Hello missing you is an understatement. 9 years it seems as though we just closed the casket and walked away from the grave. I still have this day programed in my head I will never be able to forget this day and look at today its raining who would of knew 9 years to your death it would be raining all over again. I hate the rain however I know that is the way that mother nature takes care of the land. So I will embrace it with a smile and look at it as though you are showering us with love. Chad I wish our boys and daughter had more time with you Chance is really great at football and Chase is good at soccer they are very different but also very much alike they take after us both :) but also have there own personalities which I admire. Maya is doing well her and baby Z I told you I would forever be behind her well as much as she allows me to be. Please keep watch over them as if you were here to protect them No Grind No Shine 8100 

We miss you here on this side of the world. Keep watching over our boys for us Happy Birthday my friend my love my headache my heartache my wish is that you were here

Chad why did you leave us in such a cruel world our boys need you and miss you terribly Chance is hurting on the inside because he doesn’t remember much about you and Chase is very emotional about knowing now that you will never be coming back he has just now realized this and it’s breaking him he doesn’t understand why this happened to you to us. We love you our heavenly angel keep watching over us please until we merry again

Thinking of u! missing u so much

There is sooooo much i want to talk to u about but i can't!! This shyt haven't gotten easier cuz there isn't a day that i don't think of u!!! I miss u dawg more than i can explain

wow today makes eight long hard years without you. I miss you so so so much I find myself thinking of you and losing my breathe feel suffocated because the thought of you no longer being here as my friend but most importantly as our kids father. Chad you are missing out on so so much Chance is growing up to love math and football he is also very quiet to himself I hear he acts much like the younger you. Chase well we always knew he was gonna be our special baby he is growing up so fast it scares me but he is good he just has a bad temper and he loves loves to be right never wrong that should sound familiar I really wish you were with us Chad I really do. Oh and I did save the best for last our baby girl is having a baby and it’s a boy and he gets to hold the Parker last name going I am beyond excited I just wish again you were here to be apart of all this. Chad we love you dearly and miss you beyond words keep watching over us and tell God to easy up on my health please this babies need me as I need you but we know that’s a forever love and need I will forever have keep resting with love

Well I almost forgot about Father’s Day which probably would’ve been better because now this week is just going to be hard for me .. not a day pass by I don’t think about you just visit me in my dreams please that’s all I ask.

Mannnn cousin!! this is still so hard for me!!! i miss you soo much!! i can still hear your voice call my name!! I cant stop my tears from flowing wit just a thought of you!! You were my best friend, the one i could talk to about anything under the sun!!! I know we was taught not to question Gods actions but i often wonder y your life was taken so soon. We were supposed to grow old together watching our children grow up!!' i love and miss u!! happy bday kid❤️

Happy happy Birthday the boys love and miss you daily

Happy Happy Birthday man are you missed I know you see what is happening around us daily I know you see just how big these kids have gotten I know its rough with out Chase is growing into a young man and his testes my patience every day but you know that already. I have so much I want to say and tell you about I just still can’t believe you are no longer here it still cuts my wind when I think about I miss you dearly I pray that you are at peace and resting well tell God to send us a word from heavens gates I know you dancing walk through with your bad self.. lol we had some good times I miss those times. I am still holding my word I’m here for baby girl even though she shuts me out but you know this too so just keep looking over us all and I promise I’ll keep doing as I promised no child of ours left me behind blood or not. Happy 45th Birthday ol man tell Marcus what’s the deal also I know y’all living it upFly high

ugh you really were my best friend ! so many ppl I want talk about with you whole lotta fake shit going on but yk that tho .. I’m not worried tho , cause I’m straight you left me with a lot and I thank you for that !! I’m one tough cookie I got this

Hey da, I really miss you around this time of year. So many things I want to tell you I lived into my own apartment, I’m working a nice job , I’m really about to be 20 in 5 more days and I can’t share that with you ! I remember when I was 10 and we took the Father’s Day photo you said every 5 years we’ll take another .. ig you had other plans

Today is your day I wish I was able to take the boys to see you but I just had major back surgery I’ll make it up to you promise. We miss you dearly as the days passes and the year come and go it just reminds me you are really no longer here today you make 44 years old turn up in heaven and save me a sit love you forever HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY

CP3 will always live on

I’m started to forget what your voice sounds like , I hate it here.

Oh my love how I Miss you daily. Sometimes I don’t feel like moving on because I don’t want to really love or trust anyone else. Chad I know you looking down on these boys and see how big they have gotten I pray that you are pleased. They miss you so much I wish I can turn back the hands of time so you could have had more time with them/us. Today is and forever will be a day that I will never be able to let go of just like September 23,1999 or July 27,2006 the day we 1st laid eyes on each other and the day you came home and asked me to be your wife Chad it never gets easier when you have lost the love of your life I have not been the same you departed from us and I don’t k ow if I ever will. I love you my love forever and always keep resting and watching over us. Until we meet again No Grind No Shine
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This doesn't gets easier cuzz... I often ask why cuz I just do not understand!!! How can I not question why you were taken away from us.. I miss and love u dearly and will continue to scream ur name till they throw that dirt on top of me

They say with time things gets better but in all reality it dont. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you. I really miss you dearly and wish things was different. We wanted you here but God needed you there. save a place up there for me. I miss you so much i do not know how to express. I love you my favorite cousin my best friend my brother....

The pain never gets better

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.

I miss you everday. The boys are well n I can't stress it enough how much they remind me of you. I wish you could have had just a little bit longer. It's been 2 years n it seems like it all juaet happned. Your legacy will live on through these boys n the love I have for you. Rest in peace my FRIEND.

You have gone to be with the Lord. Words can't express my most deepiest feelings or thoughts. We love you and I promise as the mother of our children I will see them through. Never letting them forget you and what they meant to you.

There's not a day goes by that i let the sun set without saving time apart from my day to give u some of my time. I still ask why you cause i dont understand. We were like butter and rice, peanut butter and jelly,a lighter to a square. And just like that you were gone. My heart has an empty spot that probably wont ever b filled. I use to tell u all d time make memories take pictures cuz we never know. Who would have known that you would b the first of the three..your absence saddens my heart so but i know i have to keep pushing. I love and miss you so much words cant even explain. You were more than just a cousin u were my heart and now a piece of it is gone and it skips a beat where u belong. Hold it down up there for me. And when i get there we gon party like we was at our fav spot. (carros). Keep sleeping in peace cousin see u wen i make it.

Honey I think about you so much to the point that I dream about you... OMG it be so real, like I actually hear your voice and you always let me know that you're okay... I love you so much my baby and believe me when I tell you honey you are MISSED... Continue to REST in Heaven