ForeverMissed

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Bernadette Estrada, 39, born on November 17, 1971 and passed away on August 24, 2011.

She Wrote: If I die today ...have I lived the life I wanted, and accomplished all my goals?  Was I happy?  Yes I am happy.  My goal isn't necessarily to accomplish EVERTHING, but rather to live a life where I am working toward life's goals. 

                                      A poem for my daughter 

My hands were busy through the day; I did not have much time to play
 the little games you asked me to.

I'd wash your clothes, I'd sew and cook, but when you asked me to share your fun I'd say: "A little later. soon."

I'd tuck you in all safe at night and hear your prayers, turn out the light,
Then tip-toe softly to the door.....I wish I'd stayed a minute more.

For life is short, the years rushed past.  No longer is she at my side
Her precious secrets to confide.  The picture books are put away, there are no longer games to play, No good-night kiss, no prayers to hear....
that all belongs to yester year.   

My hands, once busy, now are still.  The days are long and hard to fill.  I wish I could go back and do.......the little things you asked me to.
                    Author Unknown  (modified

Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on November 19, 2020
Hello Beautiful-  Wishing you an amazing birthday in Heaven- I hope the Angels are celebrating the wonderful person that you are. It’s always a party where you are because you are always smiling and positive. As the holidays draw near, a sadness fills my mind but I know you wouldn’t want it that way. I will choose to celebrate to remember you and live life how you did - to the fullest!  You are always on my mind and forever in my heart- now...make a wish!
Posted by Edmundo Estrada on November 18, 2020
May you have a very special birthday in heaven with our Lord and the angels my beautiful daughter. Thank you very much mija for being our angel for all the family and taking care of us from heaven we all miss you very much I miss you all the time and I think of you always. I think of you a lot during all the holidays brings back sweet memories of you and all the fun things we used to do.
Posted by Lori Willis on November 17, 2020
Happy Birthday dear Berns .... miss you so much, think about you just about every day ... your words of wisdom are timeless. Cant wait to see you again. I often think of you when I cook because you taught me so much about cooking. I love you so very much ... hugs and kisses eternally xoxoxo ~your Lor forever
Posted by Alice Estrada on November 17, 2020
Happy birthday in heaven with the God you believed in. Have more happiness today then you have ever known. Miss you so much.
Posted by Luca Gnagnetti on November 17, 2020
Happy Birthday, where ever you are Dette!
Posted by Prashant Yagnik on November 17, 2020
Remembering and missing you my dear friend! You have always been in my thoughts though.
Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on August 24, 2020
Berns, Wishing today (the day you left us) had never come.  We had so much more to do and see.  It still seems impossible and unfair and I’ll never understand why. I still think about the good ole days, but it’s not the same without you here to laugh and share the memories. Life is different now. I wonder what you would think about our world today?  CoVid19 is changing our world. Politics is out of control... It seems so unreal and I bet it would make you sad. Praying that you hear my voice when I talk to you. There are so many things I would ask you now if I could.
Love and miss you. 
Posted by Edmundo Estrada on August 24, 2020
My Berns the years come and go but your memory is always with us. We all miss you a lot. Your loss just left a void in my heart . I keep you in my heart and you will always be there I miss you and think of you every day my heart is broken but your memories Are here forever your brother Mike’s daughter is almost a year and she’s very beautiful she’s got your temper and your beautiful looks she is a big blessing to the whole family I will always love you till The we meet again in heaven with our Lord your dad Ed Estrada
Posted by Alice Estrada on August 24, 2020
Thousands of days pass, but to me, that day will always be yesterday. The more days pass, the more I miss you.
Posted by Luca Gnagnetti on August 24, 2020
Missing your laugh, Dette, hugs, Luca
Posted by Prashant Yagnik on August 24, 2020
Remembering and missing you so much my dear friend!
Posted by Denise Parra on August 13, 2020
Your unpleasant anniversary is forthcoming. Thank you for still keeping watch. I love you and I miss you.
Posted by Hawthorne Farr on April 14, 2020
Bernadette, you came to mind today and I was sad to learn of your passing. You were such a bright light and I consider myself so blessed to have been even a small part of your life. You passion for life, learning, song, dance, culture and travel are powerful and perhaps even more so in today's world. God knows how much this world needs wise souls like you in it! Thank you for our friendship and the laughs we had! Thank you for looking out for all of us who still here. I pray God's blessing upon your family and friends now and forever!
Posted by Denise Parra on February 19, 2020
Miss you, still.
Posted by Alice Estrada on February 14, 2020
Love you and miss you, thinking of you today and every day.
Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on November 17, 2019
Happy Birthday Beautiful! Thinking of you today and hoping you are surrounded by all who love you in heaven. Wishing we could talk about life and regular things and as I visit your pictures on this site, I long to know the stories behind each photo. You made the most of each day! 
Love you bunches!  -Ally
Posted by Lori Willis on November 18, 2019
Thought about you all day today , I know you had a wonderful birthday in heaven. I miss you so much and am so Grace for all you taught me ... your words of wisdom continue to encourage me. Love you forever Lor
Posted by Dbl E Enterprises ( on November 18, 2019
May You have a Happy Birthday in Heaven my Berns. Well your an aunt Michael has a baby daughter 1 month old she makes us very happy warming up our hearts we had a real nice baby shower for her yesterday. I miss you all the time and I will forever love you my Berns. Thank you for watching over us from heaven Love you Dad. And this was posted on your birthday November 17th 2019
Posted by Prashant Yagnik on November 17, 2019
Missing you my friend... even more on this special day!
Posted by Denise Parra on November 17, 2019
Happy Birthday in heaven, sweet girl. Love you.
Posted by Alice Estrada on November 17, 2019
You would have been 48 today. Still beautiful. Miss you so much.
Posted by ED Estrada on August 25, 2019
My daughter Berns, today August 24th is your anniversary when we lost you my Berns, I miss you all the time everyday thank you very much for watching over all of us I love you very much and miss you so so much. I've got good news for you Michael going to be proud daddy of a baby girl, her middle name will be Bernadette Estrada and I know your spirit will be in this baby girl so mija your spirit will be with all of us. I can hardly wait for this baby to be born it has lifted my spirits so high I miss you and I love you always your Dad Ed Estrada.
Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on August 24, 2019
Hello Beautiful- I'm remembering you as I always do and thinking of some of our best times. Those times made us who we are today and when I need you even now, I feel your guidance when I'm lost and your presence when I'm lonely.  Thank you for filling my heart with love, then and now. Love You!
                               

