It's been 4 years but the memories of that day are as fresh as if they have just happened. I wish we could tien back the clock and redo those things that we have done wrong because I would do that in a heartbeat. I would love to have the kind of relationship with you that I had always wanted. Mom I love you and I miss you each and everyday that goes by. I know you are watching me from heaven but I would give anything to have you back just to be able to talk to you. I miss the sound of your voice, those warm and loving hugs when I would walk into your house after being on the road all day long. I never knew how hard this would be, the physical pain that goes along with missing you, it never goes away,  I just have to tuck it away because it hurts so bad. Till we meet again