Your first day of school was exhausting for me!  Talk about empty nest!!!  I was ;ost without you and your sister I didn't Know what to do with myself all day paced the floors alot till time to get you off the bus.  You was so tiny you wore 2T jeans to school and they were cuffed lol.  You hated it that you still wore baby clothes and your sister got to wear big girl clothes.  I lifted you up on the bus and cried more than you did.  You said it ok mommy I am a big girl now see you after school.  you loved school and wanted to learn everything.  you wanted to be a vet and take care of all the sick animals when you was little.  You brought enough of them home lol.  but when it was time to get you off the bus you weren,t there and bus driver said you didn;t get on it so I flew to the school to find my baby and the principal decided you was to small to ride the bus and he took you for ice cream and drove you home.  He was a really nice guy and had children of his own but there was no cell phones back then and thought he would beat the bus.  He was really sorry for what he put me through but you ate alot of ice cream your first year of school lol.  You would get angry because when all the students were in the hallway one of the teachers would pick you up and carry you because you was so tiny they were afraid you would get stepped on and hurt.  I think it taught you how to be stubborn enough to do the things others gave up on. You diffinently grew up to be a go getter God I miss you and your determination, your laughter, I just miss you
 

    You was such a pleasure as a child.  You slept all night after about two weeks and your big sister loved you so much!  You weren't allowed to cry or DD thought she had to pick you up and bounce you, trouble was she was only 23 months old and everyone that came through the door had to come see her baby lol.  Don't worry though you loved her every bit as much as she loved her baby!  As you started to grow you wanted to do everything DD did and it was amazing to watch her teach you. And how she was a natural at teaching and believe me you was a quick learner except for talking.   You refused to talk and so I took you to the doctor and he told me to listen more to DD and tell her to stop talking for you so you will talk lol.  It worked, but I personally think it made you a better listener.  You are the only baby I know that was totally potty trained and bottle broke before 18 months but I thank DD for that cause you wanted to do what she did.  You was so tiny when you started walking they didnt make baby shoes small enough to fit you so I bought some moccisins and away you went lol God I miss your laughter smile love I miss you Bryia more later

   Bringing you home was one of the happiest days of my life but also scariest.  You was such a premie that I could hold you in my one hand.  You was the tiniest baby I had ever seen in my life lol.  When we left the hospital they said I may have some problems but don't worry just bring you back if I needed.  You wasn't fully developed.  I went straight to my Aunt Dora's house and she reassured me we were gonna be ok and she was only a phone call away, Thank you God for giving me someone like her I would never have made it without her Uncle Bill  and their boys. But you was only home two days and had become so congested that you was struggling to breathe!  I called Aunt Dora and she sent Leo to take us to the ER. They gave you pennicillian and sent us home. This became an every night thing almost we seen doctor after doctor I finally got you in to our family doctor, Dr Santoso and he sent us to see a Dr Chin Y Chung he is an amazing doctor although he argued with me that you was a boy until I took your diaper off and proved you were a girl lol. He looked at you and said if I gave you anymore pennicillian I would have killed you that you were allergic to pennicllian and milk and I was giving you both he put you on soy formula, prosbee, and took away the penicillian and you got better within twenty four hours. You was such a happy baby and very tolerant of my mistakes as I tried to be a good mother to you and your sister I love you both more than life we miss you Bryia..... 

    The day you was born was one of the worst and best days of my life.  I almost lost you then but you were strong and fought hard to live you was born to soon only 6 months but you are one of the most amazing creations God ever put on this earth in my books.  You struggled for about 4 days would not eat and was loosing wieght you went from 5 pounds to 4 and I still had not gotten to take you out of the incubator and hold you, my arms ached so much.  I just knew you would make it if I could just hold you close so you would know how much I loved you.  I begged the nurses please let me try to feed her let me hold her please please please.  Finally the doctor said she isn't gonna make it through the night if she doesn't eat so it not gonna make any difference take her out and let her mother try.  You was still losing weight and your organs were getting weak . I said my prayers put on my gown and mask and gloves and finally got to hold you!   You ate a whole ounce for me and every three hours I was there to feed you.   You finally got to come home in three more weeks you returned to your birth weight and I was so proud of my little girl she is the bravest person I ever Knew.  I knew then you was gonna be a strong woman because you never gave up then.  God I miss you soooo........