Let the memory of Chad be with us forever
  • 22 years old
  • Born on March 11, 1992 in kennett, Missouri, United States.
  • Passed away on June 4, 2014 in LeGrange, Texas, United States.
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Chad Fieweger 22 years old , born on March 11, 1992 and passed away on June 4, 2014. We will remember him forever.
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 12th March 2018
Happy 26th birthday--of course as I see and hug you in my dreams you will always be 22--thankful for every little memory--we never realize when making them how precious they are. I know God has a purpose for my life and why I am still here--I am trying to do what He wants me to do --this week has been hard pushing forward but I know it is what is best for now and eternity--I must work to pass through this temporary home and do His will so I can spend eternity with all the pieces of my heart that are with you--I can find my Joy in Christ and know without a doubt you are the most perfect complete you can ever be and my finite mind cannot even envelope that --awesome for you--I will come to you -hearing you nightly Love you Granmommy and Goodnight!!
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 11th March 2018
chad allen momma loves you would have been on here sooner but I decided to sleep a lot today. I miss you bunches and wish you Were here. Happy 26th birthday!!! I'll see you in my dreams. Til we meet again Love mom.
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 26th December 2017
Momma misses you so much I have slept more than usual and have been sick this past month I do hope all our angels are doing well there are so many missing loved ones around the table and in all the pictures it makes it very hard to even take part in celebrating but you did enjoy the holidays even when times were not so good and you were always grateful for what you got and you enjoyed giving gifts and delivering dinners to people who couldn't get out or had no family. YOU ARE MISSED WITH EVERY BREATHE I Take MERRY CHRISTMAS I love you see you in my dreams
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 24th December 2017
It is another Christmas without pieces of my heart. I am trying to be the best I can here because I am looking so forward to coming to you and all the ones you are with--Jealous of the angels who can hug you all--Love and miss you always--Granmommy Tanya
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 6th September 2017
My sweet chaddy waddy momma sure does miss you been sleeping a lot since last trip to Texas maybe 2 much but its the only time I get to feel like you came for a visit or told me you loved me or I get to hug you I know no matter what happens this week I know the truth and I know why and who caused you not to be on this earth to live your life and your story has been told what they decide to do about all of it is out of my hands. I know I don't look the same and I will never be the same and I will always wonder what you would look like after 22 and what we would be doing now. My heart and soul hurts for the pain you were caused in your last hours of life on this earth. I love you and hope and pray something good comes out of this nightmare but I don't seem to be able to hold on to that most days anymore so I hope you understand I am doing the best I can in this battle. good nite chumpkins I will see you in my dreams!
Posted by Monica Nolen on 16th August 2017
So tonight I walked into break room and had to do a double take over a guy sitting at table that my mind automatically thought was you:(. I just couldn't help the tear that escaped my eye. He then looked up and said how is your night ma'am? I told him fine and smiled, he then smiled and I had to sit down for a minute after that one. He probably thinks I'm crazy lol. I sure do miss you Chaddy Waddy
Posted by Monica Nolen on 28th July 2017
I figured out how to post some pics
Posted by Monica Nolen on 28th July 2017
Missing you and thinking about you a lot today my sweet Nephew. This whole week has been hard actually, but it will get better. We are still waiting and praying to hear the words that we have fought for for 3 years now. Sophie starts school in a couple of weeks. It's hard to believe, but we keep pushing through the days of life until we meet again in Heaven. Some days are more of struggle than others, but we think about you everyday. Kelci did get to graduate (hallelujah) lol. Jami is thinking of going to surgery med tech school, and Kelci starts college in a couple weeks to. Keep watching over us all Chaddy Waddy. We all love and miss you so much. Kiss my sweet grand baby for me as always. I know you and Justin are having a good time with him. Y'all visit me in my dreams sometime.
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 21st July 2017
Today I hope we finally get some peace of mind that God is in control the only thing I can say is I love you always and here on earth I have to hold on to the hope that Ignorance of the law excuses no man and that our battle may soon be over because I want to start thinking about good things I do sometimes but its been over three years and we are seeking closure and accountability because its impossible for them to give me what they have took away momma will always love and miss you so very much.
