March 9th (Carol's Final Day on Earth)
Today, Carol and I had a fun day. First we went to a normal Church where she refused to eat the treats at the end which was weird. Then after Church, I took her to the playground and she played with some new friends. After that, I took her to the mall. We went shopping. Her and I went to Toys R Us and I got her a new toy stuffed donkey. I don't know why, but she was begging for a stuffed donkey. So, I then took her for Menchies. Yum! She did refuse the food though which seemed odd to me. She used to always eat anything. Now she isn't eating a thing. Why is this happening? What happened? I know she is dying, but I don't think she's dying today or tomorrow.
After that, I went home with Carol. I just spent the rest of the day with her in my room with her doing a little beach summer puzzle. "When can we go to the beach," she asked me today. "During Summer, Carol. It's only March. Don't worry, you'll get to the beach." I promised her the beach. I'm going to get her to a beach. I promised Carol and I'm not breaking that promise. In a few days when it's at least a little bit nice, I'm taking her to the lake to walk around the edges and just be a little girl normally. Knowing that to this day she is still here, I should start to feel thankful. She could die any moment and I don't want that happening to her anytime soon. I just want a few more days with her at least. Of course, I want the rest of my life with her, but if a few more days is all I got, then I have to deal. With Carol fainting and almost dying yesterday, it's showing me that she isn't going to die anytime soon which I'm so so very thankful for. I hope she can last for a little bit longer, because tomorrow after school, I plan on taking her to the mall again!