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This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Chad Fieweger, 22 years old, born on March 11, 1992, and passed away on June 4, 2014. We will remember him forever.
June 6, 2023
June 6, 2023
I know you knew you were loved, you knew who you could count on and sadly learned people would judge you because of your name or without even knowing you. A search on Missouri .net will show those judgers-they are so wrong. I also heard your plans and dreams and know you over came big obstacles to work toward them. You had an amazing heart and more strength than even you knew. Your Mom and I tried to help you fulfill your dreams, so sorry we did not get to watch you continue to conquer each one. Heaven is so full of pieces of our hearts it is really looking like home❤️I just pray I can finish the works started in me for the 3 here at my house and then that big family reunion will be even more glorious. Jesus knows-loving and missing you 9 plus years-Gran Mommy Tanya
March 12, 2023
March 12, 2023
Another year, my Precious Grandson, you would be 31, so hard to picture, I still hear your voice and feel you in my heart, we laugh together and sometimes I drop a tear, it is for me and your Mom and our family, because I know you have never been happier or more carefree-I know without a doubt I will hug you again and all I have to do is finish this job here well and spend eternity loving in perfection. Can’t help but wonder what if but trust God’s perfect loving plan for His Children, hug all our loved ones and just be you❤️❤️❤️❤️ Love you and Goodnight Granmommy Tanya
December 30, 2022
December 30, 2022
Have not forgotten you, you are remembered daily. I have posted to your Facebook have just not been as diligent with this memorial-can’t let this Christmas and New Year pass without telling you in print how much you are missed and loved.
Heaven is certainly looking more and more like home, so many there, I want to finish taking care of Mom, Connie and Grandpa and then if granted that will come to you all for eternity. I thought about you and Justin playing ball today. I know your happiness is beyond my imagination and that is what keeps us going-love you thru Eternity, you are always with me
Love you and good night-Granmommy Tanya
Holding you in my ❤️
March 12, 2022
March 12, 2022
You were 30 years old yesterday. Hard to be aging you as you are just our Chad always. I know there are more and more people with you and that is as it should be. Knowing we will hug again for eternity is what keeps me going, I pray I finish well and take care of all my responsibilities here and am welcome peacefully and triumphantly into heaven -love you and think of you daily our precious Chad-Mrs Kim got there Thursday, hug her for me.
March 11, 2022
March 11, 2022
Hello Chaddy Waddy Happy 30th baby it's hard for me to believe you would be thirty years old today. I know it's been awhile since I have posted but it's not because I don't think of you daily. I think about you everyday and some days more than others. I wonder what would have been and where you would be and where I would be today. There are still a lot of days I just don't have it in me to go out in the world, but I am trying to fight back. Some days just having to do what I have to do is exhausting and of course I am older now too. I feel trauma and this world have a lot to do with all of our feelings and triggers. I wish you were here, I was and am very proud of the person you became in spite of all the obstacles life through at you and well all of us. I know in my heart you are in a better place now with no worries or discouraging opinions or prejudices. I am so thankful I got to spend 22 years with my wonderful son you were and always will be the greatest miracle God shared with me. The world is just not the same without you in it. A lot of days it seems I am just trying to get through them still. I am still trying even though I am learning things just aren't what they seem to be and the world just keeps getting more opinionated and futile. I know my journey here is not done, sometimes I wonder why, and look forward to meeting you again in a much better place I know you will be waiting on me I love you Happy Birthday love and hugs MOM 
December 26, 2021
December 26, 2021
Was meaning to post yesterday but was at hospital with Aunt Connie from noon until 9, she was combative, so sad and miserable, she needs a miracle, I pray she can have peace and joy she has been through so much. I miss you so very much but know you are having the absolute best of everything you always deserved. I have been very ill, your Granmommy Tanya is very thin and malnourished because of pancreases EPI,. Thought I might be joining you all and not a problem , but prayed to be able to finish this job, I pray I have the strength to finish and do it well, I want to spend eternity loving, praising and fulfilling PERFECT, hug all our loved ones and if you can put in a good word to help us know how to bring joy back to Aunt Connie, please do do. I will come to you!! Love you always, Granmommy Tanya or as the new greats say Tammo
June 22, 2021
June 22, 2021
Chad Momma hasn't been on here for awhile not because you are not on my mind everyday. I miss you so much and I feel as though people take advantage because I do not believe in being mean to anyone, I need to remove myself from the area for a little bit and I feel I can do that soon I am okay otherwise and I know no one can ever hurt you and you are perfect so I think of you all the time and wish you were here, but I know in my heart you are better off in heaven I just wish it wasn't so far away love you MOM
June 4, 2021
June 4, 2021
Love and miss you Great Nephew, Chad! Love, Aunt Beverly (BeBe) Praying for Eternal life with Christ and all!