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 5th June 2017
3 long years without you--it is still not real to me--I cried during Beulah Land at church this morning and felt hysterical--then I could see you how handsome and grown up you were the last time you were at church with me when you were 21, oh, how I loved that time together and how I long for the time when we will spend eternity together. We are going to do this last battle in Texas this month and I pray this is the last we have to hear about them and it brings us a little peace knowing we have fought the last battle for you as we fought your whole life and then maybe we can live in the Spirit and fulfill God's work and plan in us and then spend eternity in the perfectness you already know--love you and miss you always my precious Grandson. I love you and goodnight Granmommy Tanya
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 4th June 2017
Chad today you have been gone for three years I feel fury today its not been a good day I am trying to be as happy as I can be, but I do good to be here at all. and really I am here but my mind is somewhere else a lot or I will find something of yours and remember don't get me wrong I never want to forget you or our time together but it hurts to know I will never see you on earth again I am still fighting this last fight it wont be long and I will face the people who caused this nightmare. I love you and hope for peace here I know you are ok there Love you Mom.
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 26th April 2017
CHAD I AM VERY SAD TODAY AND MISS YOU SO MUCH I OFTEN WONDER WHY YOUR GONE AND WHY I AM STILL HERE I WISH I WOULD HAVE BEEN WITHYOU ON JUNE THE 4TH 2014 WE HAVE WENT THROUGH SO MUCH TOGETHER I KNOW ALARGE PART OF ME AND MY HOPES AND DREAMS DIED THAT DAY AND MY HEART BREAKS DAILY. THEIR IS SO MUCH DESPAIR IN THIS WORLD I KNOW YOU ARE BETTER OFF WHERE YOUR AT BUT I WOULD BE SO MUCH HAPPIER IF YOU WERE HERE. I LOVE YOU CHUMPKINS .
Posted by Monica Nolen on 11th March 2017
Happy Birthday My sweet Chaddy Waddy! Today is rough on all of us but I know your mom has had a rough week and your grand mommy. We all love you so much and miss you everyday. You know some days it seems like it was just yesterday that you were taken from this earth and some days it seems so long ago. It's been a whirlwind and will continue to be that until we meet again. Now and the next few months are always crazy, but will be even crazier this year. On top of everything that makes the next few months always crazy Kelci is graduating this year:). Well I'm not counting my chickens yet, but I'm praying that we make it. We only have until May 4th to get her through. Sophie turns 3 in a week and Ayven would be 3 April 1st. Sophie starts T-ball this year and I know that will be rough on Kelci cus Ayven would have started to, but we will get through it. One step at a time just like I always told you to. I miss you everyday Chad and wish that you could've stayed here with us, but I know God had other plans for you. I imagine what you would've been like now and where you would be and what you would've seen if you could've stayed here on earth. Your life was really just beginning and you had such a bright future ahead of you and you always thought of everyone else before yourself. I love you and hope you are having a wonderful birthday in heaven today! Have a wonderful party and You, Justin, and Ayven keep a watch over us all. Hugs and kisses and give my sweet faces grandbaby the same for me!
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 11th March 2017
chad allen I wanted to tell you I love you and miss you everyday you would have been 25 today and I would either be where you were or planning a trip to see you and we would be celebrating the wonderful miracle that God gave us, but now all I feel is sadness and lots of anger It has been a long journey for us to even get to where we are in trying to understand what happened on 6-4-2014. but we know more than we ever thought we would and I an grateful for that and the fact that I got to be your mom for the time we had you in our lives. sometime in the near future more photos will be added to your memorial Chad, but for now just living and trying to fight this battle is all I or your grandmommy can do. I know your fine and your with everyone there so give ayven a hug and give Justin a hug give them all hugs and tell pops I did get better. and you all have a good time and wait for the rest of us because you will always be missed love mom HAPPYBIRTHDAY BABY
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 10th January 2017
Having a bad day, missing you, Ayven and Justin so terribly, it will never be okay with me that you are not here, NEVER--I will do what I can to live as God has planned and right but it will never be okay-I should be able to talk to you, touch you and rock Ayven, get crazy little messages from Justin--I will pray and visualize hugging you in your black shirt the last time I saw you and you kissing me and saying goodnight, Granmommy it is going to be okay--I love you
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 2nd January 2017
