A Mother’s Pain
Nobody knows the pain I feel inside
I want to lay down in the highway
Will they run over me?
Will I live?
Does anyone really care?
Will a guy who says he’s there for me and will hold me tight.. is he sincere he will let me cry?
Will he want me just for sex?
Will he actually hug me and tell me it’s all going to be alright?
Will my friends and family be there for me when I need them?
Are they really there?
Does a cup of coffee and small talk take up too much time?
Do I have any family? Are they really family or friends of mine?
Was my daughter smothered while she cried by a man she loved and defended?
Was my daughter feeling like I feel now? Sad and alone?
She felt she had no one anymore and wouldn’t be missed? Does anybody know what really happened? I know how that she may have felt that night either way..... she lost her life and I lost my way.
Elizabeth Garrison
July 18, 2018
I can't write. It's within me
I have so much in my head and in my heart. I can't write at this moment. I am afraid I will have a stroke or heart attack. I can't go there right now. Candace was my world just as her sister Sierra is.
My True Best Friend
Candi and I had many adventures. We had so much in common, she was my soul best friend. We always talked about EVERYTHING. We didn't have any shame or embarrassment to talk about anything. We always talked about getting matching tattoos on our foot! The first person I came to see when I moved back to NC was Candi. We found each other on Facebook after being disconnected for almost two years after she got married and I was in Miami. Somehow we ALWAYS found each other... Things changed after a while, she became distant. I miss her everyday, I remember our morning coffees, kids birthdays, the pictures we used to look at from our past (she had all of our 'evidence'), her laugh! Oh man I remember her laugh so clearly still. She kept everything so neat and made the best pumpkin pie ever! She tried to teach me, but it didn't work out lol. She kept her closet color coordinated and always had a spot for everything. I am the complete opposite, clothes on the floor, messy bathroom, not crafty at all. She always opened up to me, I was the rude one and she was the sweet one. We fit together perfectly, No one understood me like her and no one understood her like I did. We really were best friends, to the core. Things changed and we didn't see each other as often. We were supposed to have a birthday lunch right before she passed... When I found out what happened I couldn't believe it. I was in shock, then I was in pain. I locked myself in my room all day, I've never cried that much in my life. I still cry. The pain doesn't go away, I find myself wishing I could've helped her the way I always had. Her memory will always live on and I will always love her so much.