Love on your Birthday
August 11, 2019
by Tammy Lowe
Sometimes I’m so lost with you gone! I wish I could take your place! I love and miss you always and for the rest of my days! Happy Birthday Son! ❤️
Love Mom
Love Mom
May 18, 2019
by Tammy Lowe
It’s past the anniversary of your passing Son! Sorry I’m late! But I thought about you all day just a lot going on! I love and miss you dearly! Always have always will! I sure hope you are at peace now! Sometimes my heart and mind can’t take your loss! Still one day at a time till I see you again!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
More from Chad:
June 7, 2011
by Tammy Lowe
Scabbed heart...bruised soul...we must part...break the hold....
Look everyone--a haiku-
Life is a shithole,
you are born only to die
sweet release in death.
He's a demon
can't you tell
he was born
and raised in hell
I am dying
must accept it
part of life
be reborn
only choice
break free
numbness flows
throughout body
getting tired
cannot sleep
must stop
thought process
destroying will
would mind
must move on
cannot move
body tired
invisible chains
future dark
past dead
hope losts
faith decay
future
love
hate
death
joy
pain
matters nothing
her.
Look everyone--a haiku-
Life is a shithole,
you are born only to die
sweet release in death.
He's a demon
can't you tell
he was born
and raised in hell
I am dying
must accept it
part of life
be reborn
only choice
break free
numbness flows
throughout body
getting tired
cannot sleep
must stop
thought process
destroying will
would mind
must move on
cannot move
body tired
invisible chains
future dark
past dead
hope losts
faith decay
future
love
hate
death
joy
pain
matters nothing
her.
Chads writings
June 7, 2011
by Tammy Lowe
chad wrote this 9-13-01
just hold onto happy thoughts. its ridiculous. i know the things i do that would seem to make me happy are done to appease the demons that possess my soul. i have no hope for the future and the past is such a dreary place. i dont want to kill myself, but i do sometimes wish that God would take me in my sleep. i cant remember when i didnt feel this way. i know now and i've known for a long time to stop thinking these things and grab life by the balls but its the fear that holds me back, the fear that grips my heart and wrenches it into oblivion, but to break through that fear takes and my time has already expired.
just hold onto happy thoughts. its ridiculous. i know the things i do that would seem to make me happy are done to appease the demons that possess my soul. i have no hope for the future and the past is such a dreary place. i dont want to kill myself, but i do sometimes wish that God would take me in my sleep. i cant remember when i didnt feel this way. i know now and i've known for a long time to stop thinking these things and grab life by the balls but its the fear that holds me back, the fear that grips my heart and wrenches it into oblivion, but to break through that fear takes and my time has already expired.