Here we are on 7 month of you absence. Oh I can't tell you how missed you truly are. I love you so very very much.Geez I hardly had time to grieve your passing when now I lost my only daughter Janza, I know by now she is with you. I pray you were there to hold her hand and to show her the way around Heaven. OHHH MOM how I miss you and Janza sooo very very much. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would ever bury my own children. My heart and soul are soo very broken and I still have NOT figured out how to carry on. Even the mention of Janza's name sends me into another realm of thought. I truly don't know how to carry on, I feel like I'm just going thru the motions of life. Mom, please hug her, hold her. Guide her , kiss her and please please tell her how much we all miss her and love her beyond all we have. I pray you two are as super close in Heaven as you were here in earth. She adores you mom, she always has. I'm still watching for signs that you know I'm looking for, and Janza promiced to visit too before she left us. I'M WAITING to know that you two are together and safe. Kyree, Chris, Willie and I are struggling in their own ways but are learning a new normal or whatever you might call it. I'm trying my best to help them thru all this loneliness and pain and emptiness that we are all trying to get on with.
I love you mom and Janza sooo much. You two were the most important women in my life and now I must continue without either of you, please know I'll do my best even though I don't now what my best is just yet. I'm trying to carry on.
Please continue to help me from up above. I love you both sooo much. Until later... love you both Cindy