Posted by ED Estrada on August 24, 2019
May you have a great birthday in heaven dancing with the angels my Bernadette. I miss you more than anything in this world the hurt never leaves I keep your picture in my car so wherever I go you go with me I will always love you my Bernadette I love Dad
Posted by Lori Willis on August 24, 2019
I think about you all the time , I can still hear your laughter and great advice. You always had the most comforting words. Sometimes I comfort myself with memories of you. I miss you so very much. Always one of a kind
Posted by Denise Parra on August 24, 2019
Miss you still. And still think of you just as often. Rarely a week goes by that I am not reminded of something you taught me. I love you. Xx
Posted by Alice Estrada on August 24, 2019
So hard without you. Your visits keep me going. Every year still like yesterday. 
Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on November 18, 2018
Those we love don't go away, They walk beside us every day.  Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and always dear.  Thinking of you on your birthday and hoping the Angels sang a big Happy Birthday to you!  Missing you lots each day and thanking your you for being there for me always.
Posted by Prashant Yagnik on November 17, 2018
Remembering you even more my friend on this special day!
Posted by Alice Estrada on November 17, 2018
Wishing you were here. Dreamed about you all dressed up for a party. You looked so beautiful. Young forever.  People already gone came for you. I knew it was just one of your short visits. They were all dressed up too for the party. Miss you.
Posted by ED Estrada on August 25, 2018
Every year that goes by I miss you very much. The whole family misses you very much. I think of you everyday all the time. And I thank the Lord for taking to heaven where you won't suffer anymore from that horrible disease. I will always love you with all my heart my Berns and you're always with me in my heart. Love you always your Dad Ed Estrada
Posted by Alice Estrada on August 24, 2018
Not possible, 7 yrs without you
Miss you so much.
Posted by Luca Gn on August 24, 2018
missing u
Posted by Prashant Yagnik on August 24, 2018
I truly miss my dear friend... an immense loss that is still hard to believe and can't be explained.
Posted by Alice Estrada on February 14, 2018
Thinking of you today, Remembering you always. You are Never far from my mind.
Posted by Denise Parra on November 20, 2017
Happy Belated Birthday, beautiful. I miss you and have been thinking of you.
XO.
Posted by Alice Estrada on November 17, 2017
All i can say, is wish you were here. I had a dream about you last night. You were playing your guitar and singing in the funny way you used to, to make me laugh. I laughed so much in the dream. Wish the dream could last forever.
Posted by ED Estrada on November 17, 2017
May you have a very blessed birthday in heaven my daughter, as usual we all miss you very very much. Life will never be the same since you're departure I think of you everyday and I always will but someday I'll be with you and the rest of our family that has passed on love you always my sweetheart. Love you your dad Ed Estrada
Posted by Prashant Yagnik on November 17, 2017
Thinking about and missing my friend on your birthday!
Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on November 17, 2017
Hi beautiful.  Happy birthday! Another year gone by and I'm still in disbelief. I go through moments where I miss you, but it's easy to think of our fun times together and although I miss you, I am comforted in the strength that you fill inside me. I talk to you and you listen. Thanks for always being there. Love you bunches Berns.
 #yourstrengthempowersme!
Posted by Prashant Yagnik on September 22, 2017
I met you (Bernadette) in NYC back in 2000, in such random circumstances. I call it a destiny. You were such a charming person with full of positive energy and compassion. We made good friends and had best of our times that I cherish till date. We were in touch for many many years, and you would talk about the time at NIH, places you traveled including Italy, Beirut, Lebanon, our fond interest in cooking/food, etc. I was devastated to learn about the health diagnosis and can not still come to the terms. You have been and will always be in our hearts and minds forever! I miss you so much!!!
Posted by Craig Marsh on August 30, 2017
Hi Bernadette, I was diagnosed with Sino-Nasal Undifferentiated Carcinoma (stage 3) on January 6th of this year. I had to endure radiation and Chemotherapy simultaneously for 12 weeks. I thought about you every day during my treatments and your bravery throughout your treatments. You have always been a shining star for me, and I thank God every day that you were in my life. I pray for The Lord to comfort your family as I know you are severely missed and never out of their minds. God bless you.
Posted by ED Estrada on August 27, 2017
This is the month my Berns went to Heaven. I miss you more then anything in this world. You're always with me everyday of my life. I will always keep you in my heart. I will always Love you my Daughter your Dad.
Posted by Alice Estrada on August 24, 2017
Thinking of you today as I do everyday.
Posted by Denise Parra on August 24, 2017
Oye vai, Beautiful. What a year! This world could certainly use so much of your wisdom and perspective. I know, I could. Thinking of you today, and more so during these unstable times questioning, "what would Berns say/do?".....Please give all my grandparents a hug for me as well. I love you. So missed.
Posted by Craig Marsh on November 17, 2016
Happy Birthday Bernadette, I miss you dearly. Thinking of you on this day and every other day. May the Lord bless you and your family. ❤️️
Posted by Denise Parra on November 17, 2016
Oh Berns...your picture of you and Hillary is especially heartbreaking and yet makes me so proud at the same time. You were so civic minded and vocal so young and you taught me so many things about how to be think and treat people. I am sorry we couldn't have made that happen for you this time around. But you broke so many ceilings for us on your own and for that we couldn't give you enough thanks. Happiest Birthday today, beautiful. Please keep checking in on me and imparting me with your wisdom from above to give me/us the strength to keep positive, fight for what's right and just for ALL people and to continue seeing the best in everyone. I miss you. I love you.
Posted by Alice Estrada on November 17, 2016
So your birthday is here, I wish you were too.  I think of you always and miss you more and more each day. You were here a few days ago for an instant in my dream and I hugged you. It always feels so real.  I am always left with a sensation, a feeling That you are still there for few seconds even after I wake up. Miss you so much.
Posted by Amine A. on November 17, 2016
Happy birthday, Bernadette! Miss you and thinking of you always.
Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on November 17, 2016
Berns, I think of you every day, but thought of you especially today. Happy Birthday!  I'm celebrating your life and the times we spent together growing up. Missing you so much and wishing you were here more than ever. I hope you are celebrating with past loved ones who know how amazing you are. Love u girl!  Make a wish! Xo
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Posted by Alicia E. Gallegos on November 19, 2020
Hello Beautiful-  Wishing you an amazing birthday in Heaven- I hope the Angels are celebrating the wonderful person that you are. It’s always a party where you are because you are always smiling and positive. As the holidays draw near, a sadness fills my mind but I know you wouldn’t want it that way. I will choose to celebrate to remember you and live life how you did - to the fullest!  You are always on my mind and forever in my heart- now...make a wish!
Posted by Edmundo Estrada on November 18, 2020
May you have a very special birthday in heaven with our Lord and the angels my beautiful daughter. Thank you very much mija for being our angel for all the family and taking care of us from heaven we all miss you very much I miss you all the time and I think of you always. I think of you a lot during all the holidays brings back sweet memories of you and all the fun things we used to do.
Posted by Lori Willis on November 17, 2020
Happy Birthday dear Berns .... miss you so much, think about you just about every day ... your words of wisdom are timeless. Cant wait to see you again. I often think of you when I cook because you taught me so much about cooking. I love you so very much ... hugs and kisses eternally xoxoxo ~your Lor forever
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I have a dream abba

