I created this memorial site for my beautiful little girl, Carol Addison Fink who passed away on March 10 2014 at the age of 3 years old. Carol was a big sister to baby Justine Bailey Fink and also a big sister to a sister she never met, Bella Carol Michelle Fink. Carol was so intelligent. She knew so much for a 3 year old. She had shoulder length light brown hair and usually wore it in pigtials like her sister who has dark brown hair. Carol was such a loving soul here on earth but has gone to Heaven.

Carol died because of Malaria. Malaria is an infectious disease caused by a female mosquito. She also got side effects from Malaria called Vasovagal Response which caused weird blood temperature and many more effects from it. Carol knew she had it but recalled it wasn't important. She didn't care and to her, Malaria had no effect. It didn't take her fun away like it tried to take mine. She passed away due to a seizure like shock that occured inside of her while she was at a nursery.

Carol and I were super close. She meant life to me and I miss her so much. She was the only thing that made me smile every morning. Carol was such an angel and I miss her with my heart, soul and mind every moment.

Carol and Justine would have baths with me. I'd put on a bathing suit though. I would put them in their pink and purple highlighter robes. I had the exact same one as Carol. While the bath ran, they'd play with the fur real monkey. It talked. They loved it. It is such a memory of little Carol.

Every night, Carol would wake me up and say she didn't feel good or she was hungry or something because of Malaria. Now, I never get to be awoken with her tapping me. On the night of March 10-11, I was half asleep thinking to myself, "Carol, you can wake me up now." But she didn't. I sat up and cried to myself. I didn't tell her dad, Woody until March 13 2014 because I was too depressed.

Carol tended to call everyone she met "bubby." It was just her word. I was never called bubby. I was always Addi or Addison. For Carol, Addi mostly. She was an amazing girl. Words cannot express what I feel that she's gone.

I miss my Carol. She was such a loving soul and everyone around her loved her so very much. I cannot bare to move on like this. But I know she's in Heaven watching over me and making sure I'm safe here. I want Carol to come home now. I'm just not ready! Carol is gone and I can't take it. My precious angel has passed away. She's gone. Those words will hurt me forever. Carol is gone. The pain is just too real. I don't know what to do. She is my all. She is the only thing that makes me smile every day and night. She cheered me up when I was sad and always made me laugh when I needed it most. Well, I need it most now. I need her here with me right now. I cannot think of March 10th. That day hurts me so much and I can't take it. Carol Addison Fink has gone to Heaven. She's moved on from earth and is with God and Jesus now. She came to church with me lots so she knows God exists. I just hope she's being watched over right by the angels with her. I have to be brave through this. She is the only thing that will ever make me smile. I'll never be the same again. Never.

Ms. Nalonan is the nurse who'd often take care of Carol. She loved Carol so so much and told me to go in peace now that she's gone. She knew so much about Malaria. She said to me that she has Carol's picture up in her office and that touched my heart.

Carol was such a gift to me and I am so upset she has left us. Her little smile and memory will remain here. She went to Heaven and took my heart with her. I miss her so so much and I wish I didn't have to be writing this and I could be playing with her. Carol was so not a picky eater. She'd eat anything. Even plain chocolate spread. She also loved to live the present day. She didn't care for the past or the future. She just loved to live the moment.

Dear Carol,

I miss you with my heart and words cannot express how I feel about you leaving. I miss you my angel and I can't wait for the day we see each other again. Carol, I cannot believe you're gone. It feels like this was a nightmare that will never end. I miss you. Protect me, Justine and Woody and all of your friends. I love and miss you so so much Carol! You will never be forgotten.

Also, please be aware that Carol's story is being promoted as America's Top Malarian Story on the Malaria No More website in September 2014.

Love, Addison!

Carol Addison Fink from August 4th 2010-March 10th 2014