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April 28
April 28
I miss being his poo poo or poop poop I miss him embarrassing me with his overalls and his chewing tobacco waiting for me on the porch after school I miss his warm old man smile miss helping him clean his dentures, change his spitting cups, I miss him doing a dosey doe with me once while dancing to bluegrass after church every Sunday night I miss spinning to the music while he played banjo on his walking cane i miss being scared of old mans ass whoopings running to a closet once hiding because i misbehaved at church i miss his hats his plaid button ups I miss his handkerchiefs I miss folding them how ever many ways I could think I miss coming home with Grandma for him to be out in yard knowing damn well he's not suppose to i miss him riding his lawn mower driving it with the wagon for loads of sticks i miss him riding it with thw sleigh hooked up as he drove me around our big ditch, i remember him letting me drive the lawn mower and i accidently ran into the generator but he wasnt too mad because it sounded better at least, I miss his garden time I miss sitting on porch with him, I miss the small things like getting in trouble for running through the living room and him trying to pop me as i try my best not to get popped, I miss hearing him and grandma get into those "SHELBY" "CHARLES" back and forth, i miss crawling under the table after dinner from being in back side of table, I miss hearing people call him wildcat i miss him driving to the friend up the street in his lawn mower, i miss him I miss how frustated he'd get with me pushing him in the wheelchair from his room to mine because i was too fast or bumpy for him i miss his hot dog in his pocket silly moment i miss him i miss being able to see him one last time...I miss him falling it was so frustrating but grandpa never wanted to be bed ridden I miss trying to convince them for a dog I miss his chair I miss how he had to take forever leaving church because he always had to talk to his people. I MISS U SO MUCH POP I hurt so bad without u I'm at church I'm trying for u I'm trying to be strong I'm ur little nurse I'm ur baby I love u so damn much why'd u have to leave so quick u were supposed to watch me graduate watch me graduate college too u couldn't leave my yet not like that I love u please pop please watch over me..