Living Life With Empty Arms and a Broken Heart
After Brayden's birth, my Dad immediately made the call to Hesslings Funeral Home. We knew that we did not want our baby buried in a cemetery by himself. We wanted his ashes in our home, with us. Ryan and I got home, canceled out our baby registries that we had created and instead ordered Brayden an urn. It was such a surreal moment. The next few days were a complete blur to me. My Mom would come every day and just hold me while I cried for hours. I am so thankful I had Ryan at this point, because honestly I don’t know if I would be alive today if it was not for him.
Brayden made such an imprint on our hearts, and we will forever be thankful for him. He made us parents, and changed who we are for the better. We now realize how precious life is, and realize how many people don’t take life seriously! It is amazing to us how many people take for granted what they have.
There was never a reason found as to why I pPROMed. Researching pPROM on the internet I found that a lot of women either had an infection that caused it, or had bleeding from the start of pregnancy that caused it. I have been told that if you don’t know the reason, you can’t prevent it from happening again, and it does happen again. We are undecided on what our next move will be, but we now know that we were meant to be parents, and we will do whatever we have to do to have an earth baby.