I have so many running though my head always the one that pops into my thoughts often is the day you came home in your truck parked across the street I was at the window when you drove up and parked  You got out of your truck phone in your hand and you just started walking across the street  Didn't look right or left just Started walk  So young and so carefree I watched you walk across the street just looking at phone you're wearing your blue shirt and red your cap your red running shoes I love that memory❤

It's a beautiful hot sunny day this August 18th my heart is heavy and even those it sunny and hot I feel dark and cold I miss you so much...  your smile... your jokes... the sound of your phone going off every second I miss seeing you eating a quick sandwich you made over he sink cause your in a rush to meet someone somewhere... I can just picture it in my mind your finishing up your sandwich in one hand phone in the other heading for the door say bye Maw love u see u later.... but your not here once again and we're left to get through the day without you I spent the day in our back yard messaging Nikita all day.... she's still pretty messed up losing you .....we will be meeting a the G Site later on this evening well Happy Birthday Christopher I love u  Saturday is your Annual BIRTHDAY BBQ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

This was written by me last year to be posted for last years birthday but I see today it sitting here wasn't posted so I'm posting it
We had your BBQ Birthday Garthing  yesterday it was nice... The sun came out for us.. Your friends and family were all there... you were in everyone's thoughts... Everyone was suppose to bring a memory.... your Aunty Karen had a mug made up with a family picture of your dad me and you.. What a Nice gift a wonderful special  memory.    My heart is broken seems so empty I miss you so much sweetie words can't explain how much my world is so empty without you here Happy Birthday to you my sweet son I love you