It's that time of year again. You start to creep into my thoughts more than usual. I pulled out "The Earth is not a Cold Dead Place" again... because you're listening, I've always loved that. Ever since you left, it's feels like when I read that, they're talking about you.
I spend so much time reflecting on why you left, why I'm still here, and what the hell it all means. Why is life so hard? Is it all just conditioning for our final hour? That's my current theory at least...
It's taken me a while, and even though I was never mad at ya, don't take this gratitude the wrong way. More than anything I wish you'd stayed, but thank you for this challenge Chelsi.
I can't help seeing your sweet sleeping face in my minds eye. If only chat had never died, maybe, just maybe...
It's so hard not to wonder, what if? Ya know? If only things could have been that simple.
<3