mother. Dennis and I drove up to Camp Verde for lunch followed by a few hours over at Cliff Castle Casino. We had a good time, didn't win but still had a good time. But then.... 

On my ride home reality set in and my sense of such absence within was heightened beyond belief and the tears just ran as I realized I can run but I can't hide. You're really gone and you're not coming back and nothing I can say or do will change that. I miss you mom, I love you too. Days like this will come and go but in the end I can only hope the pain lessens in time. My feelings of loss and love will always be deep within but I do find comfort in knowing that someday we will be together again. Meanwhile on this day of celebration for mom's I wish you a very Happy Mother's Day and thank you for being my mom. I love you always and forever.
And don't forget, we'll always have Paris.
Posted by Cindy Warner on May 9, 2021
Happy Mother's Day Mom I can't tell you how much I miss you and love you and wish you were around so that I could just give you a big fat Mother's Day hug today.I love you and I pray to God you are having The Best Time Ever up in HEAVEN with Jesus in your family. I miss you so so much and just know we love you we love you so so much and I'll see you on the other side one day and until I get there just know that all of us down here miss you terribly and we love you and we so wish we could be greedy and have you back I love you mom take care until we see each other
Posted by Malerie A Kline on April 18, 2021
Mom Barbara I have so many beautiful memories of spending special time’s with you & the family. I appreciate that you have always accepted me like family. I Have always Loved you like my other Mom.. You will forever be in my Heart & Prayers. You are a Beautiful Angel & one day I will see you & my mom again but until then I know that you & my mom are up there dancing & being free from pain.
Posted by Cindy Warner on April 17, 2021
Hi Mom,
  I love you and miss you so very much. It's been 15 days since you went to Heaven. It seems so surreal that you are NOT here with us.
 We had your services on Wednesday, and while it was soo FINAL, it was a good day to finally know that you are at rest, with Walt, together again for always. Your last wishes were read to all and they're wasn't a dry eye in the church. You really did" HAVE IT ALL"! and so did "WE" WE ALL HAD YOU, ALL OF YOU!!
 Everyday I want to call or just stop by your house to have a cup of coffee, a donut or a breakfast sandwich, you know those from Mc Donalds that you like much. And sometimes I do stop by to say hello to Daryld and see how his day is going or if he needs anything. Most time, like usual he says "nope, don't need a thing". But, I check none the less. He misses you so very much, as we all do.
 I gotta tell ya MOM, YOU, MY DEAR left sooo many lasting impressions on sooo many peoples hearts and minds. I still can't believe that I will never hug you, Talk to you, give you kiss, have a meal together, play cards and ohhh so many others things again. Each day seems to run into the other. So many times I feel like I'm just going thru the motions of life here on earth without you. Everywhere I go, I am reminded of you in so many ways. GOOD WAYS I'll have you know.!!! Gosh MOM, I miss you soooo sooo much.
 I know you are finally at peace and comfortable. And for that we are all blessed. So as I now must go on living "as you asked""us to do, I will BUT not without you knowing that I'm waiting and watching for the signs you said ""I would know"" when you are here with me surrounding me with your presence. IM WAITING MOM!!! 
      I MISS YOU AND I LOVE FOREVER.
    YOUR DAUGHTER. CINDY. 4/17/2021
Posted by Cathy Erwin on April 14, 2021
A tribute to my mom, a personalized eulogy poem written just for her and read today at her funeral gathering. She always liked my poems and I can only hope she would have liked this one too. It's my last gift for my mom. "I love you mom, I miss you more than words can say, God Bless you" . Love always and forever, Cathy

Mom                                                
By: Cathy 4/14/21

On April 10th, nineteen hundred & thirty eight                          
my mom Barbara Ann Winchell was born,                    
sharing her grandmother’s birth date                                                
The 3rd oldest of 8 and growing up poor                 
a product of big families and the 2nd World War         
In Wisconsin she grew up, in a town called Fox Lake  
following generations afore her, a home to make 

Mom married at 17, her high school beau          
and by 23 years of age, she had 6 children in tow                  
Divorced and married, 2 more kids by thirty one    
with health issues to follow, child bearing done    
That marriage too, would not forever last                    
as she grew older and wiser, each year of her past  