June 4, 2021
June 4, 2021
Seven years without my nightly call “I love you Granmommy and Goodnght” I am tired, weak and fighting to be here and strong enough to finish my earthly job, but someday we will hug again, we love and miss you everyday!
November 26, 2020
November 26, 2020
It’s Thanksgiving, and I am thankful for many things, I would love to hug you and not just in my heart, I wore your ashes to make family pictures, it is so hard to laugh and miss you everyday but especially on special occasions that so many take for granted, I know you knew you were loved and am thankful we talked about your acceptance of Jesus, I will try daily to live and love for so many that aren’t here and hold to the promises that we will have eternity together, you are always with me-Granmommy Tanya loves you always
November 26, 2020
November 26, 2020
Chad Allen we took family pictures today and a bunch of family that could have been there wasn't. All of us felt a deep sadness for the ones that would have been there if they only could. I don't know maybe you all were there looking down on us. Mammaw Connie is still trying to get over surgeries, but she is doing better than I thought she would. She still laughs just not as much as she used to. I never really cared for having my picture made. Now I an grateful your grandmommy Tanya and pappaw buddy made sure pictures were taken. I spend a lot of days wishing you could have lived where we live now. I spend lots of time in 2014 and lots of battle with myself to accept the changes in my life and all of the people who loved you lives. I know no one else except people who have been through it can understand. I love you and miss you so much Chad. I will see you in my dreams! give everyone a hug for me. Happy Thanksgiving chaddy waddy mom loves you.
June 4, 2020
June 4, 2020
Grandmommy Tanya has not forgotten the horror of this day 6 years ago, fighting for your justice for 3 years drove me through and now the good memories, knowing the pieces of my heart will someday be filled in-I worried because you were alone, our baby alone, but I know Jesus was with you and now you are surrounded only by love and perfection beyond our human imagination and I will come to you-hug those other pieces of my heart until then -love you through eternity
March 12, 2020
March 12, 2020
Chad Allen I spent most of yesterday thinking about you and trying to picture you at 28, and what my life would be like if you would have had caring, God fearing persons looking after your medical concerns. I waited until now to post because of the weather and trying to prepare for lock-down in our house due to this new virus. It really worries me because even though I look healthy I'm not. I worry about your grandmommy and grandpa. I also worry about all these babies being born. I would love to be able to see you, and hug you. I do often while I am asleep. Sometimes I feel like I could just turn around and you would be there and I would be able to physically see you. I do feel your presence often. I love you I always will And I Hope you had a good birthday yesterday baby. I know all your days are great now and you have no worries, this is the only reason I still get up and try to have any life without you here. You are there and your safe, and comfortable, and at peace. I love you chadder man!!!!
March 12, 2020
March 12, 2020
Posted on your Facebook page yesterday but then just seemed to avoid this one, I want to hug you, I know I will see you again, I am trying to post this video and song I love and will figure it out-Happy birthday, I know you are perfect and happy, as we will all be together again. Hugging you always in my heart-Love you-Granmommy Tammo
December 12, 2019
December 12, 2019
Your Dad died this morning, I hope he has found the peace he couldn't find and keep here. I saw him in October, he said he was very involved with his church and was singing and visiting with other churches with the musical team, I told him I was proud for him and I am thankful we had this closure. I am truly sorry if we ever missed an opportunity to help him, I am sad for what he coulld have been . Rest In Peace Richard Paul Fieweger- without you we wouldn't have had our Chad Allen and for that we are very thankful!
