Billie you always had my heart ❤, you were so special to me, I grew up with you and Al,&Mark, when ever you needed me,I was there for you, Shawn I'm stuck @the mall, mom doesn't know, I snuck out,can you please come get me?She was like a sister, All her family was my family, she was so special to me, even when she was little and needed anything, she call me,she was everything to me.i miss you so much BJ, when she got older,please Shawn Don't call me BJ anymore, I'm a grown woman, I said I know,but in my heart you Always be Bj,my best friend and little Billie Jean, I will never stop loving you.i will always love you, your friend and your family, Shawn mckell Howard. May the angels take care of you,thankyou for the memories Bj,I mean Billie, I loved you so much ❤, I put flowers Down today, God took a special person, I sometimes dream of you&in my dreams you saying Shawn I'm okay , you saying just keep loving, and your sister wendy, I pray I can see you both again,Wendy used to baby sit me before she lost her life in 1986 in a car wreck, God takes the special ones ❤first and it's okay, I know both of you are in heaven ❤. I love always love you,your special love you ❤♥. Shawn. 

So many memories... so here is a recent one. Most of you know that I have been pretty sick. A few weeks ago I was at Billie ' s house house cleaning, up playing with the kids, helping her with personal needs. She look up at me and she was so weak :( but she looked up at me and said " you look like $hit! Go home and go to bed" Well I wasn't done. I wasn't ready to leave her yet. I can be just as stubborn as she. So I went out to my car and put some make up on fluffed my hair and went back in determined that she wasn't going to kick me out just yet. So I said hey do I still look $hit? She looked at me and tilted her head and smiled and said " no you look much better but still I know you are tired." So I stayed a while longer. I ended up falling asleep laying beside her and when I got up and was leaving she said see I told you, you were tired. Billie always worried about me and everyone else no matter how bad she felt. Love that girl...