Born into the 2nd generation, of 5 girls and 3 boys          
a tradition mom continued, that brought her great joy  
For a family with 8 kids, they’d be forever bound           
to the heartbeat of their mother, a wonderful sound                                                For she lived for her children, they always came first         
together forever, for better for worst                

A marriage to her children, that would never part       
that began at their births, right from the start               
For each of her children, independent and free       
branches growing stronger, on the family tree       
Sometimes hard to believe, they share the same DNA
her children as different, as night is, to day

Our mother had courage, way deep down inside    
never outwardly scared, at whatever she tried   
Moving 2000 miles, away from her home           
packing up and going, to places unknown                   
A couple more marriages followed the move                  
but unlucky in love, is all they would prove

Determined to better, her life and ours           
goal driven and purpose, gave her the powers      
From Wisconsin to Arizona, across this vast land                  
she made a move, that to many, was bold and grand
Taking her 8 children to a place unknown                 
raising them up, until most fully grown

Except for the two youngest, she’d move them one day  
this time to Alaska, to begin a new stay                      
Her focus again, came from deep in her heart           
another journey to explore, another new start     
While in Alaska she’d meet, the man of her life            
Walter Goodman she married, husband and wife       

Together they shared over 30 years of living       
support to each other and love worth giving
He helped mom to raise, the last kids at home               
bringing stability to her life, and yet still places to roam

For together they traveled and moved many places    
a journey to venture, with lots of new faces                
Until the Good Lord called Walt, it was his time to go
the honeymoon now over, leaving nothing but woe

As strong as mom was, Walt’s passing hit hard            
starting over at 70, was not in the cards                     
For the first time in her life, now truly she’d be         
all alone in her home, was all she could see                 
Her emptiness we’d fill, with our families from 8                 
but at times not enough, still alone her fate

As the months turned to years, now 5 or 6 had past
then mom met Darrald Feaker and both fell in love fast
At this stage in their lives, there was no time to wander
they moved in together with no time to squander      
At age 76 and 82, when they first got together              
life could be long or short, like cold Arizona weather

But whatever time they had, they wanted to share   
not married but together, in love what a pair
As life would have it, they had 7 great years    
making shared memories, through laughter and tears
We should all be so lucky to reach their ages and in love
a legacy from both and a gift from above

I’ve learned from my mother so many good things             
her love for her children is constant, even with wings                                         
Life is an adventure and you can’t sit still                  
as long as there’s a wonder, a determination, a will
Explore the unknown, discover what life has to give
don’t settle for average, you have but one life to live        

No regrets, no misgivings, looking forward at best       
life is a blessing, not a reality test              
Believe in God, ask forgiveness, he’s always there                     
to answer the call and show that he cares                       