chad its 2017 I miss you and I know this year is going to be hard with everything that still needs to be taken care of. some days I smile sometimes its just to hard to but I'm still trying. I know you are at peace and happy some day we will be together again love you mom
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 1st January 2017
Well, Chaddy Waddy granmommy is here, I'm always holding you and hugging you and Ayven and now Justin in my heart. It is getting to look more and more like home there with you. We know we have a mission to accomplish here and are praying for His divine guidance to do the very best we can. It has been a very unsettling year and now I know why it has taken us this long to get these results and information as we couldn't have handled it before now as it has been more than a little distressing... I know God has a plan and it exceeds any of our expectations just as I know you and Ayven, Justin, Pops, Granny, Grandma Mary, Bay, MeLena, Mammaw and Pappaw so very many are experiencing the ultimate uninmaginable magnificence of our heavenly Father. We will be there to join you; that is our goal and I also know that our perfect Lord lets you all know how much yo are missed and loved--Holding you in my heart and every night hearing you say " good night Granmommy I love you" Happy New Year 2017
Posted by Monica Nolen on 1st January 2017
Happy New Year Chaddy Waddy! Love you and have been thinking about you a lot today. I believe it's because with a new year and still wanting and waiting to have more answers. We all love and miss you so much and we are still fighting for you! We always will. I know you have peace now and that helps, but I still miss your smile, the way your eyes light up when you talk, your voice, and your hugs. As always give my grand baby a kiss for me and now you have Justin with you to, so y'all have fun flying high and sharing all the fun memories you all had. Keep a place for us as we will one day be by yours, Ayven's, and Justin's side again. Love, hugs, and kisses!
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 28th December 2016
Chad this Christmas was very upsetting without you although I now know more than I ever did about what happened in June of 2014 it has left me feeling even more anger than usual I love you and I always will the years are getting faster for me and I am changing with age , although you were always my baby and always will be I often see you as a baby and as a handsome young man and sometimes I wonder what your life and my life would have been like if you were still here. you are greatly missed I wish I could give you a hug you hug ayven and Justin for me and i'l take a deep breath and visualize giving you your hug its not the same but it does make it easier to have hope that I can be o.k. because you always wanted me to be so i'm trying to be love u mom
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 16th November 2016
hey bro this is Westside Babyboy I sure do miss bro that silly look u us to give when u come in and u see me and you all ways came and miss with this certain name I cant put that on this page cause u know grandma wouldn't loud that bro but when I think of u u put a smile on my face Babyboy cause u us to do that when u alive and ou still alive in my mind andmy heart and soul that where u live forever I never forget u Babyboy peaceout Kenneth Vires Westside love u and miss u holler
Posted by Shawna Shelton on 22nd October 2016
Mom loves you and my heart hurts everyday that your not here I don't understand why this happened but I know you are ok and God called you home I miss you and am sad a lot but I have been reassure we on earth grieve and our loved ones who left this earth do not feel sadness this makes me feel some better so I try to always remember that smile and the twinkle in your eyes and how handsome you grew as you became a young man I am sad you weren't able to enjoy your accomplishments for very long but we were all very proud of you I love you goodnight chaddy waddy
Posted by Tracy Shelton on 30th September 2016
Chad I love you and miss you everyday as I'm sure you Know me and Tracy are trying to get through this most of my days will always be touched with sadness that your not here. A lot of my days are filled with anger because of what I now know I try to live my life but most days it is a struggle but I'm not going to stop fighting. I wish I could hear mom one last time. Take care of ayven and give Justin a big hug he fought a good fight and now he can be with you all till the rest of us join you Love always MOM
Posted by Monica Nolen on 28th September 2016
Just been thinking about you so much over the last couple of months:). Miss you everyday Chaddy Waddy! We are all still fighting for you and we love you! As always give my grand baby a kiss and hug for me and now you and Justin can have fun playing with him. Miss you sweetie.
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 4th June 2016
It has been 2 long hard years. We are still fighting for you, loving and missing you. I hug you good night and remember, "love you Granmommy and goodnight" always until we are together again.
Posted by LAURA HOLLAWAY on 4th June 2016
Chad I saw your name and number in my phone the other day.. It made me sad but again it made me smile. We had some good laughs. I wish you were here. Gone but not forgotten.
