SHE ALWAYS MADE SURE EVERYONE ELSE WAS OK BEFORE SHE CATERED TO HERSELF. EVEN ON HER DEATH BED, SHE WAS THE ONE DOING THE ENCOURAGING...I'M ALOT LIKE HER IN MANY WAYS, ESPECIALLY LOOKS LOL:) JUSS SAYIN.... NO BUT I HAVE THAT SAME SPIRIT OF HOSPITALITY TO PEOPLE...EVEN THOUGH PEOPLE THAT I'M MOST CLOSE TO SAY ALMOST EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE THAT I 'M MEAN!!! IT'S OK. MAYBE I AM, BUT IT MEANS ALOT WHEN PEOPLE SEE THE GOOD IN ME:). I DIDN'T USE TO LIKE HEARING THAT I LOOK LIKE MY MOTHER...UUGGHH... DISGUSTING I THOUHGT...WHAT WAS I THINKING... SHE WAS AND WILL ALWAYS BE MY SOLDIER GIRL!!!! THE PAIN IN HER EYES ALWAYS TOLD A STORY. I NEVER WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT SHE WAS UNHAPPY, BUT SHE WAS. INSPITE OF HER UNHAPPINESS, SHE MANAGED TO MAKE SURE ALL 3 OF HER BABIES, MYSELF, MALCOLM, AND MONIQUE WAS LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY IN EVERY ASPECT...I REMEBER WHEN SHE GOT SAVED AT 26. LOL WOW!! FROM THEN ON SHE WORE SKIRTS TIL THE DAY SHE DEPARTED. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THAT NOW, I'M LIKE SMH..BCUZ IT'S YOUR HEART THAT COUNTS MORE SO THAN ANYTHING. THAT'S NEITHER HERE NOR THERE AT THIS POINT. LOVE U 4EVER MOMMY. YEA I MADE IT TO 40. VERY EMOTIONAL B-DAY 4 ME BCUZ SHE WAS ONLY 39 AND GONE. YES I WAS MAD AT GOD BUT NOW I UNDERSTAND. REST IN HEAVENLY PEACE MOM:) MISS U:) XOXOXO