To sweet Jesus I pray and to God above          
bless my mother Barbara Goodman with all of your love
Keep her safe and happy as I hope all angels
are, watching over the rest of us, from a heavenly star, Amen
Posted by Cindy Warner on April 14, 2021
Good morning mom, with a very heavy heart I'm here to chat with you. I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. We know that God has you safely tucked in up there in HEAVEN. I know the trumpets blared, and the choir sang so loudly upon your arrival. I can just imagine the joy in your mom's heart when she could once again hold you and love on you. JOY, JOY, JOY. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU MOM. We are all trying our best to hold it together here in earth.
  We know that HEAVEN is your new home and that we WILL meet again one day. No pain, no suffering, NO CANCER... Rest in GLORIOUS PEACE MOM.
YOU ARE SO LOVED AND SO MISSED...
until later.....
Posted by julie glenn on April 7, 2021
Barb, I miss you already.....from the day I met you, I thought you were an amazing lady. You were always so positive, loving and enjoyed every minute of life. I was so grateful my Dad found such a special lady to spend his life with. I love you for always making him so happy....I know he was tough.....YOU could handle him. I will always love you for that.....you also raised a beautiful family and I admire that....I love you for making me a part of your family.....please watch down on Dad and I......give us some signs so we know you are okay. I have no doubt that you will be the life of the party in heaven.....I will forever miss you but do know that I will see you again some day....I love you, Barbara Goodman......a true angel you are.....
Posted by Kathy Ryrie on April 6, 2021
Grandma Goodman - I've only been a part of this family for a few short years but you always made me feel welcome and loved. Thank you for that and please know that I'll always take care of your grandson, Leroy. You will be missed and thought of often. ~ Kathy Ryrie
Posted by Cindy Warner on April 6, 2021
Mom,
Ohhh my gosh, I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU TERRIBLY. Its sooo very hard to carry on each day. Many times I pick up my phone to make my daily ""mom call"", and I'm reminded very quickly that you aren't on the other end. nor will you ever be again. I love you MOM. Some times I will be at the grocery or just checking the mail and tears fall like a faucet running just thinking of you and how much i miss you. Memories are what we have left of you and i will cherish them like never before. As I held your hand in your last couple days I always said I LOVE YOU MOM and you ALWAYS answered I LOVE YOU TOO. This is my daily comfort now. I asked you before you passed, " HOW WILL I KNOW IT'S YOU WHEN YOU COME TO VISIT ME ""?? Your quick reply was "HUNNY, YOU WILL JUST KNOW", and YOU promiced to come often. I pray you will always, I will be looking for you MOM... lead my path until I can join you on the other side. I know your welcome into GOD'S KINGDOM was the most GLORIOUS event ever. I LOVE YOU FOREVER..
                 LOVE YOU
                YOUR DAUGHTER, CINDY
Posted by Carri Dove on April 5, 2021
GRAM ...

Goodbyes are not forever,
are not the end,
it simply means I'll miss you,
until we meet again.

Gram I was honored being your first granddaughter. I have so many fond memories to always look back on, from lots and lots of events, like your milestone birthdays, my wedding, family gatherings, holidays and the list goes on. Some of my personal favorites were you showing me how to sew for the first time, sitting down to a game of cribbage, going to yard sales and getting a deal. I loved how you decorated for every holiday and you decorated everyone room in the house. I was always amazed that you could move homes and you were unpacked in 2 days from start to finish. When I was younger I loved watching wheel of fortune with you, I always knew you would get it before the contestant, you loved crossword puzzles and would finish them always. My most treasured memory was when we vacationed with you in Wisconsin, we stayed at Aunt Alice's and we shared a room together, we had so many laughs, from going to Mr. B's (aka pork and twinks), going to Aunt Vera's and surprising her with us being there and going to the Nelson family reunion. The list of memories go on and on. I was truly lucky to have had you in my life for as long as I have. You were always a huge part of my life, you will be highly missed going forward. I know you will always be there in spirit so it does give me a bit a comfort. I am so happy you are pain free and have reunited with others that went before you tell Grandpa hi for me. Continue to guide us and look over us. I LOVE YOU GRAM until we meet again. ♥♥♥ XOXOXOXO ♥♥♥

