when I found out I was pregnant with my 2 nd baby had hard time being sick was a really hot summer he was due end June well he waiting 2 weeks later came on July 2 1986 was the second best time I got my gift from God my baby boy didnt never find out what my kids was til they were born he was amazing boy growing up he played all sports he was a diffrent little boy he always told me everything things you would think a kid would keep secret but not him I knew everything about girl friends then his grew up got married had 2 amazing boys with his wife April Carson was from a girl before marriage I had custody of him when he was 4 days old he loved his daddy very much knew he was his daddy if been momma to him his whole life Christopher was a family man got lots of pic of them had a boat house was down on lake that's were they were all the time loved riding his motorcycle with his friends he made sure his family had what they needed and wanted then the worst night of my life began got the call that September 1 2018 saying my son had shot hisself didnt think about it taking him away from us didnt get to hold my baby that last time cause they wouldnt let me in house I didnt care I just wanted to hold my baby didnt get to tell him bye I love you or nothing it's been hardest 5 months of my life so far but I will always make sure his babys knows who there daddy was I got lots of pic and his school things baby things they will have it all I just know God needed my baby back I had 32 years with him I just never thought I would have to put any my babys in the ground oh so hard I know in my heart he is still inside of me just cant see him fill him it's like the wind is all I can fill at times thanks for ever reads this always keep us in prayers it still so so hard wrote by a mother with a broken heart sherry