My dearest Brandon Mark Dowdy, my Bubby! This is your sister. You were and always will be my best friend. No one can ever replace you, even though shamefully I've tried. Because there is a big hole in me, and it just can't be filled. I felt connected with you in every way, and can't seem to find that connection again. I can't make sense of you being gone. Everything in my life changed the day you died. I felt like my whole world crumbled down and went away. After I did get blessed and became pregnant with Fancy, she helped me so much! The night I had her, laying in the hospital room, I got a thought that I had forgotten to tell someone I had had her, I picked up my phone to call you, I had forgotten for just a moment that I couldn't tell you. I don't know how, but I really had forgotten. But I quickly realized. I also had pain come flooding in, that I could not believe I couldn't tell you! That my daughter wouldn't get to meet you! How could this be!? But it was reality. So life has went on, but has never been the same. I look at pictures of Fancy and see you all the time. Your chin, your smile. I miss you so much, so so much. I wish I could just please talk to you and hug you again so bad. Smell your Cool Water cologne, I buy Cool Water oil to burn when I can find it at flea markets, cause then my whole house smells like you! I am so happy I got to spend my childhood with my best friend, my bubby. I will see you again someday. I love you. Love you little Sis