Posted by Richard Fieweger on 24th May 2016
Hey son, Everyday I think about you,Every night every moment. I miss you so much. Some days I can't even breath, knowing your not here, I know I wasn't the best father but I tried, I love you more than life itself. I have a big hole in my heart which only be filled my you my son. I know one day I will see you again. I try to be happy I try to smile I try not to cry, but knowing that your not here tears me up inside every day. I am empty, lost mad and confused. But I know your in a better place . I will try to be brave and strong for you but it is so hard. I just wanted you to know I will always love you my son my pride and joy. LOVE YOU your Daddy.
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 24th March 2016
chaddy waddy I made it passed your birthday but its not been easy most days are just a blurr I love you and always will I will be older this month too im really starting to feel things taking a toll on my soul I hope for the best and try to trust that god will take care of all this I wish you were here and miss you everyday love mom.
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 11th March 2016
It's your 24th birthday. Thank God we had that talk twice as I drove you to new adventures and you assured me you had accepted Jesus Christ as your Savior, and as we don't any of us have to be perfect and are saved by grace and heirs to the Kingdom I know I am missing you but you are absolutely and beyond my imagination in HEAVEN-I am also thankful that I know we will be together for eternity -I pray for peace for us all it has been a very difficult 2 years, justice would be an answer to prayer, and I believe would help your mother even more than the rest of us, I know you always knew you could count on me and your mother and we will not let you down-we will finish the race and be victoriously joint heirs with you and Ayven and our other loved ones for all eternity--HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY CHADDY WADDY-LOVE YOU AWAYS-Granmommy Tanya
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 20th January 2016
i MISS YOU SO MUCH i DON'T KNOW HOW TO NOT BE ANGRY MOST DAYS ANYMORE AS TIME KEEPS MOVING FORWARD AND YOUR NOT HERE WITH US BECAUSE OF BAD OPINIONS AND NEGLECT OF PERSONS WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO PROTECT AND SERVE MOT DAYS i JUST GO THRU THE MOTIONS AND WAIT TO GO TO SLEEP SO i CAN SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS SO YOU CAN TELL ME ITS ALL GOING TO BE OK AND i GIVE YOU A BIG HUG YOU WERE ALWAYS MY GENTLE GIANT MOMMA MISSES AND LOVES YOU ALWAYS ALWAYS
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 24th December 2015
Here I am again precious Grandson, facing another Christmas Eve and Christmas without you. I'm trying really hard to make sure I get to spend eternity actually hugging you and hearing your voice and not just nightly in my heart I so want to just give it to God and not stress over the lies and total disrespect for your life but it is so very hard but I do know my God Is in control and bigger than all the lies -I know you are happy and you always come to me with a smile we are the ones that have to suffer here in this temporary home trying to be what we should so I can hear again "love you Granmommy and Goodnight"-Merry Christmas, Chad - love you Granmommy Tanya
Posted by Monica Nolen on 11th September 2015
Tomorrow is the big day for your mom. I know you will be there with us as she walks down the aisle to be married! We are wearing blue in honor of you. You always looked so handsome in the color! I wish you could be at the wedding in person and not just spirit. Just know that your mom is really happy and I know you do approve of Tracy or this wouldn't be happening. We all love, miss you, and think about you everyday! Just keep watching over us all and as always keep giving my grand baby a kiss for me until I get to see you both again one day.
Posted by Richard Fieweger on 9th September 2015
Hey buddy miss you so much. I be seeing you real soon I have given up on any hope of being happy. You uncle Phillip sold the house from under me so I have to move from Granny's house. Sorry son I did the best I could with no help. Shellie left me. I am so tired of fighting. I wish you was here. I given up on getting any responses or justice from those who took you away from me. I know all this is my fault I should have been a better father. Please forgive me. I have lost everything and everyone I hold most dear in my life and I can't go on anymore. I guess this my punishment from God for not being a good father and husband.Sorry I was a big dissipointment to you. Always know I loved you with all my heart you was my pride and joy. Now I nothing or no one to rember me . That's ok I am better off fading away.I see you soon.hugs and kisses my Chad man my one and child.
Posted by Tracy Shelton on 4th September 2015
chad this a post from mom tracy and me will be married next Saturday I am as happy as I could possibly be even though their will always be an absent feeling because you are not here to see me actually happy with a good man and I think this one you would approve of I miss you daily and always will wait for me love mom rest in peace
Posted by Susan Dacus on 10th June 2015
Chad, you're in my thoughts all the time, love your smile & miss your personality! Kyle & I share memories, you make us laugh & cry. In our hearts ~~~love you!
