I was blessed to have bryan as a big brother he was always stuck watching my younger brother and I and in a way we idolized him as we did all our older siblings.We shared alot of the same characteristics him and I unfortunately addiction was one of them and ultimately that took his life.I have so many questions like why him and not me its survivors guilt I was told but the way he died did not define the man he was. He was the peace maker and I loved him very much as do his other siblings.I was not strong enough to say no and ill forever live with that guilt. Im so sorry I failed him that day but I carry him in my heart and vow to make him proud of me.if u know someone whos struggling with addiction dont be so quick to judge noone sets out to become a slave to a chemical be an ear and try to get them to seek help.it is not from lack of will power and it doesn't mean they are weak.I love you bryan and I know your shinning up their free from the bondages of addiction I love you and I take comfort your watching over us.rest in peace babe