I’ve been working the past year for the first time in 20 years . My paun feels fatal sometimes . I wonder what you would say . I think you would be running circles around me so proud . I miss you so much . Im trying to get your head stone to bury yours and Waynes ashes . I love you

If I could talk to you now , I would tell you I'm sorry and how much I love you and that it's been a long day without you here . I would tell you that I'm having a hard time letting go and feeling okay about the way you went and who is responsible for what . I know you were a man and you could hold your own but I feel sad someone found something so foul about you they wanted to kill you . I can't help but feel like I let you down and the world is punishing me and justice was never on our side and it's my fault . I can't be a good mom . I feel sad for Garrett and I don't know how to do him right and I don't know how to help . I miss Wayne but I ache for your company I morn the loss of a bright future something I enjoyed every moment with you . I miss your hug your voice I miss the thought of something great and be proud of . I'm sorry if it seems I cant let u rest in peace or if I feel grief for you .. it will never be the same and I hope it is what you believed it to be so one day we will see each other again and there there will be no more sorrow . You are forever missed and loved. Your #1 Mom

Its still hard to comprehend your gone. Your mother is still beside herself.As I would be same. I recall your humor . Mixed with Chad's . Oh my goodness it makes for the memories that keep me going. I loved you just as the same as you was my own. You was a light in Chad's life when he needed . You also I believe, loved me as a step mom. You would stick up for me when I would fight with Henry. I love and miss you. I see you at The CrossRoads. I know you will be there. Love you

Brendon was a good dude

My friend, Angie. Your son he was my son. He was my son Chad best friend. I can not at this time leave all the most greatest times of my life Brenden was part of. I haven't talked to Chad in 8 months. He told me out lives as we knew it are now over. Meaning we are gone. If he only could know the pain and the loss ypu suffer. I wrote him one last message. Well son. If I'd of know our time was together was to be so shirt I would of told more in my womb I loved you . Or in our lives together. But he doesn't realize how much you live in such agony. Brenden was so much a brother ,a friend .He was funny. A mature individual. He would do Back Street Boy Shows with Chad. He made memories for me of my lifetime. He was respectful. Well spoken. Handsome . He was your son,my son. . I am so happy we became homeless ended up at Inn at The Orchards. Our sons world's met. Our lives in twined. Our memories were forever embedded for a lifetime of joy,laughter and tears.I love you .