Son can't believe you would be 43 today. Happy heavenly birthday to my first love. I miss you so much and can't keep the sadness away. I love you, rest easy baby, don't worry about me. They say it gets easier, I say it gets harder. Until I see you again Son

Happy birthday, Chucky!! I miss you now and every day.

Hi dad. I miss you. There’s so much I want to tell you. I hope you’re proud of me, everything I do is for you. I hope you’re happy and that your days are filled with joy. As the years pass it gets harder not easier. I was too young to fully understand everything when you passed, but now I do and I wish I could travel back in time and hug you and never let you go. I love you, I love you, I love you. Please hold on to that.

11 years, I’m now 3 years older than you were before you left us. Thinking of you always… love you, until we see each other again. ❤️

This year hit different.. Im 31, can you believe it? I miss you. I know you know. Life has been so different these past 11 years and I still replay my “what if’s”, I think I always will. Your kids are beautiful and mine are getting older... I love you, brother wish this was just another day to us in the year.. insignificant. If we were to celebrate something it would of been with you, not for you. I always hold onto every memory of you, deeply!

Until we can smoke a bleezy up there, I’ll smoke one for you down here. You’re terribly missed

Another year without you baby, another year of wishing you were still here, another year of missing you like crazy...I dreamnt about you last night and I cherish those moments of time I get. It doesn't matter if I remember every detail, it's the fact you came to visit me when I needed your presence the most. I love you so much son. But where there was deep love, there is also deep sorrow.Tell grandma and grandpa hi for me.

Hey Chuck, been thinking about you a lot lately. Doesn’t ever seem like it’s really been as long as it’s been. The older I get, the urge to have a relationship with you, brother, doesn’t lessen. I still see your face in crowds, hear you speaking to me through the songs, and get glimpses of signs when I need them. I know you’ve never really left and that I find comforting.. I guess I just wanted to let you know that you are very much missed. Forever

Love you Son

It's getting harder and harder to stay positive and to keep going through the motions of holidays as the years keep passing. I don't know if it's because I'm getting older and feeling more tired and alone at times like this but I miss you Son always. Happy heavenly birthday baby Mom loves you so much. Rest easy please don't worry about me I'll be fine but be there for your babies they need you still.

Loving you everyday and missing you even more. Continue to watch over us please you have a lot of extra squeezable babies down here but I’m sure you know that and see them. Until I see you again bubba.

Missing you, especially today Chucky. I love you today and for a lifetime

Hard to believe it's been 10 years. It never gets easier, but you already know that...you hear me...you see me and you know there is not a day that I don't think about you. I know you don't like me to cry or feel sad but it's the price I pay for losing my first love, my first baby. Your kids are doing great things Son and it's all you ❤️ thank you! Until we meet again Son hug grandma and grandpa a little tighter for me today

Happy heavenly birthday Son. Hard to believe you would be 41 today. I miss you and pray for you everyday. There's not a day that I don't think of you. I can see your smile and hear you laugh when I close my eyes, so I tried to sleep the day away. I know you're just a heartbeat away and my comfort is in knowing you are with grandpa and grandma and when I make my journey I'll never let you go again ❤

Missing you very much! I miss the feeling of looking forward to seeing you. You were always a great time! I hope that you're okay, now. I pray you're happy and whole and able to feel all the love we send you. The holidays are always hard, but this year is exceptionally harder. I pray you lead us into the next year and that it is abundant in family, love and blessings. I'll always be missing you. Merry Christmas, Chucky. I love you!!

9 years... But the pain is still as fresh as that day. You have a new nephew. But I'm sure you already knowthat. I find solace in the fact that you held him even before I did. I think about you every day. ❤ love you bubba.

What can I say or pray about today that I haven't already prayed about or thought about a thousand times. Praying you were still here...praying for another chance....praying we could go back to that day and do things differently. Son I would have done anything for you. These tears I shed today are because you are loved so much, but don't be sad for me Son. I'm meant to live with this heartache forever, its a true testament to my unconditional love everyday. I hope you feel this and not my sadness. Give grandma, grandpa and my sisters a big hug for me. Watch over your kids Son, they need you to. I will always keep watch over them as long as I'm breathing. Don't worry or be restless about anything. Rest easy Son until we're together again ❤❤

Always on m mind Son. So many milestones happening right with your babies that I wish you were here physically to share. But I know in my heart you're not far! ❤❤ love you Son, always Mom

I thought of you and cried today but that is nothing new...
Happy 40th birthday Chucky. I'm sorry it took me so long to leave a tribute on here. But I'm doing this for mom more than anybody, because you know I speak with you constantly.... Just you and I.
It's been a rough year and i feel myself thinking about you even more now...maybe because I never realized just how young you were when you left us. I knew you were young but being able to physically and personally imagine how young,my age, hurts my heart to the core.
Anyway.... I love you always. And will always celebrate your life..as long as I'm here. Until we celebrate again together. Love you bubba.

As long as I'm alive I will always celebrate your day of birth. Happy Heavenly Birthday...


