April 11
...you know C I often wish I was by your side just one more time just to hug u ...you have missed so much of life ...I wish you were here to share all these things with you ...I am still so lonely there is still something missing everywhere I go an with everything I do it's like a fucking void stamped across my forehead forever I'm trying soon hard to break the suicide curse in our family but it runs thick in our blood....it's so hard to keep going without you..all I keep thinking of is dallas an Josh even though they still want nothing to do with me if I keep doing the right things in life keep taking care of my health an never giving up on them that one day they are going to need me or want to talk to me that when that time comes I will be ready an strong I see everything that u are missing in life an it makes me want to be present but it hurts so bad
Well my Lil pea I wish you would come to me in my dreams
I love you cerissa
An hate that you are not here with me even more
Love mom
Well my Lil pea I wish you would come to me in my dreams
I love you cerissa
An hate that you are not here with me even more
Love mom