the concert i am in a concert lobby .i look in the arena all i see is dark silouettes holding bic lighters. i feel like i shouldnt be there but it was all like welcome, welcome.

i am  all of a sudden by the pool,music like safe at home was playing ,bruce was sitting there legs hanging in the water.the injurys he had on his leg no scars were gone .he said get in the water with me,no swimsuit i said.doesnt matter [matter of factly] we are in the water and something is pulling me .i dont want to leave but i wake up.

it was as if i was in a plane ,i looked down on the landscape , it was different color patches like a quilt .i was falling towards the ground thinking i need to slow down really i need to slow down.well i did the house was like a castle on one end and i was going round the back .the porch had plants all over.now i am going floating in backdoor freaking out ,there is a dirty blonde girl in a blue shirt,she is walking to me and i am thinking she is going to see me,but she dont.i am floating down the hall and humidity like a shower was there .i float into a bedroom a girl with shoulder length hair with a yellow shirt is com ing toward me , again she didnt see me.now i am in front of a bathroom door face to face with bruce he says kari you know nyou arent suppose to be here ,all i say i had to see you. then i wake up . daytime attic fan going . i was freaked out for 2 days.

one night long ago we were invited to a small new yrs eve party o star dust where deb and mark used to live. i really wanted to go bruce was meh about it....i said i am going you can just stay here bruce david loves my mom and daddy would come to town every other ,mom was babysitting for us .we are leaving big bruce is telling little bruce bye, mom is trying to take him ,he is screaming loud DADDY DONT GO ,NO DADDY DONT GO IN HIS 20 MO. OLD TODDLER VOICE, DADDY BE RIGHT BACK! HAD I REMEMBERED THAT CHILDREN KNOW THINGS, I WOULD HAVE NEVER GONE....THAT WAS THE LAST TIME WE TALKED,YOU NEVER CAME RIGHT BACK, THAT SMALL BOY ROLLED AROUND THE HOUSE EVERDAY "DADDY COME OUT NOW "IT HAUNTED ME ,I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO YOU .I DIDNT KNOW WHAT HAD HAPPENED.I KNEW YOU DIED THAT NYS.OUR FOREVER WAS GONE...

KARI

the visitation dreams r great when i have them i was sitting in front of the fishtank on cameo on the floor .i must have fallen asleep,i woke up to a warm sensation flowing down my arms thru  my chest .i took in my dream,i was in a train or bus station they werent a thought but i could see thru the people hurrying around , a gorgeous guy walks up a says could i have a hug,i thought and said sure you never know when its the last time i wish i had gotten one from my husband.someone tapped my shoulder ,i looked back IT WAS BRUCE GOODLOOKING AS EVER ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS ASK....HE SAID AND HUGGED ME.well this warm thing spread thru out my body ...warm safe not wanting to go ...i figured he has held the hand of god so this is what it feels like!!!