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 4th June 2015
Chad it is the the big 1 year- did I think we'd make it? Never- has it been the hardest year of my life? You bet- have I learned anything? I sure think so but have more to go. I've learned what it feels like to have your world fall apart, your heart to physically hurt until you just don't care- to have to face yourself and if you truly do believe what you think and say you believe and can pull yourself up and respond to this sorrow and loss and find a way through the pain- it's certainly been and is a long hard personal process that I know and accept others are not comfortable with- this grief thing makes people uncomfortable it is awkward when you cry at any given time appropriate or not or laugh at and find situations emotionally different than others perceive- know what? I DON'T CARE this grief is between me and God and I will search his word, pray, cry, scream, grow, laugh, smile and feel love and not apologize for any of it because my anchor of faith IS strong- stronger than I ever imagined and that anchor is grounded in heaven not earth- Job and I have spend many nights together and Isaiah and Jeremiah or my constant companion, Samuel has become a comfort and affirmation that you and Ayven are happy and surrounded by love- that's what keeps me going - knowing my tests, trials work dreams are not finished yet for whatever reason- but do I think there was one breath between you being in this world and sheltered in the arms of God- I know there was only one breath and there was no more pain or suffering only glorious beyond my mind's capacity to even imagine- I've searched God's word and promises and hear his voice assure me nightly of this and so I can love you always from here and visualize you with Ayven, Pops, Eddie so many and be thankful for what we had and will have in eternity and try to be the person God wants me to be here to fulfill His plan while knowing a part of me is already with you- I pray I am always able to pull up these precious memories and not lose sight of the promises to come while making you proud no matter how long never losing sight of that anchor in heaven and feeling the Love that never dies! Love you and good night- Granmommy Tanya
Posted by LAURA HOLLAWAY on 4th June 2015
Chad, I think of you often. You were loved and you loved back. Your passing left a void in many lives. I can see you smiling while talking to me and telling me about your plans. I ran across your phone number in my phone the other day and it was like a punch in the stomach. You are gone but never forgotten.
Posted by JamiLeigh Nolen on 4th June 2015
Today is the day... I was in kennett and mom and dad came over to wake me up... I didn't think it was going to be you.. She just started crying and she told me you had passed in an accident.. I just looked at her and said what?... I couldn't hold back my tears... We aggervated one another so much but you were a great person and had a good heart. Reading all these post( even though I have before) it hasn't gotten easier... Normal days I don't even feel you're gone.. We never got the closure a family should.. Never got to see you after.. Never got to say good bye.. They let you suffer and for that, they will pay. Hearing your videos, I never realized how much I'd miss your voice... Even though I couldn't understand you half the time, lol. I'm really just in awe that it has been a year... I can't stretch it enough that it doesn't even feel like you're gone!!!! Just feels like you're in TX still driving your truck... I will never forget this day.. We planned to take the babies too meet you in August.. God had other plans.. You got to meet ayven however a little earlier than August.. The passing of you both back to back is the hardest heartbreak I hope I'll have to deal with for a long time. Idk what I'll do if I lose anymore of yall. Can't believe you're gone chad... Man I just can't believe it.. One year and I still can't believe it... I don't understand it but I am so jealous of the Angels.. They get to be with yall until we get there.. Keep looking down on all of us.. This isn't easy at all. You wouldn't believe how many people were upset when you passed... Crazy huh? I miss your laugh.. Your perverted jokes.. Grandpa yelling at you lol! You knew he was just aggravating you so you would make him mad more.. He never knew lol.. Just really missing you... A lot.. I could write forever.. I feel like if I wrote forever I still wouldn't wrote all what I want and need to say... God I love you chad.. Missing you buddy... A lot... Ugh. Just missing you.
Posted by Monica Nolen on 4th June 2015
Well Chaddy Waddy I wish I could say more has been done to give your mom and Grandma some piece since it has been a year today that you left your spot here on earth, but we still have a ways to go I believe. I know it takes time though. We all love and miss you very much! We will all be together one day again and until then keep an eye on our family here on earth and keep enjoying your time in heaven with all our loved ones. Everyday I tell myself the same words I always told you-be strong, live and do what God would want you to, and everything that you want or need to get done will; it will just take time and you willing it to be done. Love you Chad and give my Grand baby a big ol kiss from me!