Your granddaughter Carri  4-5-2021

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Posted by Cindy Warner on September 3, 2022
HI MOM... 
17 MONTHS of missing you and loving you long distance.  
THIS IS SOOOOO NOT RIGHT nor is it fair. 
Mom I pray you are safe, and happy. I pray Janza Is right beside you and that you all are together ever day and night. I miss you both and love yall so so much. Me and her kids are all struggling daily to carry on. Your absences in this physical world is soo profound. It had absolutely turned my head and my heart upside-down. We are still carrying on with our lives because that's what we must do here not much choices in that!!!!
On Monday Kyree had surgery again on her arm. The doctor took out the remaining plates and screws that were still in there. It's been 2 1/2 years since her original injury and this is her 4th surgery trying to get her bones healed. I'm hopeful that this will be the final surgery. So school fir her is here at home with me as the teacher fir at least a week.
Chris is working and taking care of his loved ones. Willie and his boys are doing pretty good as well. My sisters and brothers , I believe are all doing fairly well. They all have their lives and kids and grands that are busy with life. 
Mom I LOVE YOU and miss you you so very very much. 
I pray Heaven Is all that we believe it is. I pray you and Jesus are on a first name basis by now. Please tell HIM thank you for all he does and all that he is and that I believe in HIM and I LOVE HIM SOOO.
Please tell Janza that she is so so missed and loved beyond measure.
I LOVE YOU MOM , more than life. 
Until it's MY time, mom, PLEASE SAVE MY SEAT NEXT TO YOU AND JANZA.
Posted by Cindy Warner on August 2, 2022
16OF THE LONGEST MONTHS EVER!!!! MOM,
I still pray EVERY DAY that you are SAFE, HAPPY and that HEAVEN is all we were told it is. I LOVE and MISS you so so so very much. I wish you were here to continue to share in my daily life and watch the growth of the kids and grands. I miss EVERYTHING about you and our life we had here on this earth. I hope you are watching up in HEAVEN.
 Well summer is almost over and school has just begun. We had a good summer, a couple vacations and a couple
staycations too, and even found time for a 3 day girl scout camp. I'll say that was a success.
Kyree started on Monday into the 7th grade. Middle school here we go!!! We had meet the teacher in Friday afternoon, found all her new classes, and saw friends from last year too.
Christyon, Willie, and their kids are all doing well, new schools for the kids, new jobs for both the guys and good health for all. They are all doing their own thing as usual. 
Please tell Janza I'm STILL doing the best I can with the kids and that my HEART is still so so broken. I MISS her and LOVE her so much. I pray you both are together and are helping each other to maneuver thru Heaven. I'll bet it is as GLORIOUS and BEAUTIFUL and NOTHING compares to it. MOM, PLEASE share our LOVE with all the other family members and friends that have passed before us. MOM, 
ALWAYS, ALWAYS, remember that YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED BEYOND ANYTHING IMAGINABLE.
I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS MISS YOU , YOUR LOVE, YOUR HUGS, AND EVERYBODY ABOUT YOU.... UNTIL NEXT MONTH... PLEASE SAVE MY SEAT BESIDE YOU AND JANZA...
Posted by Cindy Warner on July 2, 2022
Forever 82 , 
15 months has come and gone and to say it gets easier is a BIG FAT LIE...
IT DOES NOT!!! .
I sure do miss you so very very much. I wish you were here to see me in person, to hug me in person, to talk to me in person to laugh with me in person, and even to cry with me in person.
I just came back from a lengthy vacation back to Kentucky with Kyree. I was on a journey and a mission to try my best to make sure Kyree got to know as many of her mamas Kentucky family and friends so that
she would know exactly what cloth she comes from and to see them face to face. I feel the trip was a success. Please share this news with Janza so she knows I'm doing the best I can for Kyree. Most of the people Christyon already knows and he couldn't go, he had to work. She even got to meet Janza's other brother and his family. That's was a Special treat. 
So not much other has changed here in hot Arizona. It's summer and swimming and girl scout camp keeps us busy like usual.
Kyree has another arm surgery coming up next week to once again remove the plates in her arm. Hopefully I pray this will be the last one, and school will start again on August 1st. 
Willie is holding his own for now, I pray he stays healthy.
The grands and great grands are all growing up so cute and very smart.
Please keep a watch on us as I continue to look for you and Janza in all I do. I miss you both, my soul aches for you both.
I know I will see you again so until then, please save my seat next to you both. I love you MOM.
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September 2, 2022

Dear Mom, 

It's hard to believe its September and the last quarter of the year is upon us. Time just flies. The holidays will be here before I know it and another New Year will avail itself. I can't help but wonder what the future has in store for me and mine and the extended family. 

My granddaughter Tatum just turned 18 years of age. Mom, can you believe it, 18? OMG!!! Lil Jacob turns 14 this month and Adrianna turns 16 in December. Tatum just had her Senior class pictures taken as she graduates high school in May. So much goings on. I am buying Tatum her Senior class ring for Christmas, its not going to be a surprise as I am going to have her design it. I want it to be what she wants it to be. Tatum only goes to school half days this year and she is working/volunteering at the day care center at her high school in the afternoons. Once they have a position open she hopes to get hired on (actually making a paycheck). The staff love her and say she does real well with the children. Adrianna and Lil Jacob are raising lambs again this school year and will show in March at the County Fair again. That keeps them pretty busy.. Jacob is also playing tackle football as well. Adrianna is getting alot of driving in as she hopes to get her license in December when she turns 16. For now Tatum is happy just having her permit and may or may not work on getting her license in the future. Jacob and Megan are great as is Carri and Tyler. Both of their families just spent 4 days together in southern California at a very fancy beach front resort in celebration of Tatum's 18th birthday. Dennis and I dog sat for them both while they were gone. They all had a blast. Dennis and Jacob spent last weekend (actually 4 days) up north deer hunting but didn't get one. They did have quality father son time and enjoyed the cooler weather as well.  