November 29, 2019
November 29, 2019
Another Thanksgiving without you. It will never be easy or normal but I just carry on tradition and just spend that night thinking about you and others that are so missed. I know you celebrate daily but it doesn't stop the tears from flowing wishing I could get that hug, kiss on the cheek, crooked smile and mischievous personality in person again and then I am thankful because I know and claim the promises of Jesus that I WILL share these things again with you my precious Grandson. We did have the blessing of a new great grandson for the holiday Caine Allen in honor of you and Grandpa-he will be 4 months old tomorrow and my prayers are that he will be a good man following God all his life. See you again -hugging you in my heart always-Granmommy Tanya
November 24, 2019
November 24, 2019
Hey Chad Allen just wanted to say I love and miss you! Been thinking about you as always, but it seems more so here lately:(. Forever missed and loved!
June 9, 2019
June 9, 2019
Went bowling today to celebrate an early fathers day and it reminded me of you... Our first bowling trip as a couple was so much fun. You tried to let me win but even at ur worst u were better than me. I love u Chad. I miss you so much. I know my dad would have loved it if u were with us today, he always liked you.
June 5, 2019
June 5, 2019
Chad I know as of yesterday you were taken from us for five years. I love you and I miss you every day. Everybody has grown up and I hear from your friends occasionally. I wish I could hug you, but I guess I will have to wait until we meet again. Its hard to imagine you as a twenty-seven year old man I guess you will be 22 and forever young. I know you are happy and laughing and your with everybody that had went before you and after you. love,Mom
June 4, 2019
June 4, 2019
Another year, can't believe it is 5 years without and big hug, nightly phone call, hearing "Granmommy, I love you and Goodnight"- so many precious memories-so many what if's-trusting we will have eternity together and hugging you always in my heart.
March 11, 2019
March 11, 2019
It is March 11th again--so many to remember--such blessed memories. Will it ever be easier--never, but do I hold more and more to the promises of our God--yes. So very thankful for every day we had and for every memory. I know you are and will always be with me -such a comfort that I know you had accepted Jesus as your Saviour, those conversations are what keep me going. A day or 50 years I know we will hug again--you are happy and that is what I always want for you, we will come to you--LOVE YOU WITH EVERY BREATH AND BEAT OF MY HEART_THAT YOU ARE eternally in.
March 11, 2019
March 11, 2019
Chad Allen momma misses you every breath I breathe I wish every morning that I could hear you say momma and it would be you. I have dreams where we are traveling to places we hadn't gotten to see and your happy. This makes me know you are always with me. I love you Happy 27th birthday I love you always.  Mom
March 11, 2019
March 11, 2019
Chad, I think of you often and remember the funny things we laughed about. You are gone but never forgotten. It's hard to believe it's been 5 yrs. I know, you know, you are loved and missed. RIP.
December 25, 2018
December 25, 2018
My precious Chad, Merry Christmas, our Chaddy Waddy, so wish I could hug you with my arms and not just with my heart and in my dreams, I know you have lots of loved ones there and are celebrating always, we are expecting a new baby in August to love and know that you will love it too. We will hold you always, please visit me more often, I WILL come to you, you MeLena, Doug, JUSTIN and pops take care of our sweet Ayven. love you, always-Granmommy Tanya, Pappaw Buddy and Connie Bonnie
December 25, 2018
December 25, 2018
Chad Allen momma misses you so much. Just can't get over the empty feeling that Christmas leaves now. I have been blessed with a house you would have loved to grow up in. I finally have the small farm you always wanted. you have a step father you would have liked and now I don't have you here. I had to have surgery so no chance of more little miracles now maybe Kelci will have twins and I might get to be close to them. I at least know your safe and happy and no one can be mean to you or your free spirit that's the only thing that keeps me going a lot of the time. love mom
March 12, 2018
March 12, 2018
Happy 26th birthday--of course as I see and hug you in my dreams you will always be 22--thankful for every little memory--we never realize when making them how precious they are. I know God has a purpose for my life and why I am still here--I am trying to do what He wants me to do --this week has been hard pushing forward but I know it is what is best for now and eternity--I must work to pass through this temporary home and do His will so I can spend eternity with all the pieces of my heart that are with you--I can find my Joy in Christ and know without a doubt you are the most perfect complete you can ever be and my finite mind cannot even envelope that --awesome for you--I will come to you -hearing you nightly Love you Granmommy and Goodnight!!