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 29th May 2015
Chad a year ago on Memorial Day we had a long talk. It was wonderful and a God thing as some things we would need to know were said. It will soon be a year since the 9:00 a.m. of June 5, 2014, when I was called and rudely told of your passing the night before so many unanswered questions so much pain but I keep on with my God and know that we will be together again. I know you get to hold our precious Ayven and see so many of our and your loved ones but I can't help but miss you --I am trying to be thankful for the wonderful time that God lent you and Ayven to us and I see and hear people who never had the joy of a grandson or great grandson so I want to be thankful for the time we had and the wonderful promise of the eternity to come-holding and hugging you nightly in alone time you are so near and I know you feel my love because I still feel yours-until eternity Granmommy
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 29th May 2015
Tying little shoe laces Wiping off dirty faces Are just a couple of things That a mother will do… Mending a broken heart Is only just a part Of the care and the love That I’ve given you… With a Kool-aid smile And a sparkle in your eyes I wrap you in my arms And whisper this advice… Be strong, be kind Be patient and in time You’ll find out, my son What true love is all about Be faithful and be true Show love in all you do Then you’ll know, just how You make your mother proud Now, little boy days have passed And you’ve grown up so fast But in my heart That little boy will never be far… So on this blessed day There’s so much I want to say But above all, I thank God For the man that you are… With a tender smile And a twinkle in your eyes I wrap you in my arms And whisper this advice… Be strong, be kind Be patient and in time You’ll find out, my son What true love is all about Be faithful and be true Show love in all you do Then you’ll know, just how You make your mother proud You’ve made your mother so proud… credit: tcartermusic
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 20th May 2015
chad momma loves you i will see u in my dreams I know that you are o.k. it is very difficult without you iknow you are ok and safe and I am still trying to be just o.k. love mom
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 11th May 2015
We made it though our first Mother's Day without you and Ayven, it has been a week from hell-me grieving and having anxiety attacks, trying to be there for your mom and Kelci- trying to deal with all the emotions and loss. I know in my head that you and Ayven or with our Savoir and wouldn't want to come back if you could but my heart and arms just ache to hold, hug, kiss and talk to and hear your voices again. I know this is my temporary home and someday I will be with you for eternity and that's all that keeps me going . So many things to say and do you were both taken too soon, Love your Granmommy Tanya
Posted by Heather Morlan on 8th May 2015
Good morning Chaddy Waddy, you are heavy on my mind today. Maybe its because I realize time goes faster than I ever dreamed possible, and life keeps throwing us curve balls left and right. One day you're 19 and having babies, and the next day your baby is 19, and along the way you have had to bury and say goodbye to loved ones that you never dreamed would pass through this life so fast. I am glad to know that you are in Glorious Heaven walking the beautiful gardens with our loved ones, it puts my mind at ease. It is way better than walking these evil streets here, getting more evil by the day. It is hard and difficult for your mom and I know she would rather have you here, as we all would, but if we can't at least we know you are safe now. Warch over your momma and grandmommy while they sleep, hug my POPS tight, hug my MeLena, and kiss baby boy love Ayven for me...love you always
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 11th March 2015
You are 23 today-I know you are celebrating in heaven and we are the ones that are in pain and for that I am thankful. Your brick was laid at memorial garden at church I will post a picture on here as soon as I have it where I can. It's got ChaddyWaddy on it because you will always be our Chaddywaddy-Love and miss you and Happy Birthday. I dream of you saying it;'s alright Granmommy, I love you and goodnight!
Posted by Tanya Brasher on 4th March 2015
My sweet handsome grandson Chaddy Waddy. It has been 9 months today since you left this earth for a better place but I still wish you were here everyday many times a day. i know if given the chance you would probably rather be where you are except you would want to make sure your Mom was okay. She is doing better than I expected but a part of her has been ripped away and she will never quit missing her Chad. I am thankful daily that you and I had several times to talk and you assured me you had been saved. All I can hope for is that in eternity we are all together again my daily prayer. Hug little Ayven and all the other relatives you have about as many there as we have here now. If we could get your legal matters cleared up then maybe it would be a little less stressful. I pray daily for that to take place and give us some closure. I just close my eyes and rock Ayven and I close my eyes and hug you I can feel your arms around me and your swift kiss and telling me It's going to be alright, I love you Granmommy and Good night.