Dennis and I are well, we just got our last Covid Booster shots. I am going in for a routine  colonoscopy sometime later in the month, scheduled after my doctor visit next Wednesday. Praying all will be fine. Just had my annual pulmonary check up and got excellent reviews and my A1c is finally in a good range - 6.6. The doc says my meds are controlling my diabetes well. I wish I could loose some weight, I just have no will power and I know that's no excuse, but it is the truth. God help me, please!

Haven't heard much on the extended family front, haven't talked to anyone much which is sad. I do know that Tonya and her family just moved back to the states last month and are now living in North Carolina. Josh and Ashley and kids moved last month as well as they now live in Florida. So happy for them all. Kyree had her 4th surgery on her arm and seems to be doing well. Teri made a trip to Florida for her work and Natalie joined her. They took in the sights during Teri's off time from her conference. Robyn called yesterday just to check in and she and Jerry are well. Jerry is changing his work schedule and will now be working 3 twelves. I think she said he was working Sunday, Monday and Tuesday 5 a.m. to 5 p.m. He may also work overtime on Wednesdays. Robyn had fallen awhile back and broke her wrist, it was in a cast when I saw her on her birthday but she said the cast is off now and she's on the mend. I got a call from Rebecka the other day, she was just calling to say hi. She and husband Preston are well as are Doug and his boys and their extended family. Short of that, this is what I know. I'm sure if the Good Lord allows it you're more up to date than me on everything. We all travel in such diverse circles and on occasion we do talk to one another but its not very often. It's sad that folks can't pick up the phone and call just to say hello. Oh well, it is what it is. 

Mom, I can't tell you how much I miss you, words just can't convey. I love you dearly and I pray all is well with you and Walt and all the family and friends who have gone before me.

My new favorite saying is: AS LONG AS THERE’S ONE PERSON ON EARTH WHO REMEMBERS YOU, IT ISN’T OVER!”. It's from Oscar Hammerstein/Musical -  Carousel.
I will always remember you mom and so many others and as long as I live it will never be over!

Take good care and never forget,

We'll always have Paris.

LuvuL8r, Cathy. 



August 2, 2022

Dear Mom, 

I can't believe it's the 2nd of August 2022, where does the time go? All is well here with me and mine as is the rest of the family as far as I know.

What I know is, Cindy and Kyree took a trip to Kentucky for a couple of weeks, Teri, Wayne and Natalie went on vacation to see Old Faithful Nat'l Park, Jacob, Megan and the kids went to Colorado- white river rafting down the Colorado River, and I saw Kim, Guy and Maria, Jerry and Robyn at Jerry and Robyn's for a BBQ on the 3rd of July. Tonya, Drew and the girls just moved from Switzerland back to the states last week. They are now living in North Carolina. So glad we got to visit them in Europe the times we went over. Joshua and Ashley  and children have moved to Florida from Texas. They bought a house close to Ashley's family. Only an hour or two away. Guess I'll be making a drive out there for a visit sometime in the future. Maybe next year some time I will make a drive back. Never been to Florida and only a pitstop in N.C. when Dennis and I went back to D.C. I'm sure both Maria and Guy are happy to have their family back in America. They have a wonderful opportunity to now spend some quality time with their grandkids and to see them grow up without breaking the bank to fly over seas to do so. 

Lots of happenings all around me from politics, to the economy, to kids/grandkids, etc. Today is election day, we're getting a person from both the Republicans and Democrats who will run for Governor in November and I'm anxious to see who it is. The price of gas is coming down a little. It was almost $6 a gallon. It's now about $5.10 a gallon.  