March 11, 2018
March 11, 2018
chad allen momma loves you would have been on here sooner but I decided to sleep a lot today. I miss you bunches and wish you Were here. Happy 26th birthday!!! I'll see you in my dreams. Til we meet again Love mom.
December 26, 2017
December 26, 2017
Momma misses you so much I have slept more than usual and have been sick this past month I do hope all our angels are doing well there are so many missing loved ones around the table and in all the pictures it makes it very hard to even take part in celebrating but you did enjoy the holidays even when times were not so good and you were always grateful for what you got and you enjoyed giving gifts and delivering dinners to people who couldn't get out or had no family. YOU ARE MISSED WITH EVERY BREATHE I Take MERRY CHRISTMAS I love you see you in my dreams
December 24, 2017
December 24, 2017
It is another Christmas without pieces of my heart. I am trying to be the best I can here because I am looking so forward to coming to you and all the ones you are with--Jealous of the angels who can hug you all--Love and miss you always--Granmommy Tanya
September 6, 2017
September 6, 2017
My sweet chaddy waddy momma sure does miss you been sleeping a lot since last trip to Texas maybe 2 much but its the only time I get to feel like you came for a visit or told me you loved me or I get to hug you I know no matter what happens this week I know the truth and I know why and who caused you not to be on this earth to live your life and your story has been told what they decide to do about all of it is out of my hands. I know I don't look the same and I will never be the same and I will always wonder what you would look like after 22 and what we would be doing now. My heart and soul hurts for the pain you were caused in your last hours of life on this earth. I love you and hope and pray something good comes out of this nightmare but I don't seem to be able to hold on to that most days anymore so I hope you understand I am doing the best I can in this battle. good nite chumpkins I will see you in my dreams!
August 16, 2017
August 16, 2017
So tonight I walked into break room and had to do a double take over a guy sitting at table that my mind automatically thought was you:(. I just couldn't help the tear that escaped my eye. He then looked up and said how is your night ma'am? I told him fine and smiled, he then smiled and I had to sit down for a minute after that one. He probably thinks I'm crazy lol. I sure do miss you Chaddy Waddy
July 28, 2017
July 28, 2017
Missing you and thinking about you a lot today my sweet Nephew. This whole week has been hard actually, but it will get better. We are still waiting and praying to hear the words that we have fought for for 3 years now. Sophie starts school in a couple of weeks. It's hard to believe, but we keep pushing through the days of life until we meet again in Heaven. Some days are more of struggle than others, but we think about you everyday. Kelci did get to graduate (hallelujah) lol. Jami is thinking of going to surgery med tech school, and Kelci starts college in a couple weeks to. Keep watching over us all Chaddy Waddy. We all love and miss you so much. Kiss my sweet grand baby for me as always. I know you and Justin are having a good time with him. Y'all visit me in my dreams sometime.
July 21, 2017
July 21, 2017
Today I hope we finally get some peace of mind that God is in control the only thing I can say is I love you always and here on earth I have to hold on to the hope that Ignorance of the law excuses no man and that our battle may soon be over because I want to start thinking about good things I do sometimes but its been over three years and we are seeking closure and accountability because its impossible for them to give me what they have took away momma will always love and miss you so very much.
