On February 11, 2008, I gave birth to the tiniest, sweetest lil red headed baby girl. I fell instantly in love with her, even the nurses loved her they held her everytime I needed a break. My Mom, and my best friend (and Godmother of my babies) Elizabeth were there with me the whole time I was in labor. I loved her so so much!!! We went home to my parents house where I was living with my son Eli at the time. I nursed her and held her every night. She wouldn't sleep in the bassinette, she would cry unless I layed holding her. I had this angel in my life for only 7 short too short 7 days. On the early morning of Monday Feb. 18, I woke up. She was gone. :'(  I could not believe this was happening and only those who have suffered this kind of loss can understand the grief, so I won't go into that now. It was the worst absolute worst thing to ever go through. I keep her alive. My son Eli, now 10 and my daughter Sophia 5, know her. We keep her memory alive. It hurts how people ceased to aknowledge her. I would love to talk about her to anyone, but I understand it is awkward for others to bring it up. My mother plants flowers every Sring on her gravesite. Also on my niece's grave. My niece also passed away way too soon, she was 4, her name is Leia. Her and my Carly are buried right next to each other which is bittersweet.
 ~  Carly I still and always will thik of you every singe day and night. I pray you are wit h me still. I love you and can't wait to see you again...



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