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 11th January 2015
chad I love you there is not a day that goes by that i dont think about you several times me and kelci had a pretty good time at Florida you were still in my thoughts always will be some nites are still really bad mornings are horrible but sometimes I am remembering teaching you how to dance in the kitchen or i look outside at the church parking lot and remember all of us you me zach justin kelci and jami rollerskating sometimes i will be asleep and i feel like someone has walked pass and touched me I do know one thing son I will always miss you and i will always love you and i will always b proud to say you were my son i am sorry It could not have been me as eyour whole life was ahead of you i guess God decided it was time and i dont like it but I guess i will have to accept it the bible says God will not give you more than you can handle although many times I felt at the breaking point and on june the fourth i knew late that evening something was wrong on the 5th my heart did a total eclipse and i knew without a doubt my life would never be the same again and most of my hopes and dreams passed away as I stood making decision about my only child I thought i would never have to make. every aggrevation lie let down people who cant mind there own and want to control yours or try to destroy it at that point all of it was so tiny so very unimportant I love you and yes I would do it all again but we dont get that chance here on this earth so wait for me.
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 1st January 2015
Happy perfect New Year in heaven my precious grandson. Oh how I wish I could kiss you but will have to love and hug you with my heart for now. So praying for a 2015 full of love, hope, closure and strength from Jesus for all of us who love and miss you so much don't have to worry about you this New Years know you are happy and safe with Jesus and so many grands, cousins, aunts and uncles LOVE YOU! Granmommy Tanya
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 28th December 2014
Chad I left a message Christmas on your and Ayven's fb. I tried hard to take care of the living the last few days and not lose my mind over you and Ayven. We so need closure at least an autopsy and death certificate it has been almost 7 months. Your mom and Kelci are safe back from Fl and I'm thankful for that. I can do nothing right and have to recheck and look for stuff half the time I do pray this gets better. I know you had an awesome Chistmas with Jesus and all our family there pray you and Ayven know how much we love and miss you and get to spend time together -I want to be all God wants me to be and then be rewarded by getting to spend eternity with you and all our loved ones. Merry Christmas in heaven my handsome, precious grandsons rejoice that you don't have to put up with ever increasingly evil world- holding you in my heart always-Granmommy Tanya and goodnight
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 10th December 2014
Chad, I'm having a hard time with the Christmas season . I thought I knew It would be hard but I underestimated my grief, depression and just total sadness and despair. I am so far behind I can't catch up without a miracle- if you can request one please do- I need all pictures sorted scanned and organized- your metal pictures for urn ordered and mounted, 300 Christmas cards in the mail, 4 people gifts and cookies and candy mailed when they are not even all made yet- gifts ready to distribute......HELP! My heart is just not in it- I look for stuff all the time and accomplish very little very slowly. I ache to hug you, talk to you and know you are happy and that there is some justice for us and closure here on earth. I need to know what to say Sunday when our family lights the Advent Candle as the theme is what makes you feel Joyous at Christmas- I don't feel very joyous but it is our savior's birthday- I'll pray about it and figure out what we should do that day and to finish up 2014 which will always leave a nasty taste in my mouth when I think about it until I am hugging you in paradise- our time on earth is short but eternity is forever by precious grandson- love you always and forever Granmommy Tanya
Posted by Shawna Fieweger on 5th December 2014
Chad my handsome grandson, we were notified rudely by telephone 6 months ago today after you died in a holding cell after being falsely accused of being on drugs or alcohol, I guess they stalled 12 plus hours trying to figure out how they were going to explain, hide, make it your fault- I guess it was harder than they thought as they haven't been able to even put a cause of death on your death certificate-we need some closure and I'm just very glad you are not having to deal with any of this human crap- the news is full of prejudice and race issues and my heart just knows that you were always bullied, profiled and falsely accused , since you are white I guess it doesn't matter except it always did and does to us and I have to believe it matters to God too and them who always used excessive force and abuse of power etc will answer to him and maybe we'll get some justice- I want that for you, your Mom and family and for all the others it happens to- you will always be a shining light of love held tight in my heart until we are together again- love always and forever Granmommy Tanya

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