June 5, 2017
June 5, 2017
3 long years without you--it is still not real to me--I cried during Beulah Land at church this morning and felt hysterical--then I could see you how handsome and grown up you were the last time you were at church with me when you were 21, oh, how I loved that time together and how I long for the time when we will spend eternity together. We are going to do this last battle in Texas this month and I pray this is the last we have to hear about them and it brings us a little peace knowing we have fought the last battle for you as we fought your whole life and then maybe we can live in the Spirit and fulfill God's work and plan in us and then spend eternity in the perfectness you already know--love you and miss you always my precious Grandson. I love you and goodnight Granmommy Tanya
June 4, 2017
June 4, 2017
Chad today you have been gone for three years I feel fury today its not been a good day I am trying to be as happy as I can be, but I do good to be here at all. and really I am here but my mind is somewhere else a lot or I will find something of yours and remember don't get me wrong I never want to forget you or our time together but it hurts to know I will never see you on earth again I am still fighting this last fight it wont be long and I will face the people who caused this nightmare. I love you and hope for peace here I know you are ok there Love you Mom.
April 26, 2017
April 26, 2017
CHAD I AM VERY SAD TODAY AND MISS YOU SO MUCH I OFTEN WONDER WHY YOUR GONE AND WHY I AM STILL HERE I WISH I WOULD HAVE BEEN WITHYOU ON JUNE THE 4TH 2014 WE HAVE WENT THROUGH SO MUCH TOGETHER I KNOW ALARGE PART OF ME AND MY HOPES AND DREAMS DIED THAT DAY AND MY HEART BREAKS DAILY. THEIR IS SO MUCH DESPAIR IN THIS WORLD I KNOW YOU ARE BETTER OFF WHERE YOUR AT BUT I WOULD BE SO MUCH HAPPIER IF YOU WERE HERE. I LOVE YOU CHUMPKINS .
March 11, 2017
March 11, 2017
chad allen I wanted to tell you I love you and miss you everyday you would have been 25 today and I would either be where you were or planning a trip to see you and we would be celebrating the wonderful miracle that God gave us, but now all I feel is sadness and lots of anger It has been a long journey for us to even get to where we are in trying to understand what happened on 6-4-2014. but we know more than we ever thought we would and I an grateful for that and the fact that I got to be your mom for the time we had you in our lives. sometime in the near future more photos will be added to your memorial Chad, but for now just living and trying to fight this battle is all I or your grandmommy can do. I know your fine and your with everyone there so give ayven a hug and give Justin a hug give them all hugs and tell pops I did get better. and you all have a good time and wait for the rest of us because you will always be missed love mom HAPPYBIRTHDAY BABY
March 11, 2017
March 11, 2017
Happy Birthday My sweet Chaddy Waddy! Today is rough on all of us but I know your mom has had a rough week and your grand mommy. We all love you so much and miss you everyday. You know some days it seems like it was just yesterday that you were taken from this earth and some days it seems so long ago. It's been a whirlwind and will continue to be that until we meet again. Now and the next few months are always crazy, but will be even crazier this year. On top of everything that makes the next few months always crazy Kelci is graduating this year:). Well I'm not counting my chickens yet, but I'm praying that we make it. We only have until May 4th to get her through. Sophie turns 3 in a week and Ayven would be 3 April 1st. Sophie starts T-ball this year and I know that will be rough on Kelci cus Ayven would have started to, but we will get through it. One step at a time just like I always told you to. I miss you everyday Chad and wish that you could've stayed here with us, but I know God had other plans for you. I imagine what you would've been like now and where you would be and what you would've seen if you could've stayed here on earth. Your life was really just beginning and you had such a bright future ahead of you and you always thought of everyone else before yourself. I love you and hope you are having a wonderful birthday in heaven today! Have a wonderful party and You, Justin, and Ayven keep a watch over us all. Hugs and kisses and give my sweet faces grandbaby the same for me!
