My precious sweet mother, I can not believe as of May 7th you have been gone for a year and let me say that the hurt that I felt the day I lost you is the same hurt I still feel to this very day. It hasn't lessened any and it's extremely hard getting up everyday knowing that you aren't with your family and your husband anymore. So much has changed since you were called home to be with the lord and I wish you could do something to stop some of the things that are happening now or send me a sign that you are ok with it , so that I can let go of some of the resentment I'm feeling about this certain change. I love you my dear mother we all love you and miss you tremendously and miss your smile like crazy because regardless of how bad you were feeling you always kept that beautiful contagious smile . You were the best mother anyone could ask for and the world was a much better place with you in it that is for sure. The only peace that I have is knowing that you are up in heaven with our lord and savior and no longer suffering the way you were and I know that I will be reunited one day soon but until then I will continue to grieve and continue to keep your memory alive and also keep you alive in my heart. I know that you are watching over us and I know that you are always with us in spirit so that will have to do until I can hold you again in heaven. Rest easy my precious angel mother .