Your grandson.
I miss you Jay!
We had some good times together. I wish you were here! We could make a grocery shopping list together- go shopping and cook something you loved. I love and miss you every moment of the day. Mom
In the Hospital
Jay and I spent all of last January together. During that time, I developed chills and tremors while trying to drive on the freeway to see my family. I pulled over immediately and called Jay. He approached a total stranger for help, and came to rescue me. He nursed me so tenderly while I was sick, waiting on me hand and foot, never leaving my side.
In February, the symptoms worsened and I ended up in the hospital for an operation. Jay stayed in my tiny cubicle with me the entire day...we just talked and held each other for hours, me with an IV in my hand. The nurses were so taken with his sweet cheerfulness and humor. We all joked together. We put our heads together on the pillow and took this picture.
I only wish I could have been with you, Jay, during your hospital stay. I didn't realize how serious it was for you...I couldn't get there in time. Yo tu quiero, my love...how I miss you!
The Love of my Life
I met Jay last December, right before Christmas. We fell in love immediately and he stayed with me in my vacation beach condo for a month. It was the happiest month of both our lives.
To experience this kind of intense passion and dedication to each other at our ages--in our 50's---is something I never expected to happen. I never have, and never expect to have again--the total love, intensity and passion I experienced with Jay. He was the most cheerful, upbeat, fun person I have ever had the privilege to know. He changed my life, made me see life differently...like he did. Always positive: "Everything is good!" was his motto. His attitude towards life was one of gratefulness, appreciation, happiness...always on the bright side of whatever was happening.
He said: "I will love you for the rest of my life...en toda mi vida, mi amor..." and so he did.
I cannot believe you are gone, my beloved. We planned to be together..."be patient" you said. A mere few months went by, and now you are gone.
I love you so much, Jay. I hope you can feel it, as we said to each other: "We will never say good-bye..."
A Mother's Journey
It has been my honor to love Jamie and her family for over 25 years. I remember Jay as being such a source of fun, laugher and light. I will never forget his presence on this earth.
This is one of the text messages I sent Eva and Jamie after speaking to them on their drive down to be with Jay at the hospital. Sent September 3, 2011 at 9:20 PM:
"If as Mothers we are fortunate to bring souls into this world and God lays at our table their passage to the next place, let us pray we have the strength to say to our sons or daughters: 'It is alright, my love .. go in peace, and I will follow. You will not disappoint me.' Peace be with us all. And God bless you.
Sending you love and light, to Eva and the girls"
I will never forget the love and strength your family has shown Billy Jay.
Love,
Kathryn Murrel
I miss you Jay
My heart breaks.....I miss you already!