Shared by Alice Estrada on October 20, 2019
I have a dream, I hear you sing to help me cope with everything
You make me see the wonder of a fairy tale, I can take the future even if I fail.

I believe in angels, something good in everything I'll see.  I believe in angels.
When the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream, I have a dream.
I have a dream, you sing to me to help  me through reality.

And my destination makes it worth the while, pushing thru the darkness just to see you smile
I believe in angels.  something good in everything I'll see.  I believe you wait for me.

When the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream, you'll come for me
I'll cross the stream, I have my dreams

You come to me to help me cope with everything
You make me see the wonder of a fairy tale, I can take the future even if I fail

I believe in angels.  Something good in everything I'll see
I believe in angels.

When I know the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream - You'll come for me.
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

space shuttle crew endeavor

Shared by Alice Estrada on September 21, 2016

The crew stopped by where bernie worked during their stay at Edwards Airforce Base.  The  Mission Specialist Commander Bruce E Melnick autographed this photo of them for her.  She also got some other momentos of the flight from the crew members.  This was during the may 1992 return landing of the shuttle's first flight.

Great Falls Park

Shared by Amine A. on August 24, 2016

I was at this spot this past weekend for a hike.  Made me think of the time I took this photo of her and the picnic we had there.  I love what you did with photo; her gazes were always angelic.