Love you always Son ❤❤

Happy 40th, Chucky! Today we are in celebration of you and the beautiful memories you've left with us.. I love you and miss you, always.

Merry Christmas in heaven Son, they say it gets easier with time, but it doesn't. What it has made me realize is that I should have been more kind and understanding of my mama, she lost 2 of her most precious gifts during her time on earth. For some reason this year has me missing you more and more. Maybe cause I'm getting older and the years are just flying by. Hug your grandparents for me. I love you always and forever

                   MOM ❤❤

Good morning, Chucky. I talked about you last night and still woke up with you heavy on my mind. It's weird to be writing this on here and not just texting Amy "Wanna make flautas tonight!?" when we'd wanna see you. Making sure to grab green apple Smirnoffs because you never touched the Coors that always sat in our fridge.. I miss having you here. All the stoner conversations we would of had by now!! I feel robbed. I didnt have enough time. Thinking of you on good days, just as much as my bad.

I love you so much Son. Can't believe its been 8 years. I brought your girls to Albuquerque for a couple of days, a place we traveled together and that you love as much as i do ❤ there are so many things I wished I could talk to you about. On the way here I shared a couple of stories about you, which I always love to do. Don't forget about me and tell grandma and grandpa not to worry about us. Love you always

It's my birthday, Chucky! I woke up today thinking about everyone, including you. Thinking about how we'll all be together tonight to celebrate life and how those are my most favorite days. What any of us wouldn't do, to have you here celebrating too.. know that I miss you and that I love you.

Love you and missing you always Son....❤❤ Mom

You've been on my mind constantly son, just want to tell you I love you and miss you. I closed on my new house, wish you were here with me in person on this journey. The kids are going to love living out there I hope. You know this has always been a dream of mine and was your Grandpa's dream that he would be living out there too someday. I'm very fortunate that I can fulfill this dream and all of this wouldn't have been possible without my family. I can't thank them and God enough. I love you and miss talking to you. Love mom.

I haven't visited this site for a while, but wanted you to know I'm thinking of you, on this day and everyday. Just had to get out of town for the weekend, of course it was spent where we had many happy times together, Romannose. Spent the time reflecting on things I wished I could change and on things I know will never be different. I had a visitor the last night I was there, don't know if it was you, but I pray it was. I felt so at peace the next day, I felt like I could really get through the day. Stopped by the cemetery on the way home, saw 3 birds flying overhead, I know your not there but it brings me comfort to clean the old flowers and dust off the dirt and weeds. I just had to laugh because as me and Andrea were sitting on her porch visiting and talking about you, the appliance repair truck with "Chucks" drove by. We just looked at each other and laughed knowing you were there at that moment. Please don't worry about me, I want nothing but peace for you, Grandpa and Grandma. Let your kids know that you are still here, visit them in dreams, show them you are still around. I love you son and had no idea you thought of me as your best friend. That means so much to me! I love you Son and when it's my time, I know we will be together again. But until then, know that I will be here for your kids, don't worry I'll take care of them and see to it that they hear stories about you constantly...love you always....Mom.

Love you Son. Spent your birthday enjoying the kids and letting them have fun. Let them pick the place to eat that night and told them we could go anywhere they wanted to, but instead of trying something new and different, they picked Red Lobster! Thought about you all day and how I would let you pick the place you wanted to eat on your day, these memories I will hold forever. Love Mom

It's been a couple of months since I visited this site. The kids had fun I love talking about you and telling them stories about you when you spent time in New Mexico. It seems everywhere I go there is a memory of you being there with me. I miss you so much Son, but as a friend recently said to me, "your son is your redemption"...I truly believe that and will try not to let you and God down. I have donated money and time for different causes this holiday season and I always do these gestures in your name because no matter what you've always had a giving heart and soul. Of course you know this but we made a visit to your gravesite on Thanksgiving and Veronica saw a large bird, don't know if it was an owl or hawk but I'm hoping it was you letting us know you are still near, because I need you to be Son....Mom

Getting out of town this weekend with the kids...wishing you were here to make this trip with us. Just know that no matter how far away we are from home you are in our hearts and minds, I will be praying for your peace and salvation as we pass the second year without you. I love you always son...mom

As it gets closer to that fateful day, I get anxious and all of the events of that summer come back to me over and over again, I have to make myself believe that " I did the best I could", but it's hard because I will always feel like there was more I could have done to keep you here...just know that I love you son, always, mom.

Took the kids to Turner Falls thought about you the entire time and how much fun it would have been to see you playing with the kids...wishing you were here and everywhere. Thinking about all the good times we had on trips...love you son!

Miss you Son...

Wish you were here to enjoy your children...but somehow I know you are watching on the sidelines...thank you for them Chuck...they are the best gift you could have given me cause they made me a grandma! I know I wasn't happy at first because I didn't think you were ready but they are a part of you that will be with me always...love you son, I'll help take care of them...Love Mom...

Just sitting here thinking of you like always, praying that you have found peace...love you!