Grandkids just started school a couple of weeks ago. Tatum is a Senior this year and turns 18 in a couple of weeks. She and her family are going to celebrate her BIG 18th in Imperial, California over a long weekend in mid August at a real fancy resort.. Megan's pulling all the kids out of school to be able to go. All three of the grandkids are raising lambs to show at the County Fair next spring. They're all growing up way too fast. Carri and Tyler are doing great. Carri loves her Friday afternoon BINGO, she win's pretty often. Carri and Tyler are going to surprise Tatum for her birthday by joining them in California. Dennis and I will be dog sitting for both families. I know Bullet loves it when Dixie and Shadow come for a visit. 

Dennis is staying busy tinkering in his shop and keeping up with the yard work. He drives out to Buckeye every Thursday to visit his Aunt Dede and helps her out with any honey do things she needs done. Since Uncle Gary has passed he's been a real blessing for her and really helps her out a lot. Me, well I'm just hanging out. Retirement isn't exactly how I imagined but it will do. I'm on the computer a lot, in the pool often and doing family tree stuff. I keep busy. Popped in on Dar last week for an afternoon visit, she's doing well. I just learned that Tara has moved to Palm Springs, CA for her job. She's only about 3-4  hours away, not too far. Dar's granddaughter Kourtne and her family have moved to Okinawa, Japan for the next 3 years. 

Anyway life is what it is! I can't tell you how much I miss and love you, there are no words. You're in my thoughts often and I pray heaven and eternity is what we envision. For if it is, then I know your fine and that brings me great comfort. Take good care, say hello to everyone there from me and remember .....

"We'll always have Paris" 

LuvuL8r, Cathy 


July 2, 2022 Happy Red, White and Blue month, mom.

Dear Mom, 

It's the 4th of July weekend and as usual it's hot, hot, hot. We are staying home and avoiding the traffic and road back ups that come with holiday travel. I'm having the kids/grandkids over on the 4th for a BBQ and swimming, it should be lots of fun. Two days later Jacob, Megan and the kids go on vacation and we will be dog sitting Dixie in their absence. Bullet won't know what to do with her being here for a whole week. It will prove to be very interesting.

After my last writing, mid month of June both Tatum and Adrianna got their driver permits. Jacob and Megan bought the girls a truck to share and once they get their licenses they will be driving it back and forth to school. Tatum missed the most she could on the written test to still pass, Adrianna aced hers. When it comes to the driving part of the test I'm not sure how Tatum will do but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Meanwhile Jacob and Megan let them drive around home, to and from the store, etc. Jacob actually took Adrianna on the freeway already. I guess she did ok for her first time. The girls are going to try for their licenses in December. Here's wishing them good luck.

I forgot to tell you last month when I wrote that while I was in Wisconsin I acquired some photo's I have never seen before. Some from yours and my dads wedding along with some baby photo's of me and some pictures of my dad while in the army.. They were Aunt Millie's photos and her daughter-in-law Jacki and husband Dave gave them to me. They actually gave me 3 large scrapbooks and said I could have them. I took from the books the pictures I wanted and left the albums for my cousins to go through and take what they want from them. Oh mom, how I wish you were here to see the pictures. I'm guessing you never saw them as they were Aunt Millie's. I think you would have enjoyed seeing them. I'm going to post them here on this web site, who knows maybe you can see them. I can't tell you how much it meant to me to get those photo's, I really felt like I was a Nelson and belonged. While I was only 6 when you and my dad divorced we (us kids) missed out on a lot of the Nelson family gatherings as kids and sometimes I feel at a loss because of that. I know you can't really miss what you never had but I do, for whatever the reason it's how I feel. Anyway, it's all good. I now have a couple of pictures as a kid, as wonderful reminders that I am a part of this wonderful Nelson family. Anyway I wanted to share that with you. 