January 10, 2017
January 10, 2017
Having a bad day, missing you, Ayven and Justin so terribly, it will never be okay with me that you are not here, NEVER--I will do what I can to live as God has planned and right but it will never be okay-I should be able to talk to you, touch you and rock Ayven, get crazy little messages from Justin--I will pray and visualize hugging you in your black shirt the last time I saw you and you kissing me and saying goodnight, Granmommy it is going to be okay--I love you
January 2, 2017
January 2, 2017
chad its 2017 I miss you and I know this year is going to be hard with everything that still needs to be taken care of. some days I smile sometimes its just to hard to but I'm still trying. I know you are at peace and happy some day we will be together again love you mom
January 1, 2017
January 1, 2017
Happy New Year Chaddy Waddy! Love you and have been thinking about you a lot today. I believe it's because with a new year and still wanting and waiting to have more answers. We all love and miss you so much and we are still fighting for you! We always will. I know you have peace now and that helps, but I still miss your smile, the way your eyes light up when you talk, your voice, and your hugs. As always give my grand baby a kiss for me and now you have Justin with you to, so y'all have fun flying high and sharing all the fun memories you all had. Keep a place for us as we will one day be by yours, Ayven's, and Justin's side again. Love, hugs, and kisses!
January 1, 2017
January 1, 2017
Well, Chaddy Waddy granmommy is here, I'm always holding you and hugging you and Ayven and now Justin in my heart. It is getting to look more and more like home there with you. We know we have a mission to accomplish here and are praying for His divine guidance to do the very best we can. It has been a very unsettling year and now I know why it has taken us this long to get these results and information as we couldn't have handled it before now as it has been more than a little distressing... I know God has a plan and it exceeds any of our expectations just as I know you and Ayven, Justin, Pops, Granny, Grandma Mary, Bay, MeLena, Mammaw and Pappaw so very many are experiencing the ultimate uninmaginable magnificence of our heavenly Father. We will be there to join you; that is our goal and I also know that our perfect Lord lets you all know how much yo are missed and loved--Holding you in my heart and every night hearing you say " good night Granmommy I love you" Happy New Year 2017
December 28, 2016
December 28, 2016
Chad this Christmas was very upsetting without you although I now know more than I ever did about what happened in June of 2014 it has left me feeling even more anger than usual I love you and I always will the years are getting faster for me and I am changing with age , although you were always my baby and always will be I often see you as a baby and as a handsome young man and sometimes I wonder what your life and my life would have been like if you were still here. you are greatly missed I wish I could give you a hug you hug ayven and Justin for me and i'l take a deep breath and visualize giving you your hug its not the same but it does make it easier to have hope that I can be o.k. because you always wanted me to be so i'm trying to be love u mom
November 16, 2016
November 16, 2016
hey bro this is Westside Babyboy I sure do miss bro that silly look u us to give when u come in and u see me and you all ways came and miss with this certain name I cant put that on this page cause u know grandma wouldn't loud that bro but when I think of u u put a smile on my face Babyboy cause u us to do that when u alive and ou still alive in my mind andmy heart and soul that where u live forever I never forget u Babyboy peaceout Kenneth Vires Westside love u and miss u holler
October 22, 2016
October 22, 2016
Mom loves you and my heart hurts everyday that your not here I don't understand why this happened but I know you are ok and God called you home I miss you and am sad a lot but I have been reassure we on earth grieve and our loved ones who left this earth do not feel sadness this makes me feel some better so I try to always remember that smile and the twinkle in your eyes and how handsome you grew as you became a young man I am sad you weren't able to enjoy your accomplishments for very long but we were all very proud of you I love you goodnight chaddy waddy
September 30, 2016
September 30, 2016
Chad I love you and miss you everyday as I'm sure you Know me and Tracy are trying to get through this most of my days will always be touched with sadness that your not here. A lot of my days are filled with anger because of what I now know I try to live my life but most days it is a struggle but I'm not going to stop fighting. I wish I could hear mom one last time. Take care of ayven and give Justin a big hug he fought a good fight and now he can be with you all till the rest of us join you Love always MOM
September 28, 2016
September 28, 2016
Just been thinking about you so much over the last couple of months:). Miss you everyday Chaddy Waddy! We are all still fighting for you and we love you! As always give my grand baby a kiss and hug for me and now you and Justin can have fun playing with him. Miss you sweetie.
June 4, 2016
June 4, 2016
Chad I saw your name and number in my phone the other day.. It made me sad but again it made me smile. We had some good laughs. I wish you were here. Gone but not forgotten.
