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Her Life

7 years ago

May 24, 2012
what beautiful moments we have in this life, but it is short, to be treasured. Your life was 90 hours long, which is far less than most people get but you made a change. If this is how life should be lived what will you do with your next 90 hours?

Today you would have been 6

May 24, 2011

It is pouring with rain and it is cold, very much like the day we brought you home from the hospital. The twins stayed with me today and it has been a very emotional week for our whole family. A very emotional month for that matter. We lost 2 additional dear family aunts in the past 4 weeks and with your anniversary approaching it is the ever present knowledge that yet another year has gone by.

This year is  specifically hard as it would have been your first school year and you would have gone to big school now. There is no words that can describe the pain I am in, but for the sake of the children and those still with me I decided to celebrate your life today. Make a special meal and a cake with candles and balloons so that as a family we will remember our special baby.

You will always be in our hearts and minds and regardless of the day you are only a thought away and I want the twins to know that they are here, bacause of you the other child.

We miss you and always love you

Mommy

 

Eric Clapton - Tears In Heaven lyrics

Sad early days

June 3, 2010

When you passed life changed forever and nothing meant sense for a long time. One of the songs I simply loved

 

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I want to be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes
Everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light
And the world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me
Gives me strength when I'm weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
Is had enough
It's givin' more when you feel like givin' up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes
I can see the future
A reflection of who I am
And what we'll be
And though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone
I hope you'll see
How happy she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

By Martina McBride

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLS0Y40WwlA

Early days

May 24, 2010

 

 

Born at 7:50am

Weight 3.32kg

Height 48cm

APGAR Score 9/10

Not the sort of information one asks of any girl, regardless her age. She was our first born and would have been 5 years old today. She arrived 2 weeks overdue on a cold Autumn morning as the 1st baby born on that particular Tuesday. A wonderful day for me and my husband. The fact that You're one in a million was playing in the theatre at the time they took her out can be considered a coincidence, but later turn out to be so true! She was one in a million.

No indication that there was something wrong we went through the routine of the hospital and did all the right things. In the few short days she shared our lives I am glad I spend most of my days with her. She slept most of the time next to my bed rather than in the nursery. Not something that the nurses were too happy about, but was my choice!

I was fortunate to give her, her first bath after we had hand and foot prints made on the 2nd day. Photos were taken on that day as well. I don't regret the choices we made in those 4 days since we can never have it back and it was one of the happiest days in my life.

I am glad both her dad and I had experienced this blessing, the miracle of life without that we would not have known the joys of parenthood and the ability of the human heart to love unconditionally.

Although her life was short, she made us better parents to Cameron and Chelsea and for that we will as a family always be greatful, we know what is important in this life!

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