I also want to share with you my new favorite quote. I heard it on a TV show about genealogy.. It comes from the musical Carousel by Oscar Hammerstein, it says:
AS LONG AS THERE’S ONE PERSON ON EARTH WHO REMEMBERS YOU, IT ISN’T OVER!”. 
OMG that is so true. I think the quote gives purpose and meaning to me that all of you are with me, it isn't over just because you're not here.  I don't know if I ever told you this before or not but I pray regularly and once a month, usually the first of the month during my prayers I do a roll call and say hello to all my family and friends that have gone before me. I call them all by name and try not to forget anyone, the list is very long. That along with doing the family genealogy and researching all the family that I have and looking up so many different peoples names makes this quote so meaningful to me. I'm keeping you and all these people alive within my heart and being, it isn't over! I love the quote and as long as I'm alive so are all of you. It's a legacy I want to leave my family and friends and one that I hope to pass on to anyone who welcomes it. Maybe someday someone will include me in their prayers and/or think of me often and keep me alive for many years to come, after I have passed. "It isn't over" as long as there's at least on person on earth who remembers me. I think sometimes my biggest fear in passing is being forgotten and while I don't want that to seem vain I just want to know my life had purpose and I made a difference. I guess we all want to feel that. 

Anyway on that note mom I'm going to close for now. Have I told you lately I love you and miss you? Well I do, more than you'll ever know. Wishing you and all my family and friends all Gods Blessings. Until next month, remember....

"We'll always have Paris"

LuvuL8r, Cathy    


 
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Shared by Cindy Warner on November 3, 2021
Here we are on 7 month of you absence. Oh I can't tell you how missed you truly are.  I love you so very very much.Geez I hardly had time to grieve your passing when now I lost my only daughter Janza, I know by now she is with you. I pray you were there to hold her hand and to show her the way around Heaven.  OHHH MOM how I miss you and Janza sooo very very much. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would ever bury my own children.  My heart and soul are soo very broken and I still have NOT figured out how to carry on.  Even the mention of Janza's name sends me into another realm of thought.  I truly don't know how to carry on, I feel like I'm just going thru the motions of life. Mom,  please hug her, hold her. Guide her , kiss her and please please tell her how much we all miss her and love her beyond all we have. I pray you two are as  super close in Heaven as you were here in earth.  She adores you mom, she always has. I'm still watching for signs that you know I'm looking for, and Janza promiced to visit too before she left us. I'M WAITING to know that you two are together and safe.  Kyree, Chris, Willie and I  are struggling in their own ways but are learning a new normal or whatever you might call it. I'm trying my best to help them thru all this loneliness and pain and emptiness that we are all trying to get on with. 
I love you mom and Janza sooo much.  You  two were the most important women in my life and now I must continue without either of you,  please know I'll do my best even though I don't now what my best is just yet.  I'm trying to carry on.
Please continue to help me from up above. I love you both sooo much.  Until later...  love you both Cindy 

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Shared by Cathy Erwin on April 10, 2021
Happy Birthday Mom, 
Wishing you a very Happy Heavenly Birthday. Another milestone birthday to celebrate but unlike the others we can't be there to share in it with you. Just know I am there in thought. I miss you more than words can say and hope you can feel my love always. Have a Happy Heavenly Birthday and may all your heavenly wishes come true. Happy Birthday Mom! 
Shared by Kennidee Hill on April 5, 2021
I never imagined that this day would come and how fast it did. I have so many memories with grandma- too many to list. But i do have some favorites. 
I remember when i used to spend the night at grandmas house and we would eat dinner in the recliners. she only let us drink milk or water for dinner so good thing there was chocolate syrup for chocolate milk. After dinner we would grab some ice cream and sit in front of the tv and watch criminal minds. This was our routine, every time i went over. My favorite part about going over to grandmas was getting to sleep next to her in her bed and my least favorite was having to help her make the bed every morning- which had to be perfect (grandma don’t play about her bed). 
Grandma and I would gossip about all sorts of things, Tell me family stories, and explain to me the importance of things in life. She would make fun of me because every time i went over the first thing i did was go in the kitchen. I will miss her spontaneous baking. 
when i was a kid grandma used to take me school shopping and she took me to get my first eyebrow wax!! I love you endlessly grandma and i don’t know what i will do without you. I’m sad that you won’t get to see me get married or even hold my kids one day. But i am so happy that you are no longer in pain. You areso loved. Please walk with me as i continue this thing called life. I love you always 
-kennidee