June 4, 2016
June 4, 2016
It has been 2 long hard years. We are still fighting for you, loving and missing you. I hug you good night and remember, "love you Granmommy and goodnight" always until we are together again.
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June 6, 2023
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I know you knew you were loved, you knew who you could count on and sadly learned people would judge you because of your name or without even knowing you. A search on Missouri .net will show those judgers-they are so wrong. I also heard your plans and dreams and know you over came big obstacles to work toward them. You had an amazing heart and more strength than even you knew. Your Mom and I tried to help you fulfill your dreams, so sorry we did not get to watch you continue to conquer each one. Heaven is so full of pieces of our hearts it is really looking like home❤️I just pray I can finish the works started in me for the 3 here at my house and then that big family reunion will be even more glorious. Jesus knows-loving and missing you 9 plus years-Gran Mommy Tanya
March 12, 2023
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Another year, my Precious Grandson, you would be 31, so hard to picture, I still hear your voice and feel you in my heart, we laugh together and sometimes I drop a tear, it is for me and your Mom and our family, because I know you have never been happier or more carefree-I know without a doubt I will hug you again and all I have to do is finish this job here well and spend eternity loving in perfection. Can’t help but wonder what if but trust God’s perfect loving plan for His Children, hug all our loved ones and just be you❤️❤️❤️❤️ Love you and Goodnight Granmommy Tanya
December 30, 2022
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Have not forgotten you, you are remembered daily. I have posted to your Facebook have just not been as diligent with this memorial-can’t let this Christmas and New Year pass without telling you in print how much you are missed and loved.
Heaven is certainly looking more and more like home, so many there, I want to finish taking care of Mom, Connie and Grandpa and then if granted that will come to you all for eternity. I thought about you and Justin playing ball today. I know your happiness is beyond my imagination and that is what keeps us going-love you thru Eternity, you are always with me
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June 7, 2023
I thought about deleting Chad’s Uncle Phillip’s post but decided that was his perspective, with his limited interaction during Chad’s growing up years too much weight cannot be put on it.  Coming from a man who ran from his dysfunctional family at 17 and did well for himself, I can respect his judgements.  Phillip had a few days in Chad’s life before he was 19, once or twice a year, most years for a few days may be more than actual.  I know he is aware that Shawna had to be financial and daily caregiver and parent of Chad, as his Dad came in and out of his life when convenient for him and was never a person to depend on.   Shawna battled mental health issues but sought and received help to cope with this, our family battles a lot  of this. A drug user not ever except from Doctor , a liar or thief, truthfully out  of our 5 children she has the most critical conscious, smoke-she smoked like a chimney and still does  but so did my Dad, I never have, that is a personal choice. Chad was accused of drugs and never had a positive drug test, when Dunklin county intimidated him and said because he could not produce urine sample so they were failing him I took him straight to hospital and had blood test and drug screen and it was negative, this is not only time I took him to hospital to prove intimidating and harassment not substantiated by evidence would not deter me from seeking a true drug screen immediately and if officers harassing him wanted to put their urine  up against his we would  anytime. Do I think he probably experimented before, yes, do I know if he drank anything he called me to  pick him up, yes.  Did we make mistakes in parenting, you bet, but intentional  teach him immoral and illegal habits, no way. Since Philip  never parented a child, and I used to make absurd observations before I was a parent, we will just take with the knowledge it was given and acknowledge that Phillip tried to help Chad  and Chad had even told me he wished he had been his Dad, that his life would have been easier. Chad knew who loved him unconditionally and that is what is the bottom line-Tanya Brasher
June 4, 2023
Chad was a troubled kid that was on track for turning his life around.
He learned to be a liar, a thief, a smoker, and a drug user from both his parents, but seemed to be trying to start an honest life and become a productive member of society before he was murdered by Texas pigs after flipping his truck. He didn't deserve that.
Despite what he did when he lived with me, I still miss him.
Goodbye, Chad.
April 2, 2020
Happy Birthday in Heaven, Chad!  3/11...you remind me of Pops (Daddy = Paul Shankle) in this picture!  Love You, Aunt BeBe

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